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My Six-year Journey of Cultivation and Fa-rectification By a Practitioner from China
(Clearwisdom.net) I obtained Dafa in March of 1997. Since then, six years
have passed. During those years I have walked a tough and bumpy road. Everything
that has happened during those six years is still vivid in my mind. In order to
share with fellow practitioners, I have decided to write about the events. I
hope this can help us to improve together. Before I practiced Falun Dafa, I was known as a sickly person. I was ill
throughout my body. In particular, the gynecological disease I suffered from
made me unable to live without Chinese medicines. My face was always swollen and
sallow, and I had a very bad temper. Soon after I began practicing Falun Dafa,
all my illnesses were cured and my xinxing [moral character] improved as
well. My colleagues said that I had turned into a completely different person.
Study the Fa and Cultivate Xinxing I started studying the Fa and doing the exercises in March of 1997. Shortly
after, I felt that Master had purified my body. Through Fa study, I understood
that cultivation practice is to cultivate one's heart. When encountering a
xinxing test or difficulties in the workplace I measured my behavior using
Truthfulness, Compassion, and Forbearance. My righteous behavior won me the
trust and support of my supervisors and colleagues. Steadfastly Cultivate Dafa and Follow Master Closely After July 20, 1999, I realized that I should assist Master in the Fa-rectification.
I began spreading Dafa to people around me. I clarified the truth to them by
talking about my cultivation experience and telling them how Master taught us to
be noble people with high morals. I helped them understand that the propaganda
on TV was nothing more than rumors and slander. Through studying the Fa with a
calm heart, I realized that I should go to Beijing to validate Dafa. In December of 1999, my son and I took the train to Beijing with two other
practitioners. We stood for eight straight hours on the train. Whenever there
was a seat available, we gave it to other passengers. Although we stood all the
way to Beijing, we didn't feel tired; instead, our bodies were light. We knew we
were doing a most divine thing. The following day, as soon as we entered
Tiananmen Square, we were dragged into a police car. The police slapped the
faces of the fellow practitioners in the car. They also beat them and swore at
them. My son wears glasses. As soon as he got into the car, he was beaten and
his glasses were taken away. Later, they sent us to the local government office
in Beijing. A police officer with badge number 11117179 held my son in the car.
They drove back to Tiananmen Square to arrest more practitioners. On the way
there they tortured my son brutally. The policemen forced him to kneel down, put
his head under the back seat and then they beat his hips. The jeans he wore were
ripped; there were three long tears. They also stood on his back and trampled
him. They asked him whether he would continue to practice. He said, "Yes." They
used a piece of sheet metal to whip his face around the eyes. Then they whipped
the back of his hands until they bled. They took turns beating him. When we arrived at the local government office in Beijing, the police
searched everyone. At that time, I had 500 Yuan* in my pocket. I had one
thought, "I should not allow the police to take my money. The money should be
used to print Dafa materials." As a result, they didn't find the money. I was
detained in a room without food or water the entire day, along with other
practitioners. The following morning, the police sent us to a local detention
center, where we were interrogated one by one. While interrogating my son, they
kicked him so hard that he fell to the ground. They slapped his face, and later
detained him for 15 days. The neighborhood community people asked my husband,
who doesn't practice Falun Gong, to bring 1,500 Yuan as a release fee. He
refused. In the end, the detention center forced us to pay 375 Yuan for living
expenses, and they released my son. After I was released from detention in Beijing, the leaders at my place of
work took me to the security section. I told them that it wasn't wrong to speak
some good words about Falun Gong; I had gone to Beijing to restore the
reputation of Falun Gong. I told them that even if they were going to fire me, I
wouldn't give up practicing Falun Gong. In the end, they had to let me go home.
They deducted 500 Yuan from my salary as the release fee for the detention
center. Before New Years of 2000, the neighborhood community people came to my home
and wanted to take my son to the brainwashing session. My husband firmly
refused. As the Fa-rectification process progressed, many practitioners went to
Tiananmen Square and the appeal offices to speak on behalf of Dafa. After
sharing experiences with other practitioners, I decided to go to the appeals
office also. Doing Without Pursuit In June 2000, my son and I went to Beijing again. As soon as we arrived in
Beijing, we mailed a letter to the premier. I said to Master, "Master, I have
come here to appeal. I would never cooperate with the evil." Upon arriving at
the State Appeals Office, we saw police sitting on both sides of the office
gate. Whenever someone went up to the office, a bunch of police would come over
and question them. The police could also arrest you and not allow you to appeal.
