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Step Out of Humanness
By a Dafa practitioner in China
(Clearwisdom.net) I am currently a junior college
student and I have already been practicing cultivation in Dafa for ten years. My
life mainly revolves around school and family. Since The Nine Commentaries on
the Communist Party was published, every time I have a chance, I introduce
the Nine Commentaries to my classmates and relatives and expose the
wicked Communist Party's true facade. At the same time, I clarify the
truth about the persecution of Dafa. Some of the relatives and friends accepted the facts and
signed to renounce the party. Some accepted the facts but have yet to decide to
renounce. Others, however, could not accept what I told them. My father is one
who does not accept it. We discussed this question many times, but invariably
the discussions ended in dispute. My stepmother is different from my father. She
agrees with my viewpoint. She thought what I said made sense. However, she told
me that I am very much like my father in that we both are very obstinate and
insistent on our own viewpoints, so we argue endlessly. I said, "Our
viewpoints are not the same." My stepmother said, "That is right. Your
viewpoints are contrary, but both of you are very stubborn, and once you think
you are right you do not give ground. Both of you have the same temperament in
your bones." At the beginning, I did not accept the words my stepmother
said to me. I just felt that I was right and he was wrong. However, when I heard
her words repeatedly, I had a feeling something wasn't quite right. My
stepmother's words were not accidental. When I carefully assessed myself with Dafa, I found my own
problem was not minor. Master often told us that we ought to have a heart of
benevolence and compassion, act truly for the good of others in everything we
do, and not act with a human mindset. We are on the path to Godhood and what we
need to give up are exactly these human things. How can we allow ourselves to be
driven by humanness? Am I saving people or satisfying my own desire to win the
dispute? I always felt that I stood on the side that is right, but I had
forgotten that what all Dafa practitioners are doing is beyond what ordinary
people do. We are entrusted with a great historic mission, which is different
from what everyday people do. Every time, when I talked about the wicked party's sore
spots, my father got annoyed and scolded me for being naive. Even after he read
the Nine Commentaries I gave him, he did not believe all the contents in
it. When I talked about the facts of the persecution of Dafa, although he did
not support the party's criminal conduct, he said we were playing politics and
brought out Mao Zedong's system of twisted theories. I was once quite
disheartened and felt my father was impossible to save. However, now I recall my
demeanor was not exactly what a cultivator's should be. Every time when I
clarified the truth to him, I always had this competitive mindset to outdo him.
As I think about it, I have discovered that my sentiment is still at work. What
cultivators should have is compassion, not personal sentiments. When I am with friends and classmates, I can usually reason
things out with them calmly. I know that as long as I have their good in mind,
what I say can touch their hearts, let alone the truth about Dafa. However, when
I face my father, I always feel intimidated. I feel that he is my father, and I
feel like a child. This is what I had not realized before. There is another
thing. Every time I met people who did not accept the truth, I became very
irritated, and thought that they were really hopeless. I would not want to have
anything to do with them again and thought that they would feel regret sooner or
later. Now I realize that I am too deeply mired in my human mindset.
As a Dafa practitioner, I must always remember "Truth Compassion
Forbearance," and must remember that the people I want to clarify the truth
to are also poisoned by the wicked Party. Master said in "Teaching the Fa
in the City of Chicago, " "Think about this, everyone: before you began to
cultivate Dafa, many of you present here were also once fooled by that wicked
Party into becoming members of it, so do you really want to bring to trial the
CCP members who have been fooled by the evil? You should understand that they,
too, have been deceived by the wicked CCP, and they are all sentient beings
for you to save. You must make a clear distinction here." In the past six years, all Dafa practitioners have been
through all kinds of difficulties and hardships to spread the truth about Dafa
everywhere around the world to save sentient beings. In contrast, I am still
attached to my personal sentiments. When I met the sentient beings who were
poisoned by the wicked party, what I had was not the grand compassion to save
them, but the attachment to my personal sentiments. When they did not accept
what I told them, I did not look within to find the cause but dwelled on my
human mindset, fretting that what I got in return was incommensurate with what I
had put forth. Getting to the bottom of the matter, it is my enormous human
mentality at work, which has always been lurking in the path of my cultivation,
and creating many obstacles. I hope my experience can be of help to the fellow
practitioners who have similar problems, so that they can better prepare
themselves and join the current of Fa rectification. "If you are able to step out of the reasoning and
attachments of ordinary people, then you are a god."[Teaching the Fa at
the 2004 International Fa Conference in New York] The above are my personal experience and realizations. If
there is anything improper, please kindly point it out. July 30, 2005
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