I attained the Fa in May of 1997. Since I did not understand the vital importance of studying the Fa or the seriousness of cultivation, I was unable to study the Fa well and did not set strict requirements for my cultivation path. When practicing the exercises, I could not overcome laziness and the fear of hardship. Since I did not establish a firm foundation during self-cultivation, I was unable to treat everything with righteous thoughts during this Fa-rectification period. Motivated by the attachments of fear and the wish for comfort, I cooperated with the evil and wrote the "three statements" [Practitioners are coerced under brainwashing and torture to write these as proof that they have given up their belief. Created by the "610 Office," the three statements consist of a letter of repentance, a guarantee to never again practice Falun Gong, and a list of names and addresses of all family members, friends and acquaintances who are practitioners.] denouncing Teacher and Dafa. Furthermore, instead of regret and returning to the cultivation path, I was overcome by affection and lust and did things that a Dafa practitioner should not do. I deeply regret my omission.

Later, I did not treat some upsetting tribulations with enough righteous thoughts and followed the path prepared by the old forces. My body was severely damaged and thus caused great difficulty for my cultivation. These serious consequences made me realize fully that cultivation is a very serious matter. I found my fundamental problem: main consciousness is weak, righteous thoughts are not strong, very selfish and the desire to go to extremes. From now on, I will eliminate all attachments, firmly cultivate myself, treat everything with righteous thoughts, steadily eliminate the evil with righteous thoughts, clarify the truth, and make up for the losses that I have caused to Dafa. Herein, I solemnly declare that everything that I said when my mind was not clear and under the evils spell is invalid. I will firmly follow the Fa-rectification process, cultivate myself, and do what a Dafa practitioner should do. I will become more conscious, rational, firm, and mature. I thank Teacher for his benevolence and salvation.

Li Xiaorui

August 1, 2003

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Before the Spring Festival of 2001, I went to Beijing to validate Dafa. At Tiananmen Square, more than a dozen police kicked, beat, and dragged me by my hair over several dozen meters. My front tooth was knocked out. A police officer said, "The order from the above stated that we can ignore murder cases and only deal with Falun Gong practitioners." I was illegally sentenced to one and half years in a female forced labor camp. In the camp, the police tortured us many different ways, such as brainwashing and sleep deprivation. Under the inhuman treatment, because I did not study the Fa well and still held the attachments of fear and human affection, I took an evil path and wrote materials denouncing Dafa and Teacher.

After I was released and returned home in 2002, I continued to follow the evil path. I burnt Dafa books, signed the statement that my local police forced me to sign, and made wrong comments on TV. In March 2003, with the hints from Teacher and the help of other practitioners, I studied Teacher's new lectures. I suddenly realized that I did what a Dafa practitioner should not do. I felt much regret and sorrow. I deeply felt Teacher's infinite benevolence. Herein, I solemnly declare that everything I wrote with respect to myself or my relatives, which were not according to the Fa, are invalid. I will do well the three things that Teacher asks us to do, firmly practice Dafa, follow Teacher, advance myself, and make up for the loss and bad impact I caused.

Xing Zhongying

August 31, 2003

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Posting date: 9/21/2003
Original article date: 9/20/2003
Category: Solemn Declarations
Chinese version available at http://www.minghui.ca/mh/articles/2003/9/1/56625.html

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