(Clearwisdom.net) Before the 16th Party Congress, I was kidnapped and taken to a local government office. The evil wanted to break down my determination to get information about our local Dafa activities in order to further persecute fellow practitioners and destroy our truth-clarifying material site. I held one single thought: I will not cause any loss to Dafa or fellow practitioners.
The police locked me in a room where four or five men surrounded me. One of them held the handcuffs and threatened to cuff me. I resisted firmly and stared directly into his eyes. Shortly after, they all left the room, and didn't talk about cuffing me anymore.
They got nothing from me. Three days later, I was sent to a brainwashing class, where I continued to resist their persecution. They forced us to watch videotapes slandering Dafa. I refused to watch them and kept sending forth righteous thoughts. At last they gave up. During my detention in the brainwashing center, they found all types of excuses to interrogate me. They also threatened that I would be sentenced to a forced labor camp, because being detained there was too easy for me. I knew that everything that happened was because of my attachments, so I kept looking inward to let go my own attachments and in the meantime kept resisting all persecution.
As soon as I was sent to the brainwashing center, managers of my work unit came to see me, telling me to cooperate with the brainwashing. They had tried to send me to brainwashing classes several times before but didn't succeed. The old forces utilized Dafa practitioners' human notions to persecute us, but our Master doesn't acknowledge this and I was not going to acknowledge it either. I was determined to fully deny all arrangements of the old forces and leave the brainwashing center with righteous thoughts. I thought in my mind, "I must do it well. I cannot be detained here. I have to go out and continue clarifying the truth to save sentient beings." I started a hunger and made up my mind to continue until they released me.
Through my truth-clarifying efforts, the two monitors who were assigned to watch me learned the truth about Dafa. They understood me and were willing to help me. On the sixth day of my hunger strike, my family members came to see me. They were not allowed to visit me under normal circumstances. As soon as they saw how weak and sick I was, they requested to take me to the hospital. The evil persecutors refused, claiming that I had to write the "four letters" (guaranteeing not to practice) before they would release me. I kept sending forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil factors in other dimensions behind those evil persons. Finally, they allowed me to go to the hospital, and in this way I came out of the brainwashing class and returned to the current of Fa-rectification.
There were also some things that I didn't do well. When I was arrested, my understanding was not stable. Because of my human feelings and attachments, I signed the so-called investigation report, though I knew it was wrong. I regretted very much doing that. I realized my biggest attachments were human sentimentality and the underlying fear. I hope fellow practitioners can learn from my lessons and take every step well.
I learned many things during this period and I would like to share with fellow practitioners.
- The power of righteous thoughts
- Cultivation of Speech
- Face all problems with righteous thoughts and do not be moved by human mentality
I felt more than once that righteous thoughts are powerful. During the period I was detained at the government office, a thug tried in vain to force me to write a guarantee letter and said some dirty words. Shortly after, I sent forth righteous thoughts and he left the room. One afternoon when I was at the brainwashing class, two male staff members came into my room. I sent forth righteous thought as soon as they came in: I would not allow them to persecute me. Right away, they were paged to answer phone calls and never came again after that. I fully realized that once my heart was righteous and my mind was righteous; my thoughts based on the Fa could do anything.
Cultivation of speech is very important. If we don't do well cultivating our speech, we will cause bigger losses to Dafa and other practitioners.
When I was arrested, my family members frequently blamed the practitioner who leaked information about me in order to shake my righteous thoughts. My heart was very calm and I told them I did not blame anybody. I had no regrets or hatred. Since then they haven't said a word about it. I understood that all the bad deeds were done by the evil; it was the persecution evil imposed on fellow practitioners that caused the leak. None of this would have happened if there were no evil persecution. Of course, one must take responsibility for what he/she does during this process. I should do better in sending forth righteous thoughts, clarifying the truth and eliminating evil forces persecuting Dafa practitioners. I felt at ease and peaceful when not being moved by human thoughts and emotions.
Due to the limitation of my level, there might be mistakes or comments that do not comply with Fa principles in this article. All corrections or comments of fellow practitioners are welcomed.
December 14, 2002
