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Getting up from Where I Stumbled and Rejoining the Great Current of Fa-Rectification
By A Dafa Practitioner From Liaoning Province
(Clearwisdom.net) I first obtained the Fa after July 20, 1999. In December of
2000, I went to Beijing to appeal for Falun Gong and was abducted by the police
on my way there. The police beat me badly and tried to extort a confession. As a
result of the beating, my left leg had bruises all over and my mouth was
swollen. Later on I was sent to a detention center. It was very chilly winter. I
experienced all kinds of torture, such as sitting on a cold board, eating very
poor and insufficient food, no heat and no bedding unless I paid them money. The
police extorted 800 yuan (1) from me and kept me from seeing my family. When
they tortured my father to death (who was also a practitioner) they did not even
allow me to pay my last respects.
I was held in the detention center for six and a half months and experienced
severe mental torture. I was then sent to the Masanjia Forced Labor Camp for two
years. That was an even more evil place. They deprived us of sleep. Under the
severe torture, I wrote a "Guarantee Statement" (2) against my will. I was
persecuted in Masanjia labor camp for exactly 50 days. After I was released,
fellow practitioners came to my home to encourage me to continue cultivation.
However, I thought Teacher would not accept me since I wrote the "Guarantee
Statement." I knew that Falun Dafa was the only way to return to my original and
true self, but I gave up on myself in despair. I was depressed for a year and a
half and did not understand that Teacher did not recognize the arrangements made
by the old forces.
'In the spring of 2003 I met several fellow practitioners. They told me to
come back quickly and that Teacher was waiting for me. At that moment I had
tears all over my face. Upon returning home, I still had fears and was afraid of
being detained again if I went out to rejoin the Fa-rectification efforts. I
calmed myself down and read Teacher's new lectures repeatedly. I understood that
the old forces would not be able to take advantage of me if I had strong
righteous thoughts. Thus I returned to the great current of Fa-rectification. I
went out with my sister to post flyers, banners, and stickers. We handed out
brochures and told people the truth about Falun Gong. We listened to Teacher's
lecture tapes, practiced the exercises, and sent forth righteous thoughts each
day.
One day in December 2003, someone from the township government came to look
for me while I was not home. I realized that I should send forth righteous
thoughts to eliminate the evil. On the next day, those people came again but I
was ready and determined not to let the old forces take advantage of my
loopholes. They asked me to sign the statement. I told them, "You just don't
want us to live a good life here. What kind of officials are you? I won't sign
it. Take that stuff away." They were embarrassed and said on their way out, "It
was the superior officials who asked us to do this." I realized that as long as
I had righteous thoughts, Teacher would protect me and the evil would be
eliminated.
Through studying the Fa during the past year, I understood that Teacher does
not want to leave any practitioner behind,
"...if you fall, just get up and continue to do what a Dafa disciple should
do. In that case the mistake you made will just be counted as a test you
didn't handle well during your cultivation, you can try to get through it next
time, and there will be more opportunities for you to pass the test again.
That's all."
("Teaching the Fa at the Conference in Vancouver, Canada, in 2003")
I hope that all my fellow practitioners don't repeat the same mistakes that I
have made. We should all have righteous thoughts and remember the three things
that Teacher told us to do -- Study the Fa and do the exercises, send forth
righteous thoughts, and clarify the truth to save people. I also hope that those
fellow practitioners who have come out late will participate in the Fa-Rectification
and that new practitioners will share their experiences and thoughts with
veteran practitioners more often to avoid detours on the way of validating Fa.
If my fellow practitioners find anything improper, please kindly point it out.
May 28, 2004
Notes:
(1). Yuan: Chinese currency. 500 Yuan is the average monthly income for an
urban worker in China.
(2). Guarantee Statement: A statement to
declare that one is remorseful for practicing Falun Gong and guarantees not to
practice Falun Gong again, not to go to Beijing to appeal for Falun Gong, and
never again associate with any Falun Dafa practitioners. |