By a Dafa practitioner in Jilin Province

Written on July 9, 2003 in Heizuizi Labor Camp

(Clearwisdom.net) August 5^th report -- Contributor's note: this is a letter an imprisoned Dafa practitioner wrote to his family. It was very difficult to get this letter out of the labor camp. This letter reveals that while on the surface, guards at Heizuizi Labor Camp have reduced their persecution of practitioners due to great pressure from the international community, actually they have only changed superficially.

When facing the evil's desperate last struggles, how to firmly believe in Dafa and Master, completely negate all arrangements by the old forces and how to completely eliminate the evil old forces and everything under their control has become an issue we cannot run away from. It means whether to passively endure or to actively eliminate the evil and rescue people deluded by lies. While we understand that incarcerated Dafa practitioners are validating Dafa in a most vicious environment, we hope they can also step forward, actively eliminate the evil and walk out of the demon's den with righteous thoughts and righteous actions as quickly as possible.

I firmly realize that Master requires us to "attain the righteous Enlightenment of selflessness and altruism." ("Non-Omission in Buddha-Nature", Essentials for Further Advancement). Every thought we have during Fa-rectification should be based on rescuing people. If we passively endure the frenzied persecution instead of actively eliminate it, isn't that selfishness to a certain extent? We will be responsible for all righteous elements, so to a certain extent aren't we being irresponsible to people if we allow the evil to commit crimes against Dafa and Dafa practitioners?

If we realize that Fa-rectification period Dafa disciples' mission is to clarify the truth and rescue people, then maybe incarcerated practitioners who are still passively enduring the persecution can step forward while firmly practicing Dafa, give up perplexing human notions and attachments, actively eliminate evil elements, break away from the old forces' arrangements with rationality and wisdom endowed by Dafa, and at the same time fulfill our prehistoric vows, to help Master rectify the Fa with our righteous thoughts and righteous actions.

The purpose of publishing this letter is twofold: on the one hand, we want to expose the evil's persecution against Dafa and Dafa practitioners; on the other hand, we hope that illegally detained fellow practitioners can firmly believe in Master and Dafa, actively eliminate all evil elements and help Master rectify the Fa.

Dad, Mom, greetings!

Today I'm in a bad mood because I cannot forgive myself for the wrong things I've done. No words can express the anguish I feel right now. For a long time I haven't been bold enough to put my experiences and thoughts down on paper.

The authorities in the labor camp division where I am being detained force us to do slave labor. At the beginning, we worked from 6:00 a.m. to 8:00 p.m. Sometimes, to increase production, our work hours are from 4:00 a.m. to midnight or even until 1:00 a.m. the following morning. In June, in order to get more work completed, some groups get up at 3:00 a.m. and go to sleep at midnight. Every time someone comes to inspect our division we are ordered to stop working and hide our tools. After the inspection is over we resume working. Even the division authorities put on a façade to deceive others in the labor camp.

Usually, shoelaces and glass bottles are prohibited items and have to be turned in; however, when we start working anyone can use knives, scissors, engraving knives and sticks at will, because we can use them to make money for the guards. Policy is practically non-existent here.

Here, if you break away from Dafa and give money to the group leaders and guards, you can get your sentence reduced. 1,000 Yuan can get you one month of sentence reduction. Every day here feels like a year to me. I have been here for almost two years. Sometimes I really cannot forgive myself. Benevolent Master gave me many opportunities to walk out of this demon's den, but I missed them again and again because of my human mindset. Even now, I still endure everything passively.

My greatest attachment is to time. My term is about to expire. I know every minute I stay in here is assisting the evil. I should break free with righteous thoughts, but every time this thought emerges, unrighteous thoughts immediately come to interfere with me, "I'll be free in three months; if I just endure a little I can go home." In fact, this mentality is the major obstacle that prevents me from walking out of this demon's den. When I first arrived at the labor camp, I didn't acknowledge at all the two-year term imposed on me and I protested, using various means. As time went by, though, I gradually and unconsciously acknowledged the two years of labor "reeducation" forced on me.

I realized recently that I should no longer cooperate with the evil. I should actively resist. I stopped working and the guards said to me hypocritically, "You don't have to work that much. Just do whatever you can." And they let me organize programs. I know this is just more hidden persecution. No matter what the guards did, I didn't cooperate with them. In fact, from Fa principles I know I should actively further eliminate the evil elements and demand my immediate release, but there are still attachments I cannot give up. It seems I lack a firm heart, set on validating Dafa, and I was taken advantage of when my righteous thoughts were not strong. I didn't dare to completely negate the old forces' arrangements because of my fear. For example, wearing the labor camp uniform, wearing a nametag, eating labor camp meals, working and doing so-called study should all be completely refused. Since I have human notions and I think, "Please, end Fa-rectification quickly" I don't actively eliminate the evil. Every time I remember these things I feel very bad. Now I finally understand that after first realizing my attachments, writing them out and completely exposing them, what's left is what I have to do to myself.

I will treat the Fa as teacher give up preoccupation with self and do better and better.

Ronger (pseudonym)

Posting date: 8/27/2003
Original article date: 8/27/2003
Category: Practitioners' Insights
Translated on 8/7/2003
Chinese version available at http://minghui.org/mh/articles/2003/8/5/55173.html

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