A Determined Heart is What Teacher Requires of Me

(Clearwisdom.net) I obtained the Fa in July 1996, when my boyfriend (now my husband) gave me a copy of Zhuan Falun (the principal book in Falun Dafa) and said, "Have a look at this." I finished the book at one go, reading it everywhere I went, on the bus, or while walking. I formed only one thought from reading the book: This is the way a human being should be. It was a thought that was simple but firm.

On the afternoon of April 24, 1999, when I heard that some fellow practitioners [from Tianjin City] had been arrested and beaten [by Tianjin City police], I could not hold back my tears thinking that practitioners are better than good people! Our Teacher teaches us to first think of others at all times.

On the morning of April 25, I was reading Zhuan Falun while traveling on an underground train to go to appeal for what had happened the previous day. I gradually came to a new understanding, and the feeling of grievances I had earlier suddenly vanished like mist and smoke. I felt light and clearheaded, everything around me looked purer and fresher.

Throughout the appeal, I stood upright, feeling solemn and peaceful. I knew that every action and thought of mine represented Dafa. I wanted to verify Dafa with my actions, and I would not let even a trivial move or a tiny flash of thought go unchecked. As time went by, the police changed from being stern at the beginning, to being surprised, then they started to chat with us. A team leader of the police even said with deep emotion, "My daughter-in-law should practice this too." He took a copy of Zhuan Falun and went to read it in a car. A lot of passersby came over to inquire, and many left with books we gave them, saying, "Straight away, I can tell you are good people. I believe you." In the afternoon, many practitioners saw that the sky was full of Faluns (law wheels). Although I could not see them, I firmly believed that what we were doing was the most righteous and just thing.

After July 20, 1999, I was suspended from my job for clarifying the truth at work. So I went to clarify the truth to the party secretary. In the end he smiled and said, "I didn't expect that you were so capable at such a tender age, and so convincing in what you said." The director sent me to the base for laid-off workers, where I continued to clarify the truth every day with all my energy and spirit. Many more people listened to me and even took initiative to ask me questions. They not only learned the truth, some also read Dafa books.

Later, the director said he would go to talk to my parents-in-law [asking them to convince me to give up the practice]. I told my husband about it when I got home. To my surprise, he said to me, "Just tell them you won't practice any more!" Hearing this, I shed tears. I didn't care if I had no home to return to, and I didn't care if I had to live on the street. What made me feel sad was that a fellow practitioner could have even asked me to do things against Dafa. Dafa created everything in the cosmos, and the lives that reject Dafa are the ones who truly have no home to return to!

The next day, the leaders in my work place said to me, "We are going to your home right now. Think clearly!" Calmly I said, "Go ahead." To my great surprise, when I got home after work, my parents-in-law called me over with a smile on their face. It turned out that the party secretary and the director said a lot of complimentary words about how good I was at work.

I know in my heart that what Teacher requires of me is nothing other than a determined heart!

Recently, a community board in our neighborhood was covered with pictures slandering Dafa. So I made up my mind that I would remove them. However, every time I walked closer to the board, there were a lot of people around, and I became scared. Because of this, I didn't do anything for a long time. But every time I walked by I felt my heart was aching as if someone had stabbed it with a knife. At last, I made up my mind that I would do something about it. One morning, after I finished doing the exercises and sending forth righteous thoughts, I set out, taking my daughter with me. On the first try, I tore off the first row of the pictures. Then there were people coming, so I walked away with my daughter. A little while later, I came back to take off the second row. It wasn't easy and made a lot of noise. I felt that I had been there long enough, so I walked away again. But there was still one more row of pictures. I must get them all off! So I came back to the board again. Just then, my little daughter, who was barely one year old, let go of my hand, toddled over to the board, tore off a picture and smiled at me. "Good girl, Teacher's little disciple!" I tore off the last row in one breath.

I relaxed for only one day before I found that the same place was again covered with evil pictures, ten times as many. I was shocked, and my mind was full of conflicting thoughts. One side thought, there were too many pictures, etc. Then I felt that I still had fear after I eliminated them the last time, and this test was even bigger! Once again, I made up my mind. After sending forth righteous thoughts, I started to recite Teacher's poem "To live with no pursuits, To die with no regrets; All excessive thoughts extinguished, Cultivating Buddhahood is not difficult." ["Non-existence" from Hong Yin, Teacher's Poetry Collection, un-official translation]. After I became determined, I felt very calm. I walked to the board with vigorous strides. What happened? The pictures were all gone! Truly gone. In their place were things about some sort of conferences.

I smiled in my heart. What Teacher requires of me is nothing other than a determined heart!

December 16, 2001
Chinese version available at http://minghui.ca/mh/articles/2001/12/16/21484.html

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