(Clearwisdom.net)

My name is Pan Juying, a female Falun Gong practitioner and former employee of Huarong Shopping Center, Anlu City, Hubei Province. I had an ordinary and pleasant family life. Because I refused to renounce Falun Gong, I was inhumanly tortured by the authorities who were plotting to cause me to suffer a mental collapse then frame Falun Gong for my condition. However before the authorities could succeed with their plan, I decided to leave home, in order to protect Falun Gong and my family from being implicated.

In the past, I used to suffer from all kinds of diseases, such as pains in my neck, lower back, and stomach. I also had to endure gynecological problems, arthritis, dizziness and body pains. Many doctors examined me, but without any health improvement. I suffered from near-paralysis. In fact I suffered so much that I even felt like I would rather be dead than live with all these illnesses.

In 1996, I received a copy of the book Zhuan Falun [the main teachings of Falun Gong]. After three days of continuous reading, I realized that this was not an ordinary book. I followed the principle of "Truth-Compassion-Tolerance" that was promulgated in the book and began to cultivate steadfastly. Soon, a miracle happened. For the first time, I understood what it meant to be healthy and I grasped the meaning and value of life. I knew that Teacher was close to me, closer than anyone else in the whole wide world.

My heart was heavy after Jiang's regime began to persecute Falun Gong, on July 20, 1999. It was heart rending to have to experience the campaign to demonize Falun Gong. Having benefited so much from practicing Falun Gong, I had to let the people hear the truth. I traveled to Beijing to exercise my constitutional right to appeal unfair rulings. However instead, I was arrested and sent back to Anlu City, detained at Anlu City Detention Center for 50 days and forced to pay 2,000 yuan [An average Chinese urban worker's monthly wage is 500 yuan]. I was not given a receipt for the fine that was extorted from me.

To appeal for Falun Gong, I went to Beijing again in 2000. The Anlu police arrested me at Xiaogan Railway Station. This time, I was held for over a month and fined 4,000 yuan.

In April 2000, I was again arrested for passing Teacher's new articles to my fellow practitioners. I was interrogated around the clock, for 5 days and 4 nights, by a dozen of police officers. I was attacked mentally and physically. The authorities defamed Teacher and disrespectfully burnt his portrait in front of me. I was not allowed to sleep and was forced to have my hands cuffed behind my back. Then I was kicked to the ground and they poked my mouth with cylinders made from rolled up newspaper. I went on a hunger strike to protest their illegal acts, but was force fed and given intravenous injections. On the ninth day, my legs were stiff and they could not feel my pulse. Representatives from "610 office" [An agency specifically created to persecute Falun Gong, with absolute power over each level of administration in the party and all other political and judiciary systems.], public security bureau and the public health bureau came to see me. They suspected that a wrong medicine was administered. To escape responsibilities, they notified my family to come and take me back home.

On August 9, 2000, police officers Chen Xinyun, Shen Chao, Li Ling, and Chen Yidong forcibly took me from my home and brought me to Anlu City Public Security Bureau. They kept me awake for 6 days and 5 nights. They also tortured me using other methods. My hands were cuffed and my legs tied. Ice was used to freeze me and a cigarette lighter to burn my face. They pushed me to the floor and stepped on my ankle and toes. Policeman Ke Jicheng hung me up from a hook from the ceiling fan with only one foot touching the floor. On August 11, policeman Chen Xinyun brought in two poisonous snakes and let them sliter on part of my body. Then he stuffed my hand into one of the sacks holding one snake and one of my legs into another sack holding another snake in order to terrorize me. I could feel the icy-coldness of the snake slitering over my feet.

All of the above did not stop my steadfastness in Falun Dafa. In November 2000, Anlu City Public Security Bureau sentenced me to two years at Hubei Shayang Forced Labor Camp. I was not admitted due to my physical condition.

On March 2, 2003, Anlu City Public Security Bureau once again came to my home to arrest me. Even an old lady who was the gatekeeper said, "What did she do? She did not even go out. Why did you take her away?" But I was detained at Anlu City Detention Center. I protested vehemently against the persecution of me during the past few years. On March 4, I was sent home. But the director of the local 610 Office announced that if they catch me again, I would have to serve a prison term and that it did not matter if I died.

On May 20, 2003, I was again taken to Anlu City Detention Center. Policeman Zhang (he is also a political instructor) at the detention center beat me. I am a woman and I try to be a good person who follows Teacher's teachings and I hold myself strictly to the principles "Truthfulness, compassion and tolerance" to become a better person. However, they are relentless in their pursuit of injustice. I went on a hunger strike to protest and was force fed and given intravenous injections until they no longer worked after a number of attempts. Fearing that I might die, they released me.

That was not the end of the persecution. On September 28, 2003, the newly appointed Party Secretary Hu Maoshu of the Political and Legal Commission sent people to my home to arrest me again.

My repeated imprisonments caused my family and children tremendous pain. As I was forced to become homeless, leaving my home of 40 years, to protect my family from harassment and being implicated.

This is my story that has not found a peaceful end yet. I am still suffering. I want to tell my fellow citizens: "You have the right to know the truth of Falun Gong. Don't be fooled by the lies. Once you know the truth and treat Falun Dafa and practitioners well, it will bring you bright future."

I also wanted to tell those who persecuted me: Please do not hurt these kind-hearted people any more. I also wanted to tell Jiang's followers: Please wake up. Good will be rewarded with good and evil will be rewarded with evil. History has demonstrated this principle. When all that you don't believe in will actually happen, it will be too late.