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Why Did I Fall Down on My Cultivation Path? By a practitioner from Mainland China
(Clearwisdom.net) One afternoon on my way home from school, I was walking
alongside a colleague. We were pushing our electric bicycles down the road. All
of a sudden, the handles of our bikes got tangled up and we both fell down. My
colleague was barely scratched but I'd torn my clothes and had bruises on my
arms and legs. This incident was like being hit on the head with a club. I sat down and
quietly looked inside myself. I pondered this issue seriously: Why did I fall
down? There were several things I discovered. First, when I carefully searched
inside myself to find where I had gone wrong, I found that I'd always carried a
particular thought: after learning Falun Dafa, I would not have any problems.
Especially when I saw traffic accidents on the road, it would deepen this
thought of mine that I would be safe since I had learned Falun Dafa. I realized
that I have had this thought for a very long time. Six months ago, when a
colleague had a small accident and passed out in front of me, I thought that she
would've been fine if she'd learned Falun Dafa or knew that Falun Dafa is good. I had been using Falun Dafa as an umbrella of protection without realizing
it.. This was an attachment to pursuit. After studying the Fa for a
long time, I hadn't found my fundamental attachment. Now I've understood the
principle behind it and seen that I've been attached to the benefits that Falun
Dafa has given me. I began practicing Falun Dafa at first in order to get rid of my health
problems, hoping that Dafa would give me a healthy body. Whenever people
commented on my good health, I'd feel so happy inside, secretly gloating over
the fact that I'd learned Falun Dafa. I was also attached to Dafa's power to
make me youthful. Although I'd never say it, this selfish attachment was deeply
rooted in my mind. The attachment affected how well I did the three
things. It made me become lost in ordinary society and go after the happy
life of an ordinary person and forget the great historical responsibility that I
shoulder. Second, the evil factors are ubiquitous and we have to maintain righteous
thoughts all the time so that the evil is unable to affect us. On Party
Withdrawal Day, July the 1st, evil party propaganda filled the
television and my non-practitioner family members kept watching. I tried
persuading them to stop watching, but instead, I became influenced myself. A few
evil party songs even surfaced in my mind on my way to work. Immediately I
realized that it was the evil party factors at work and I began sending forth
righteous thoughts to clear them away. Thinking about it now, it was I that had allowed these evil party factors to
be present. I had acknowledged them and therefore they were able to interfere
with me. Master has taught us, "Poison is just poisonous, and if you want
it to stop being poisonous it can't do that." ("Teaching the Fa at the
2002 Fa Conference in Philadelphia, U.S.A.") We have to maintain righteous
thoughts all the time and clear these poisonous factors from our minds--reject
them and uproot them. At the same time, as practitioners, balancing our
relationships at home is also a part of our cultivation. Master has taught us in
many lectures that we have to balance our family relationships well. However, I
have not done well enough in this regard. Third, by reflecting on myself, I found that I also have a very strong
attachment to showing off and being too engrossed. The day before yesterday, I
bought a pair of pants and felt very good about it. They were cheap and
comfortable, and I showed them off to my colleagues. When my written article got
published on the Minghui website, I was very happy and became overjoyed. When
fellow practitioners said that I cultivated very well in certain areas, I was
also very happy. It is all these little things in my life that made me fall down in my
cultivation path. As a cultivator, we should use the Fa to restrain our
attachments all the time and do well on every step of our cultivation path. Posting date: 10/10/2006 |