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Dafa Has Given Me Everything--My Journey of Cultivation (Part 1) By Zheng Xinxin, a practitioner from Mainland China
(Clearwisdom.net) Editors' Note: The author states at the end of this
article: "Hereby, I would like to share my cultivation experience with my
most respected Teacher; to express my gratitude for his constant protection,
guidance, and teachings; to validate the magnificence, greatness, and the
inviolable sacredness of Dafa through my personal experience. It is my hope that
my cultivation and Fa-rectification experience will be helpful to my fellow
practitioners and beings in the future." In this vein, we would like to see
more fellow practitioners come forward to share their cultivation experiences. Obtaining the Fa - With Falun Dafa I Began a New Life I had feared death ever since I was young. Sometimes, I would be laying in
bed at night but would not dare close my eyes for fear that once I fell asleep I
would not wake up. Even as an adult this feeling haunted me. One day I found out that a co-worker from our company was practicing a qigong
that cultivates one's heart. When I met her I asked her, "I heard that you
are practicing qigong, which one?" She happily told me, "Falun
Gong." She explained to me what Falun Gong is about. I was very happy to
learn about Falun Gong. At noon that day, I borrowed the book Falun Gong from
her. I read the book from cover to cover without interruption. My heart and soul
were deeply awed. The fear of death that had haunted me all my life was gone
completely. I understood the true meaning of life. At that moment, I wanted to
cry whole-heartedly. I could not help repeating, "I am saved. I am
saved." Once I calmed down, I immediately thought to myself that I must begin to
conduct myself according to what was stated in the book. Suddenly, my thought
went to a person who I really hated. I thought that I should forgive her, and
that I shouldn't hate her anymore (not long before, she had telephoned me and
called me bad names). I got up my courage to pick up the phone to call her and I
told her that I had forgiven her. At the end of our conversation, she said,
"This is what you should do." This is the first time that I
experienced the beauty of forgiveness. In the afternoon, I decided to go to my mother's home to let her know about
this great experience. At that moment a miracle occurred. I suddenly felt that
my entire body was very light, almost weightless. I floated to my mother's home
as if someone was carrying me. Usually, it would take me 30 minutes to walk
home, but this time I made it home in 10 minutes. On top of that, I was not
tired at all. This experience further convinced me that Falun Gong is not an
ordinary qigong. Everything stated in the book is true. November 23, 1996 is a
most meaningful day for me because it was a turning point in my life, a point in
time when my true life began. Study the Fa - Dafa is the Source of My Life Soon after I obtained the Fa, I went on a business trip to the United States,
where I got to know a Chinese-American practitioner. He had a great impact on my
Fa study. He could talk about the Fa from within the Fa and he was very
rational. The most striking thing he said to me was, "The words in Zhuan
Falun are alive. As long as you immerse yourself in the book and try to
assimilate with it, you are not just reading the book, but, the book is talking
to you." What he said was interesting and refreshing, and I was sure what
he said was true. Why didn't I have this feeling? It must be that when I studied
the Fa I did not completely immerse my body and soul into the Fa. Although I was
striving forward, I was focused mainly on exercises. I had an incorrect notion
that as long as I endured hardships I would elevate to higher levels. I did not
grasp that the quickest and most effective means to raise one's levels is
through Fa study and xinxing (mind nature) cultivation. After I came to realize my shortcoming, I spent a lot of time studying the Fa
every day. Almost all of my time outside of work was used to study the Fa. The
more I studied the Fa, the more I liked to study it. The more I studied the
book, the more things I would discover in the book. Every time I finished
reading the book I would find something new. Whenever I picked up the book I
could not put it down. The book is so intriguing because every word in it has
life - the life is higher than you; every word reveals something new and
enlightens. I also found that while you are studying the Fa, you also need to
practice, i.e., to eliminate attachments. Even if you are looking at some truth
in the book, but do not let go of the attachment, it will act as a wall, which
prevents you from really seeing the truth. Therefore, only when you study the Fa
can you realize your attachments, distinguish yourself, detect the wrong notion,
and then eliminate the attachments. In this way you can rise to higher levels. I also realized the majesty and sacredness of Dafa. Because life is complex
and the main primordial spirit is lost in this human world, if there were no
Dafa and no Teacher you would never be able to cultivate. In this modern
society, the mind of human beings is filled with warped notions and selfish
thoughts. These things, which are also alive, cover up your primordial spirit,
preventing it from taking effect. Whenever you meet with problems, it is the
warped notions and thoughts that are controlling you. If you want to return to
your true self and have your main primordial spirit dominate, you must eliminate
these bad things. How could it be so easy! If you do not cultivate in the Fa,
you will have no power. How can your main primordial spirit defeat these bad
things and break off their control of you? Therefore, the only way to return to
your true self is through cultivation in the Fa. Only your primordial spirit can
assimilate to the Fa; notions are opposite to the Fa. Thus, only the Fa can
awaken your true self. Only with the power of the Fa can you win over bad
things, eliminate and defeat them. Only with the Fa can you emancipate yourself
and awaken your primordial spirit. I realized that the colossal universe we live in is like a gigantic
three-dimensional network, with interconnections that run vertically,
horizontally, inside out, and up and down. All life is included in it; the only
difference is its position in the net. For example, the network of humankind is
very complex. As a human, you must live your life within the network. If you
want to become a divine being, you must jump out of the network. Therefore, all
the complex factors that relate to you have to be shaken up, including people,
substances, events, etc, i.e., everything you are attached to. These factors
will all hinder your departure, because they think that you belong to them. The
more you are attached to them, the more they will hinder you, and the more
difficult it will be to detach from them. When you want to cultivate to higher
levels, there will be even more complex factors. How can you break through and
break off from them? It is very difficult. Only Dafa possesses the mighty power that enables you to break through layers
upon layers of attachments because Dafa is the fundamental law of the universe. Therefore,
the Fa is the source of all the life in the universe. Consequently, studying the
Fa is most critical to cultivation. To be continued 2002-11-23 Posting date: 12/30/2002 |