Former Party Official: "How I Was Twisted and Lost My True Nature in the CCP"
By Xiang Ming (Shandong Province)
(Clearwisdom.net) As a member of my village party group, I worked for
several years at the government's lowest level. I didn't understand for many
years how the Communist Party's education twists the conscience and nature of
the Chinese people, causing us to lose our true selves, until we do not know
right from wrong. In my early days, as the child of a farmer, I had a virtuous nature. After I
finished work, no matter how late it was, I rushed back to town and ate in the
eatery because I felt I should use my own money. However, my behavior caused
other party members to treat me as a dissident, and push me out everywhere. The
branch secretary in the village said I did not get along with others. At that
time, the entire party group stayed in the village and let the people there
entertain them after finishing work. Most of the branch secretaries were happy
to entertain cadres visiting from town because they didn't need to spend their
own money. They just sponged off of the common people's hard-earned money. Any
food they didn't eat was wasted, and they did this with no consideration for
anyone but themselves. My superior often criticized me, saying that I did not work earnestly. I felt
very sad. When I was in pain, a senior member "gave directions" to me,
which changed my style. I decided to go with the flow; I ate and took things
from common people. When we were supposed to live in the village, I dined
together with other party cadres in the village. When we were not supposed to
live there, I contacted other cadres to see where they were, and joined them no
matter how far it was. Behaving in a corrupt manner, everything changed. My
personal relationships at work improved, the branch secretary and the leaders
all said I had changed for the better, that I work solidly now, unite with other
comrades, etc. Isn't evaluating someone in this way reversing the standards of
right and wrong? Being a party cadre in China, can one not be kind? I felt really puzzled. I
gradually understood, that as long as you want to be a party member, it is
impossible to be a good person. Everyone puts a squeeze on people's hard-earned
money. If you want to be a good person, you will be pushed out, labeled as
incapable, an under-performer who doesn't work well with others. For a period of time, my leader made me join a group that sent party
officials to each village to call on farmers who had not paid what the party
demanded. We beat them up and forced them to pay. We would carry away the grain
rations of those who could not pay. Farmers work very hard all year long, and after paying the government, they
have very little money left. If they have an illness or if there is a disaster,
they have to borrow all around. Just paying for food and clothing becomes a
problem if villagers have a small conflict with the village cadres. Villagers are called "stubble" by the secretary, and
"chopped" by our workgroup. In order to complete the task of
collecting tax money, our area organized a group of hatchet men to help the
branch secretary take on the villagers. Some of the so called
"stubble" were dragged into the village committee office, forced to
sit on the ground with their arms straight out from the shoulder, and were not
allowed to move. Some became extremely tired and put their arms down and the
hatchet men would brutally beat them. Villagers could not bear the torture and
agreed to pay their taxes; only then were they allowed to go home. A previous branch secretary owed a farmer money, and was not willing to
suppress farmers, so he was removed from his position. A more vicious person
came to work as branch secretary, and did not admit the previous secretary owed
anything and would not let the money go against the lending fund. The farmer
disagreed and refused to pay his taxes, and so was treated as
"stubble." The villager argued with the cadres, but they would not
listen, and beat him until he agreed to pay up. I knew the officials were wrong.
Villagers are forced to pay the government, but how can the government owe
villagers and not pay? What principle is this? The villager was very scared, with a bellyful of complaints, he painfully
returned home to get grain and borrow money to pay the village committee. Fellow
villagers were sympathetic: after a brutal beating, money and grain exchanged
for a year's sweat and toil were handed over to the hatchet men. The same time
next year, they would again be bled white. The vicious circle goes on, villagers
are like lambs being led to the slaughter. Where is justice? My heart was bleeding, but I could not show a bit of sympathy, because in the
group of party politics, whoever showed sympathy or refused to join the
workgroup would be washed out by the party. In this environment, with the passing of time, my heart gradually became
numb, the bit of kindness I had had, disappeared. In order to strive for
leaders' appreciation and be promoted, I also began to hate the
"stubble," and tyrannized people like other cadres. My superiors
praised me, said I was capable, for more praise and promotions. I became more
ruthless. I became one of those who hid at home during the daytime. Following
our leads, we and the village cadres surrounded homes, climbed walls, kicked in
doors, and pulled quivering "benefactors" out from under beds or from
cabinets. Leaders would put belts around their necks, pull them out, and harshly
begin the brutal torture. The next day, our "benefactors" came to pay
their taxes with borrowed money. Unknowingly, I became a backbone in my district, and was gradually promoted
to the area leader. Under the fostering of the Chinese Communist Party (CCP),
from a kind person, I became a numb hatchet man and lost myself in the party. On July 20, 1999, the CCP began to suppress Falun Gong. I was learning the
operation, and had yet to participate. I heard it mentioned that some people
went to Beijing, and the party committee sent a car to bring them back. First we
detained them at the police station for so called "education, and
transformation" (torture). The TV broadcast propaganda that slandered Falun
Dafa daily. It was like June 4, 1989 all over again (the date of the Tiananmen
Square Massacre). Propaganda came first, followed by persecution. The same mold, with nothing
new. This made veteran comrades feel it was another political campaign, like so
many during the party's tenure since 1949. I met a Falun Gong practitioner in 1996, so I did not think they were as bad
as the TV said. They are a group of good people. My child was sick before, and
would cry all night. The hospital could not find anything wrong, but an old
person said the child's soul was frightened, and invited someone who could call
the soul back with a shout, the child stopped crying, and became completely
normal. I was astonished, and understood humans do have spirits. Under the old
person's guidance, I also bought a copy of Zhuan Falun. At
that time, I only understood the supernatural effects of Falun Gong in curing
illness, but did not practice, because I had no sickness. I had just gotten
married and had many debts, so I had to try my best to make money to pay them
off, leaving me with no spare time. In 2001 the Central CCP was going to hold the People's Representative
Congress, and feared Falun Gong practitioners would go to Beijing to appeal to
the representatives there as well as journalists from abroad. The Central CCP
ordered all levels of governments to strictly prohibit anyone from their area to
appeal in Beijing, and if it happened, the top leader from that area would be
removed from their post and held responsible. Therefore, the Party Committee
also held a meeting, and put it into effect. A big net for seizing Falun Gong
practitioners opened. I was sent to arrest Falun Gong practitioners in my area.