At this moment, an old man from the area saw us. He approached us and said
angrily, "They are all sent here from different places. Those guys are so brutal
that a college student was forced to jump into the river due to their brutal
beating. I also saw a police officer badly trample a woman's feet..." With
Master's arrangement, we entered the gate without any problems. The Appeals
Office established a special room for Falun Gong. Their purpose was not to allow
us to appeal but to make arresting practitioners more convenient. We filled out
a form, submitted our appeals letter and then left. Later on, a practitioner
told us that after we left, the police started to call people's names on the
application forms. They tore up the forms if the applicants were not present,
and took the rest to local government offices, where they were sent back. "Then, as a cultivator, you should make use of all feasible conditions to
spread Dafa and validate Dafa as a correct and true science, rather than
preaching or idealism--this is every cultivator's obligation." ("Validation"
from Essentials for Further Advancement) Through exchanging
understandings, we realized we should not wait at home. Instead, we should go
out and practice the exercises to validate Dafa. So I started practicing the
exercises in the park in the complex where I lived. On July 22, 2000, at 5:00
a.m., I was practicing the exercises in the park. A person in the neighborhood
reported it to the police, and the police came and arrested me. At that time,
many people were buying food for breakfast, so I clarified the facts to them.
The police sent me to the detention center and detained me for 15 days. They
also confiscated my new tape recorder. In the detention center, I didn't
cooperate with them. I recited Hong Yin with other practitioners and held
a hunger strike for five days. Later, our hearts were all beating abnormally.
The police had to let us go home. On November 15, 2000, my son and I went to Beijing for the third time to
validate Dafa with two other practitioners. After exchanging our understandings,
we enlightened to using our divine side to validate Dafa and never acknowledging
the evil's arrangement. We were doing the most sacred things. We went to the
Golden Water Bridge at Tiananmen Square. With the police close by, we hung
banners on the bridge. My son hung his banner on the fence beside the street
since we had lost track of each other. With Master's help, we all returned home
safely. After we returned from Beijing, we continued doing truth-clarifying work,
distributing flyers, and telling the facts to people around us. We wanted them
to learn about Falun Gong and awaken to the lies. As time passed, I became more and more brave, but developed the attachment of
zealotry. One day after the Lantern Festival of 2001 (Feb. 7, 2001), I was
distributing flyers about the self-immolation. A policeman followed me and later
took me to the detention center. The following day, my father passed away but
they didn't allow me to go home. My son went to the detention center and asked
them to release me. They set two conditions for my release. First, they said
that I needed to write a letter guaranteeing that I would not practice Falun
Gong. Second, they said we would have to pay a huge amount of money in fees. My
son denied their requests. They then went through the procedures for criminal
detention very quickly and sent me to the criminal detention center. I was
detained for a month. During the detention, I held a hunger strike for two days.
The officials there force-fed me twice. One time I couldn't even breathe during
the force-feeding. Also, a policeman violently kicked me in the leg. In the detention center, I clarified the truth about the self-immolation to
the director. I also clarified the truth to prisoners. The detention center had
not detained many Falun Gong practitioners. Fellow practitioners had spread Dafa
to the director and prisoners. They all knew about Falun Gong to differing
extents. During my hunger strike, the local police station sent two
collaborators [former Falun Gong practitioners who have gone astray due to
brainwashing and torture] to brainwash me. I didn't listen to them at all.
Seeing that their work was useless, they left gloomily. I recited Master's
articles "Mighty Virtue" and "Melt into the Fa." When the police officers
attempted to videotape me while interrogating me, I refused. In the detention
center, some of my attachments were exposed, and I also found that I hadn't
enlightened to many things. I realized that I needed to study the Fa more while
clarifying the truth, as well as get rid of the bad stuff through my
cultivation. One day in April 2001, about 9:00 p.m., police officials from the detention
center came to my home to take me to a brainwashing session. They didn't succeed
in breaking in. Two police officers stayed on the stairs for two days and still
were not able to arrest me. Shortly after that, I left home and went from place
to place to avoid further persecution. But I continued to do the
truth-clarifying work. In May of 2001, a policeman found me reading Zhuan Falun on the train.
