Overcoming the Attachment of Fear While Distributing Truth-Clarifying Materials

(Clearwisdom.net)

The following are some of my cultivation stories. I hope my cultivation path will encourage those Falun Dafa practitioners who haven't yet stepped forward.

After July 20, 1999, we were blocked for a long period of time and couldn't obtain any materials or Teacher's new articles. Then an older practitioner took the first step to pick up some materials.

Soon after, this practitioner had me come over and asked me to distribute the truth-clarifying materials. Looking at the many copies of materials, my heart was pounding so fast and I breathed heavily and rapidly. I was scared to death. What should I do? After thinking that the older practitioner was not afraid at all, and I had obtained the Fa earlier than she did, I forced myself to say I would go. I could not get out in the evening, so I had to do it during the daytime. In order to distribute the materials as quickly as possible, I left them on haystacks, gardens, just about everywhere. The older practitioner told me not to be afraid. The materials were very precious, and it was a shame to waste any. I understood what she said, but I still felt frightened.

Although I was frightened, I distributed the 20-30 truth-clarifying flyers I had. Then I felt safe, like a stone finally landing on the ground, and my happiness was beyond description. Later the older practitioner asked me several times to distribute materials, including flyers, posters, and pictures. Gradually, my courage grew stronger. From then on, I always carried materials with me whenever I visited friends or went shopping. Sometimes, when I visited my parents' home, I would bring more than a hundred copies of truth-clarifying materials and would ride my bicycle to distribute them in every village I passed through. In the daytime, it was not convenient to stay too long in a village, because I didn't want people to notice me. After I distributed 30-40 copies, I would go to another place. It was safer this way.

After distributing materials several times, my courage became stronger and stronger. Even if someone were in front of me or behind me, I would distribute a copy when nobody was looking. Every time I visited a friend, I brought materials with me. After I did this for a while, I became more experienced. This time I distributed materials to the first part of the street, the next time I would cover the second part of the street. This way, I made sure that every household got some materials.

After two years, I distributed many flyers to the nearby villages. I thought I should go further away to distribute materials to the villages where there were no Falun Dafa practitioners. Since it was very far, I rode a bus instead. I distributed material while walking back. Sometimes I would become very tired and my feet would become blistered. Although I was very tired, I was very happy. Sometimes I thought that even if I went out and only helped one person get to know the truth about Dafa, it was worth the effort and risk.

Sometimes when I saw a flyer that I had just distributed torn into pieces by someone, I felt very sorry, but when I saw someone pick one up and cherish it, I was encouraged that many people could still be saved.

My distribution was limited if I did it all by myself. Since my parents are also practitioners, I asked them to distribute materials with me. I strongly felt the need to encourage those practitioners who have not stepped forward. Master said that all practitioners are one body. I took my mother to distribute materials. In the evening, at around 6 or 7 o'clock, we went to our relative's home. When passing by a household, when I told my mother to distribute a flyer, and she would do it. Through this, I helped my parents to step forward.
Chinese version available at http://minghui.ca/mh/articles/2005/4/8/99131.html

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