So, after the meeting, we went straight to our targets. Our group arrived at a
practitioner's home, first we randomly searched for Dafa materials, and found
nothing, and we then pulled the practitioner into the car. The practitioner
asked me: "What law have I broken, can you tell me which law from the
Chinese Constitution I violated, or what bad thing I have done, how can you
arrest people? You know the law and yet you violate it!" I was speechless. Yes, she was forced to undergo tubal ligation due to the
CCP's one child policy, and as a result, she could not work. She took medicine
every day but it was useless. Afterwards, the village paid her a 2000 yuan
subsidy every year, but she knew the money would not help much, it was not even
enough to buy medicine! Her husband worked hard each year to support the family.
After she began practicing Falun Gong, her illness disappeared. She could work
again and didn't take the subsidy any more. It caused a huge shock in town.
Since she began practicing Falun Gong, she never quarreled with others. What's
wrong with being a good person? None of us could find a reason to arrest her. Without official documents or
any evidence of anyone practicing Falun Gong, we had no right to arrest her. We
would be deliberately breaking the law! However as officials of the CCP, we have
to deliberately break the law, so we can be promoted. We knew it was against the
law, but had to follow unconditionally, and took her away forcibly. My
conscience woke up from our actions. Although I felt sympathetic to them, I
still forced them into the temporary "transformation" center. Meanwhile I also started to face up to Falun Gong, I collected every Falun
Gong truth-clarification flyer that I picked up on the roadside, and read it
carefully. The propaganda on TV, the pictures of the "self-immolation" in
Beijing, Liu Siying's distorted appearance from the burns misled me again, and
unknowingly deceived me, causing me to sin again. Under the CCP's law, evil spread all over the country. Farmers who struggle
on the verge of death are endlessly bullied and coerced. The branch secretary
can get away with beating villagers, but villagers would be taken into custody
after punching the secretary once, and interrogated, fined and forced to
apologize. In China, people are forced to obey the law, and must adhere to the
law strictly, yet party officials are not liable for any breach of law. The
so-called law has become relationship law, money law and "law" that
oppresses people. When children of party officials violate the law, they can avoid punishment
by going to the back door and paying some money. High officials strive to be
umbrellas of criminals for power and money. This has caused gangs to run amuck
in China. In order to complete the task of collecting agricultural taxes and
boat usage taxes etc, village officials hire gangsters to collect them. They
even let gangsters become the branch secretaries in villages with messy
situations, "using evil to control evil," "using black to control
black." This caused people's seething discontent. Many places began to have
villagers no longer enduring such suppression and resisting together. The CCP
leaders picked up on this crisis, and played a trick. They broadcast on TV how
the Central Party understands farmers' situations, and implemented policies to
reduce farmers' burdens, misleading the farmers into thinking the Central
Party's policies were good, but were ruined by the villages and towns. This
fooled a lot of people. But the Central Party Committee actually changed the way it collects taxes
from provinces, cities, counties and towns. They implemented the system of one
being responsible for one's own finances. The head of a town is personally in
charge of his or her towns' finances. The Party Committee secretary will lose
his job if the task can't be completed, so the town government had to assign
members of the villages to collect. The village secretaries use every method to
get more money from farmers. After the farmers saw the TV propaganda, and
thought the town and village governments charged randomly, some refused to pay.
