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No Guilt in My Heart
By Yi Chun
(Clearwisdom.net) I have often asked myself, "As a Fa-rectification disciple, do I feel guilty in my
heart?" Especially when I read Teacher's encouraging words and praises, "Dafa practitioners are
outstanding and great!" I would feel terribly guilty in my heart. I felt guilty for not having
done a good job in cultivation; I felt guilty for not being able to study the Fa and send righteous
thoughts peacefully; I felt sorry for not being able to clarify the truth in a more compassionate
way; I felt upset for not being able to pass cultivation tests while still being attached to many
human ways of thinking ... The closer to the end, the more attachments I could feel, the more anxious I felt in my heart,
the more sadness I would feel. Would Teacher be very disappointed in me? Is Teacher still taking
care of me? Finally one day when I was doing the sitting meditation, I suddenly felt that my whole body was
empty; nothing was there. I was totally emerged in a kind of energy and I was even levitating! When
I realized that I was levitating, which I had never experienced before, tears came to my eyes. I was
so touched. I said to myself, "Teacher has never given up on me and Teacher has always been
taking care of me!" I suddenly enlightened to this: After all, I had understood Teacher in a human way! Although I
was once confused, sad, and not diligent in cultivation, Teacher never gave up on me. Teacher was
always encouraging me every time, giving me clues and protecting me. How compassionate Teacher has
always been! If I still cannot do well in cultivation and still am pessimistic, how can I face
Teacher's benevolent salvation and boundless mercy?! I know now: In order to do well and to live up to the title "Fa-Rectification Dafa
Disciple", to be deserving of the highest honor that Teacher has offered to us, to be worthy of
the expectation and waiting of all beings, to be worthy of my own oath and tremendous wish of the
past, I should transform my guilty feeling to no guilt through action; only in such a way do we
deserve these words of Teacher, "Dafa practitioners are outstanding and great!" If we can achieve "no guilty feeling from the heart", it may also be a kind of highest
state of cultivation. In the Chinese language, the character for "guilty" is based on the
meaning of "ulterior motive." If we always do things above board and clear-headedly, we
are naturally in the cultivation state of "no guilty feeling from the heart."
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