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Through All My Years of Bitter Struggle I Was Waiting For Falun Dafa
(Clearwisdom.net) I began practicing Falun Dafa in 1998. Before then,
I had a seriously interrupted heartbeat. Sometimes while riding a bicycle, I
would suddenly lose my vision completely and fall unconscious. Therefore, I was
accompanied by my fellow workers on my way to and from work, in case I might
fall from my bicycle. I also had a badly herniated disc in my lumbar vertebra.
When I became seriously ill, I could not talk, cough, or yawn and could not take
care of myself, much less to do housework. Once after I got ill, I lay in bed
for half a year. The leader of my work unit came to see me and told me that I
would be fired in six months if I could not go to work. Therefore I struggled to
get to work yet always fell sick during working hours. I was a bookkeeper. If I
worked for a while at my accounting job, I would not be able to straighten up at
my waist and my joints would dislocate. When this happened, I couldn't go to
work for several days. I could do nothing but fret about it. I also had problems
with my cervical vertebra, swollen shoulder joints, swollen fingers, and serious
joint pain in both legs. Furthermore, my two legs could not bend, and water was
stored up in the hollow of my right knee forming a lump like an egg. I don't
remember how many injections I had taken in nerve block therapy, but it never
was truly effective. I had tried different hospitals in Beijing many times but the situation never
improved. From the bottom of my heart I felt sick and tired of my health and
life. Due to a third party's interference, my husband often didn't come home,
and our family was close to breaking up. This mental suffering was hard to
describe. At the time, my kids were 14 and 9 years old, and they needed my care.
Therefore, I suffered the pain every day and lived only for the sake of my kids.
My face was constantly awash with tears as I went through the motions of daily
living. Just when things couldn't get any worse, I fortunately discovered Falun Dafa.
On the third day of practicing, I saw the turning Law Wheel, and on the fifth
day, my menstruation came back after being absent for more than two years. My
heart problems, herniated disc in my lumbar vertebra, problems with my cervical
vertebra, swollen shoulder joints, and serious joint pain in both legs and other
illnesses and pains all disappeared like a cloud of smoke. I knew that Teacher
had purified my body and heart. I really experienced the situation of having a
light body without any illness and great spiritual and physical well-being.
While walking or riding a bicycle, I felt like I was being pushed forward by a
wind at my back, with my legs and body so light they felt as if they would fly
off with the wind. This was something I'd never experienced before. From that time on, I have been reading Dafa books eagerly, always feeling in
the bottom of my heart that this Dafa is what I had been waiting for during all
my years of bitter struggles and painful endurance. I had almost no mental
barriers, and the process of comprehending the ideas in the books was always
quick. Dafa has brought to light why a person has disasters, tribulations,
hardships and diseases, which has unlocked my sealed heart and lifted me from
the bitter sea of suffering. Whenever I had time, I would go together with
fellow practitioners to the countryside to spread Falun Dafa, hoping that more
people could learn this wonderful practice and benefit from it. In Falun Dafa Essentials for Further Advancement ("Sickness
Karma"), Teacher said, "This is why I have said that all of today's mankind has come to this
point with karma rolling on top of karma; besides sickness-karma, a person has
other kinds of karma as well. So people have hardships, tribulations, and
tensions in their lives. How could they only pursue happiness without paying
for karma? People nowadays have so much karma that they are soaked in it, and
they will encounter unpleasant things at any time and in any situation. Bad
things await a person the moment he steps out the door. When there are
disagreements, however, people do not endure them and fail to realize that
they are paying off their karma from the past. If a person is not treated well
by others, he will treat others even worse, thereby producing new karma before
paying for the old. This makes society's moral values decline daily, ..." The more I read Dafa books the broader and brighter my heart became and the
more clearly I understood that what one has suffered in his life must have its
reasons. Now, I have no complaints or hatred toward anything or anybody, and I
no longer dwell on those people and things that once hurt me. The political gang headed by Jiang has used its power and propaganda to
spread lies and to form their "court with one person laying down the
law." This has poisoned the Chinese people. I will tell all people, using
my own experiences, that we practitioners just want to be kind people. We only
strive to continuously purify our bodies and hearts, gradually reaching a higher
realm where we always consider other people before ourselves. By giving each
practitioner a healthy body and thus reducing the burden for families and all of
society, Falun Gong is a good practice that has only advantages for any country
or any nationality. I hope that all people have the right understanding of Falun
Dafa, and that they will treat Dafa and Dafa practitioners well. I also want to
sternly warn the evil gang headed by Jiang and Luo that history is fair and
righteous. In the end, good will be rewarded with good, and evil with evil. The
issue of who is right and who is wrong will soon become very clear to all. |