The town government then formed workgroups to bully people. Some villages made
collective appeals. Town officials feared to take responsibility, so they forced
the village officials to do it. Village officials had no other choice but to
hire gangsters to collect money for them. Some farmers became anxious and
jointly appealed. The CCP feared it would affect its international reputation,
so it made a regulation that appeals could not bypass the immediate leadership,
numbers could not be more than five people, otherwise it would be an illegal
appeal, and the appealers must take responsibility for violating the law. At the
same time, it also made it a regulation that the head of every level of
government must take the main responsibility for appeals. The head of local
governments must complete every task given by a superior, and not allow people
to speak up, so they have to rely on state terrorism. Local police and public
security bureau officers are forced to arrest appealers, cruelly torture them,
and carry out an implication policy, in which neighbors, relatives and close
friends of appealers are also fined or detained. Law abiding citizens have to
tolerate and be a "dummy" for sentimentality, and pay unreasonable
fines, a vicious circle . It seems that farmers do not pay an agricultural tax; yet their income is
still very low, and their lives do not change for the better, why? Frankly
speaking, it is a sneaky technique used by the evil party. In China, the party
controls the entire economy. Although it no longer charges agricultural tax, the
prices of fertilizers and agricultural chemicals unceasingly rise. Although
farmers do not pay taxes, their actual income is not high, and they still live
in poverty. Why? As a matter of fact, the evil party deceives people, and as
long as the party leads, farmers will never live above the poverty level. Now, the CCP has developed a plan called "maintaining the advancement of
CCP members." It alleges to consolidate the Party, but is simply another
nominal formality that wastes manpower, and physical and financial resources. First it requires that all party members, probationary party members, and
activists joining the party to study. Whether they are retired or sick, they
must receive materials delivered by fellow party members. The party set up
assistance teams to help members at home. Doesn't the Central Party Committee
know when people are sick or weak? How can they study? Not to mention that each
party member must hand in experiences of no lesser than 3000 words, and 10000
words of study notes, some are illiterate, and can't even write: how can they
write study notes? All these unreasonable requests cannot be put into practice
at all. The village cadres and party members are busy with forms and materials,
and become angry: Spring is a busy season; the Central Party Committee
disregards the planting of crops. Can they compensate the farmers? It's true,
some party members in the village have a lower conscience than villagers, some
retired party members have many conflicts with current members, and do the
opposite on every matter, not to mention gathering them to study leaving no one
out. Every form and study notes are copied by teachers or students hired by
branch secretaries, the experiences are also downloaded from the Internet,
written by somebody else. All the advice is compiled together by each team
leader, all the material, from top to bottom, is all fabricated.
"Maintaining the advancement" education must carry on 64 provisions in
the countryside; it is extremely tedious, and not realistic at all. It has
caused many complaints from party members. Do you believe it is effective? Some intelligent cadres thought about it, "Why did the Central Party
Committee arrange such complicated but ineffective study tasks. Is there
something happening in society which hit the CCP's vitals, and left it unable to
fight back. Could this be something to keep us from looking elsewhere? Could
this be a ploy to hold party members together by indulging in
self-admiration." After many inquiries, I heard about a book called the Nine
Commentaries on the Communist Party which fully exposes and judges the
CCP. This book reviews the past 80 years of lies, dictatorship and suppression
by the CCP. The CCP has committed monstrous crimes against the Chinese nation,
has slaughtered 80 million compatriots in China, destroyed countless happy
families, polluted the Divine Land that our Chinese nation lives on, and sold
out three large, fertile provinces in the northeast to Russia. It has destroyed
traditional Chinese culture, and persecutes Falun Gong practitioners who follow
"Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance." There is not one true
sentence on TV or in the paper. Gangsters run amuck in China. Kind people are
suppressed by the evil. Evildoers collude with officials; where is the Chinese
nation's outlet! The Nine Commentaries triggered a tide of members quitting the CCP.
The Central Committee requested the "CCP theory elite" to write a book
rebutting the Nine Commentaries, only to discover that this book was
written according to the real history of the CCP, from its birth to now. Full of
facts, there was no way to rebut it. They became very anxious, and thought up
the nonsense "maintaining the advancement" education to take up party
members' time, so they wouldn't have time to read the Nine Commentaries.
They did not expect it to actually have the opposite effect; causing party
members' repugnance, and let smart party members become aware of the Nine
Commentaries, and join the tide of those quitting. Once again, the CCP has shot itself in the foot. I also obtained the Nine
Commentaries during that time, and truly realized the Communist Party is a
cult, that brought huge disasters to our Chinese nation. In the Soviet Union,
after Stalin died, the slaughter of 20 million Soviet people was disclosed,
which caused the Soviet political power to fall in one night. The Communist
Party of the Soviet Union became synonymous with butchery.. The Nine
Commentaries exposes all the evil deeds of the CCP since its establishment.
Over 80 million Chinese people were killed; let us wake up! Quickly withdraw
from the evil CCP, replace the CCP's dictatorship rule with a democratic, free
system, and return our Chinese' true quality.
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