By Xilian (a practitioner in Sydney, Australia)

December 17, 2003

(Clearwisdom.net) Ever since I started Falun Dafa cultivation practice, I was able to validate the beauty of Falun Dafa. Because I had my body cleansed at the beginning, for the last few years, I had few physical tribulations. I often silently thought, "Perhaps I eliminated a lot of karma in my previous lives, and have less karma than most." I was secretly glad that I was so fortunate, but I did not understand that Teacher has endured so much for us.

One month ago, red marks appeared on my body. At first, I did not think much of it and thought that it would go away in a few days, so I silently endured it. However, one week passed, and a second week passed; it actually became worse. During the third week, my face, hands and feet, my whole body was covered with thousands of these red marks. New marks covered old marks, and small patches joined larger patches, layer upon layer. It was itchy beyond imagination.

When I could no longer stand it, I would scratch, but after scratching, new spots would appear. I could not bear the condition or sit, which made doing projects for Dafa and everyday life very difficult. Looking at the horrible state that my skin was in, which was previously smooth and white, (and which I was once so proud of), I asked myself, "Why did this happen?" When I looked within myself, I did not find any serious xinxing problems. Everyday, I was doing the three things that Teacher asked us to do, and my cultivation seemed to be going well. Was this the evil trying to interfere?

My son, who is also a practitioner, said, "This is obviously the evil interfering with you. Quickly send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate it!" I agreed, calmed down and started sending forth righteous thoughts. The skin problems improved for one or two days, but then worsened again. I felt that there were small lives angrily torturing me. "Why?" I studied the Fa, but I could not enlighten further because I was studying with strong attachments. In my heart, I asked Teacher, "Venerable Teacher, my enlightenment quality is not good, I truly do not understand why this is happening: please show me the way."

One day when I was reading Minghui Net, I clicked on an article without thinking. It was called "My Understanding of Benevolent Solutions" . After reading it, I understood a great deal, and then realized it was Teacher who let me see the article that targeted my problem. I am extremely grateful for Teacher's immense benevolence. I am also very grateful to the article's author for sharing a valuable cultivation experience. I have benefited a lot.

I believe that I must have been unfair to some people in my previous lives, and now they are making me pay. I calmed down, meditated and felt a sense of immense compassion coming from my heart. I sincerely said to those lives, "If I hurt anyone in the past, I sincerely apologise. If I killed you in the past, I know that I cannot repay your pains with my own life. However, I am a Falun Dafa practitioner. I am doing the most important thing in history -- helping Teacher rectify the Fa. Yet, every life has to place his or herself within the Fa-rectification. Recently and now, your revenge has severely interfered with what I am doing for Fa-rectification. If you continue, you will be used by the evil. You will commit serious crimes and will never be able to repay this debt during all of eternity. Right now, the best solution is a benevolent one. I wish to share my cultivation fruits with you to repay all the debts I owe you from the past, and if that is not enough, my Teacher will help me."

After a while, with my celestial eye, I saw many earthworms crawling together, and I knew that these were the lives that I hurt in the past. After a while, I felt a heat gathering around my shoulders and back, and I then felt energy expelled from my body. Next, I felt hundreds and thousands of worms hurriedly crawling out of my skin. For a short period, I felt pinpricks and itchiness. Then, the worms all turned into fish and began swimming happily towards me in clear water. I knew that Teacher had reached benevolent solutions for me and from then on, the red patches on my body gradually disappeared.

Through this, I understand: during our many reincarnations, we have committed many wrongs. Perhaps we killed lives and hurt other beings, incurring large amounts of karma. Because we cultivate in Falun Dafa, Teacher has endured much of our debts for us. The small remainder is to enable us to upgrade our xinxing and to enlighten to the Dao. This experience further showed me the miracle of Dafa and further steadied my determination in cultivation. Only by striving forward diligently can we repay Teacher's benevolent salvation.

Posting date: 1/16/2004
Original article date: 1/15/2004
Category: Practitioners' Insights
Chinese version available at http://www.minghui.org/mh/articles/2003/12/19/62824.html

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