He searched my bag and found truth-clarifying flyers. He took me to a room and
questioned me. I then promoted Dafa, and clarified the truth to him and the
others in the room. Afterwards, they sent me to a railway police station that
was on the way. The police officers there asked my name and where I was from. I
didn't answer their questions but clarified the truth to them. I recited Mater's
scripture, "No matter what the situation, do not cooperate with the evil's
demands, orders, or what it instigates" ("Dafa Disciples' Righteous Thoughts are
Powerful" from Essentials for Further Advancement II.) The police
were changed one after another, some being more vicious than others. When they
asked what my name was, I answered "Dafa disciple." I kept reciting Master's
scriptures. Their viciousness disappeared little by little. The power of Dafa is
great. Master said, "...because those so-called evil beings are in fact nothing"
("The Effects of Righteous Thoughts" from Essentials for Further Advancement
II.) I was detained for only one day. The following day, they transferred me to a city police station and continued
to interrogate me. I continued to recite Master's scriptures in my mind and
asked them to release me unconditionally. With Master's help, I left through the
door of the police station. On September 26, 2001, three plain-clothes policemen from the district police
station broke into my home in an attempt to arrest me. By then, I had already
left home. Later, my husband was forced to leave home and join me. Clarify the Truth and Offer Salvation It has been two years since I left home . Master says, "Every person you come
into contact with in society is someone to clarify the truth to, and what's
manifest in clarifying the truth is Dafa disciples' mercy and their salvation of
the world's people" ("To All Students at the Nordic Fa Conference" from
Essentials for Further Advancement II.) I went to the markets in
rural areas to distribute truth-clarifying flyers. I also distributed flyers and
CDs on street corners in rural areas. I told them the truth about Falun Gong
face to face. With a smile on my face, I handed flyers and CDs to them. There
were many good-hearted people who asked me to be careful. Every time I went out,
I took some flyers and CDs so that I could clarify the truth at any time. I
concentrated on quality, not quantity. I tried my best to offer salvation to
people. If I ran out of flyers, I clarified the truth still, telling them about
the miracle of Dafa as well as the change in my body and mind after I began
practicing. I told them Master was slandered and the propaganda on TV was full
of lies. Wherever I went, that was the place to clarify the truth. I didn't want
to miss any opportunity. Once, after a driver of a three-wheeler heard the truth, he said, "Falun Gong
practitioners are good people. Look what Jiang did to this country! They arrest
good people but let bad people go free. They are really evil. When your Master
comes back, we will all go to welcome him." There was a woman who made her
living by selling tickets. After she heard the truth, she told her co-workers,
"Please let her tell us more." Her clear side was really anxious and she was
waiting for us to save them. After a vender who sold fruits saw the CD, he said,
"Now I know the real story of the self-immolation." In my daily life, I
clarified the truth everywhere, all the time. Clarifying the truth became part
of my life. In doing so, many people became my friends. There was a small grocery in the complex I lived in. People working there all
knew the truth. Once, when I was detained in the local police station, a lady
and her son went to the station and tried to bring me coats and shoes. She said
to the police, "Why do you arrest good people? She is a good person." Make Good Use of the Time to Clarify the Truth Since Master's "Hurry Up And Tell Them" article was published, I felt the
urgency and Master's boundless compassion. The time Master extends is to create
opportunities for us. We should treasure every day. I decided to go to my hometown to clarify the truth. I bought two VCD players
and brought some truth-clarifying materials and CDs with me. I told the facts
about Falun Gong to my brothers and sisters, and let them read the materials and
watch the CDs. My oldest sister said after seeing the CD, "I believe everything
you have said is true." Master said, "Cherish the present time and make the best use of it--this time
is meant for the disciples." ("Teaching the Fa at the Washington, D.C.
International Fa Conference"). I realized that the spring festival is a good
time to clarify the truth. On the first day of the lunar calendar year of 2003,
we took banners and greeting cards with truth-clarifying CDs inside with us and
distributed them to people on the streets. Whenever we saw a person, we said
"Happy New Year! This is a greeting card for you." They all accepted it. Along
the way, we distributed greeting cards, put up posters and hung banners. Later,
we distributed flyers in a building complex and didn't go home until five
o'clock. That day was very fruitful. As SARS appeared, I felt the urgency to offer salvation to people. Now people
are becoming more and more clear-headed, so it is easier to clarify the truth to
them. While I was distributing the flyers, they asked, "Is it about Falun Gong?
If it is, I want to have it." I told them "Yes" and continued saying, "Be a good
person. Support kindness and justice. Remember in your heart 'Truthfulness,
Compassion, Forbearance' and you will be safe. Heaven is very fair and knows
who's good and who's not." My experience is that it is easy to speak the truth face to face. People will
understand after you talk to them. I also encountered some people who refused to
take the flyers. I said, "Take a look, then you will know what Falun Gong is
about. Don't just listen to the one-sided propaganda on TV. Learning the truth
is good for you. We do this for your well-being. I have brought this for you.
Why don't you just take a look?" In the end, they took it and even told me to be
careful. During the Fa-rectification, I have felt the miracle and power of Dafa as
long as I take the Fa as my teacher. With righteous thoughts and actions, I have
distributed flyers to many people. I need to study the Fa more to correct the
shortcomings in my clarifying the truth, rectify myself, and get rid of the bad
stuff in my mind. I will do the three things well and not let Master down. I
will try even harder to accomplish the sacred mission endowed by Master --
assisting Master to rectify the Fa. Please correct me if there is anything incorrect in my understanding. *Yuan is the Chinese currency. The average monthly salary of an urban worker
in China is 500 Yuan. Posting date: 6/16/2003 |