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Catch Up By Eliminating Fundamental Attachments
(Clearwisdom.net July 30, 2003) I was involved in a traffic accident a few days ago. With the help of fellow
practitioners, I have enlightened about some xinxing issues involved in the
situation. The accident happened like this: I was riding my bike through an
intersection, and a motorcycle knocked me down. The woman riding the motorcycle
cursed at me, and asked me to pay for her losses. I thought it was fine to pay
her, so I went to get enough money, sending it to her with 2 truth clarifying
VCDs. I told her we cultivators do not care about personal gain or loss, Falun
Dafa is good, and the like. I thought I did well, but when I shared the experience with fellow
practitioners, I suddenly found out why I could not end the tribulations with my
family. My fellow practitioners reminded me that Master has not given us any personal
cultivation trials after July 20, 1999. This accident is the arrangement of old
forces, that I should negate it. The lady hit me while riding her motorcycle,
and yet she insisted on me paying her losses. Another practitioner pointed out
that this is a form of bullying me. I should not follow her even according to
the ordinary society's principles. Speaking from the perspective of compassion,
we should not let her create more karma by doing wrong deeds in the maze. Fellow
practitioners pointed out seriously my way of treating this accident did not
confirm with Dafa -- "Truthfulness, Compassion, and Tolerance." I
recalled an article on Clearwisdom, "What is True Kindness (Shan) and
Master's Comments: Fa-Rectification and Cultivation" (http://www.clearwisdom.net/emh/articles/2001/7/8/12053.html) From sharing with other practitioners, I found something I was attached to
for a long time; that is, the point from which I consider things is unclear. I
did not think from the standpoint of the big picture of Fa-rectification, but
stopped at the personal cultivation level, resulting in my validating Dafa not
being powerful enough, not convincing, and causing much interference from my
family members. For instance, I never bargained or cared enough about product
quality when shopping, as I thought I was not calculating personal gains. I did
not put enough energy into my daily work, so I never did a good job in my post
at work. Master said, "If a Dafa disciple cannot validate the Fa, then he is not a Dafa
disciple." (Essentials for Further Advancement II, On 'The Dignity
of Dafa') " A Dafa disciple who fails to achieve the effect of safeguarding and
upholding Dafa has no way of reaching Consummation,..." (Essentials for Further Advancement II, Fa-Rectification Period Dafa
Disciples) Now I know that Master was talking about me also. I remember that one month after I began practicing Falun Dafa, I had to face
the beginning of the evil persecution in July 1999. I had not put straight the
relationship between personal cultivation and Fa-rectification. I wasted 20
months of precious time of cultivation under the evil enlightenment's
interference. After I came back to Fa-rectification period cultivation, I had
not fundamentally negated the old force's arrangements, and had fear. The
demon-nature of my family members was used by the old forces to interfere with
me, causing lots of trouble. My righteous thoughts were not strong enough facing
that hardship, and I hardly studied the Fa. I found my loopholes from this sharing and Fa-study. I found a fundamental
attachment--I walked into Dafa intending to avoid conflicts among ordinary
people. This intention manifested in me as a lack of understanding of
"Truthfulness, Compassion and Tolerance." I could not let go of
everything to safeguard the Truth of the universe under the evil pressure. I was
selfish; I only wanted to benefit from Dafa but did not want to sacrifice for
Dafa. I held on to ordinary people's stuff when pursuing gains. Now I know that
I did not have a good understanding of the relationship between personal
cultivation and Fa-rectification amidst conflicts and tribulations. I did not
negate the old forces' arrangements with righteous thoughts and righteous
belief. These were all caused by lack of Fa-study, and I was not being
responsible to Dafa, to myself, and to others. I will try hard to do well from now on, catching up. I want to advance
diligently with the one body of Dafa disciples and catch up with the process of
Fa-rectification. Posting date: 8/9/2003 |