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When We Cultivate Well, the Old Forces Cannot Control Our Family Members
By a practitioner from China
(Clearwisdom.net) Before I discovered Falun Dafa, for a long time, my husband would spend all
his spare time gambling. I was fed up with our unharmonious marriage and wanted
to divorce him. I started practicing Falun Dafa in 1996 when I was forty years
old. Then I realized that divorcing my husband was not the correct way to solve
the problem. I had to look within and get rid of the resentment I had towards
him. In 2002, the local police in our city started a large-scale arrest of Falun
Dafa practitioners. I left home in order to avoid further persecution. While I
was gone, my husband borrowed a lot of money at a very high interest rate and
lost it all gambling. As he could not pay back the debt, he also fled our home.
My son had to work several jobs to make a living. In 2004, I accompanied my husband to visit some of our relatives and we
borrowed five thousand yuan to pay back the debt. In March 2005, I
was told that my husband had borrowed several hundred yuan from our neighbor and
lost it gambling. Dozens of year's worth of complaints and resentment towards my
husband immediately boiled up in my heart. I wanted to call all our relatives
and friends to warn them not to lend him money again. I quickly calmed down, as
I realized that would be an everyday person's solution. It wasn't a kind action
and I should practice compassion at all times. I remembered that Teacher told us
that we practitioners need to look inside during conflicts. When I thought about
it, I realized that this unrighteous environment was a result of my not
cultivating well. The old forces used it as an excuse to control my husband and
keep him from making a positive change. The old forces take advantage of
loopholes in our individual cultivation, notwithstanding our most important
responsibilities for saving sentient beings. I resolved to strengthen my
cultivation and be more righteous in order to eliminate the old forces'
interference. Only then, can my family members and I get rid of the old forces'
control and finally suffocate the evil. When I came to realize this, my husband came back. I had a talk with him. I
was surprised by my calmness. The resentment I had accumulated towards my
husband over the past twenty years was gone. In the next a few days, my family
environment changed. My husband swore he wouldn't gamble any more. He found a
job and became so busy that he had no time to gamble. When I ran into conflicts in the past, I didn't treat the interference with
righteous thoughts and righteous actions. My husband was also affected and I
caused some loss to Dafa, which I deeply regret. Cultivation is a serious
matter. I must strengthen my personal cultivation during the Fa-rectification
period. On July 22 1999, the local police came to my home. They asked my husband,
"Is Falun Dafa good?" He answered, "Yes." In 2000 when he
came to the forced labor camp where I was detained, the policeman from the
forced labor camp asked him, "Is Falun Dafa good?" He gave the same
answer, "Yes." The policeman was infuriated and only allowed us to
talk for a few minutes. My husband always told our friends and relatives, "Falun
Dafa is good!" When I came back from the forced labor camp, my friends told
me, "Your husband told us that Falun Dafa is good." In September 2001, I was arrested again. One month later, I was released.
After I came back, I continued to distribute truth-clarification materials. My
husband said to me, "Before, I looked down upon you. Now I truly admire
you. You are not afraid even though you were arrested three times." I
didn't believe him. He then added, "I mean it." I came to realize that when thoughts and actions are righteous, we can change
our environment. I believe that one day my husband will also become a
practitioner and be truly saved. April 22, 2005 |