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Whether or Not Your Mind Is On The Fa (Clearwisdom.net) I started practicing Falun Gong in 1995. I have always
proudly thought of myself as a veteran practitioner, but now I feel that I don't
quite meet the standard of a true practitioner. For close to two years since
2002, I had not studied the Fa with a calm mind, and I did not do the exercises
much. I sent righteous thoughts so seldom that it was pathetic. Not until
October 27, 2003, did I again listen to the "Teacher's Lecture in Jinan"
cassette tapes that I stored away carefully for more than two years. I
remembered only one sentence by Teacher after listening to all 8 cassettes: Whether or not your mind is on the Fa. On October 31, 2003, I took a bus to visit a fellow practitioner. On my way
to the bus station I thought, "I am on my way to a fellow practitioner's home
and I won't post truth-clarification materials today. That way no one can arrest
me. I must return home safely." Immediately, another thought immerged, "Even
though I am on my way to his home, why don't I post truth-clarification
material? Why should I be arrested? Am I doing anything wrong? Why can't I post
the flyers and also return home safely? Who has given me this improper thought?
This is definitely not in accordance with the Fa. Purge that thought. I won't
take anything that is not based on the Fa. I will post the flyers and will
return home safely. Teacher asked us to tell the truth about the persecution and
to save sentient beings. Only the evil would keep me from posting flyers."
Yet I just could not muster the courage to post the flyers while looking at
the people sweeping the street and pedestrians nearby. Another thought popped
up, "There are too few people here, go find a more crowded place to post the
flyers. Only the good people can see me posting the flyers, the bad people can
not see me." Then I started thinking to myself, this was not right, "Why
shouldn't the bad people see? There are no more bad people around because the
evil was scared and on the run." I thought, "I must post the flyers. Every
single thought of mine must be completely based on the Fa. I won't allow any
thoughts forced on me by the evil." I could sense that my righteous thoughts were gaining strength and I kept
purging my own improper thoughts. When I got to the bus station, I figured that
I would post the flyer as soon as I saw the bus coming and then quickly hop on
the bus and leave. That is how I usually get it done. Yet I waited for nearly
ten minutes and still did not see the bus coming. I told myself to post the
flyer no matter what. So I posted the flyer right on the bus station sign. The
bus that I was waiting for arrived in less than two minutes. I could only understand the Fa to this level. As soon as an idea pops out, check
right away to see whether it conforms to Dafa or it was forced upon us by the
evil. Reject it, repel it and eradicate it if it was not discussed within the Fa,
taught by Teacher, and does not conform to the Fa. When I was writing this
experience-sharing article, I thought often that my education was lacking and I
could not express my thoughts well. I nearly held it back. But I thought again,
if my mind were on the Fa, then what I write would be good. Please kindly
correct any shortcomings in my experience. Posting date: 11/30/2003 |