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"The Shade of Willows, The Blooms of Flowers, a Place to Rest My Head"
By a Falun Dafa practitioner in China
(Clearwisdom.net) Other practitioners suggested that I share my practice
story with everyone, and I also wanted to do so. I lived in a very poor and
isolated village in South China. When I was three years old, my father passed
away. My family struggled to make ends meet, and I even had to beg to get by.
I've only had three months of schooling, so it was difficult for me to write an
article. Therefore, I recorded my cultivation story on tape and other
practitioners helped me write it out. I am sure that I still have gaps in my
cultivation, and I hope fellow practitioners will kindly point them out based on
the Fa. 1. Told by a Taoist That There Is a Great Master and Falun Dafa Is a
Righteous Fa I have been deaf and unable to speak twice. Each time it lasted seven days,
and I recovered without any medical treatment. It was not a simple disease of
deafness and inability of speech but rather something directly related to Dafa.
Teacher said in Hong Yin Volume II, "Predestined ties of countless lifetimes ("The Difficult Path to Godhood" from Hong Yin Volume II) The following two stories bear witness Teacher's poem. In the summer of 1969, I caught a strong cold after working in a heavy rain.
I felt very cold and had a high temperature. I slept a long time and it was very
late when I got up the next morning. I skipped breakfast and hurried to catch up
with the other villagers who were already weeding crops in the field. When I went by a bridge built of dirt, I saw a Taoist who had a baby face and
white hair coming down from the sky. Holding a "Fuchen" or feather
duster in his hand, he landed in front of me. I was dumbfounded and asked
myself, "Is this a dream? How can this happen? Is he an immortal or a
ghost?" Because the road was narrow, I stepped aside to let him pass. I did
not have any fear. He stopped right in front me, touched my head three times and
took three small white pills out of his pocket. He asked me to open my mouth and
said, "It is OK for you to feel uncomfortable. Once you eat these pills
everything will be fine." I swallowed the pills, and he disappeared before I could thank him. I looked
around but could not see him anywhere. I bowed towards the direction he had come
from three times. I then continued walking. I felt my body become very light and
extremely comfortable, as if I had become a different person with endless
energy. When I got to the field, I did not say hello to anyone but went right
into work, to make up for lost time. When it was time for lunch break, I saw that my mother and my wife were in
tears and other people were pointing at me. I could see them opening their
mouths but I could not hear a word. What happened? I felt strange. I said to
myself, "I'm not going to worry about it, I'll have lunch first." I
ate almost several people's portions of food for I had skipped two meals. After
lunch, I started working again. In the afternoon, I went with others to carry
wooden blocks to the purchase station. When I was walking on the road, someone
pushed me aside. I turned back and saw a truck was coming. Then I realized that
I had become deaf and mute. I knew this was related to that Taoist, but I could
not tell others about it. My family was very worried. They dragged me to
acupuncture treatments and to worship various gods, but I did not improve. A few days had passed, and my family started to calm down as they saw that I
maintained high spirits and everything else was normal. On the seventh evening,
that Taoist came to me again. This time he stayed in the sky. He waved his
Fuchen to carry me from the corridor in my house to the ground outside. I
shouted, "Master" and was able to kneel down to him. He waved his
Fuchen to signal that I should stand up. He said, "I am not your Master.
You have a Great Master. He will come in the future." My family heard me shouting "Master" and they all came out. They
saw that I had regained my hearing and could speak. From then on, I eagerly
waited to see my Master. Eighteen years later, one day in the fall of 1987, I was wrapping cabbage in
my vegetable garden. I felt tired and took a break. When I was stretching and
looking around, I saw a colorful cloud quickly approaching me from far away. I was totally entranced. The colorful cloud suddenly stopped, and I was
carried into it. On the red carpet-like cloud, I saw a handsome young man
standing there. He held me with one hand. His kind, merciful and benevolent face
made me feel very warm and joyful, and I felt that I had seen him long ago. He
said to me, "I will take you to look around. You can watch, but you may not
speak or ask any questions." I nodded my head. When I looked down, I saw my physical body was still wrapping cabbage in the
garden. Pointing down in one direction, he asked me, "What is that?" I
answered fog. He said, "No, that is not fog but dark qi. Someone was
spreading an evil qigong there. You should not learn it. Falun Gong will be
spread later, that is true cultivation of the Righteous Fa." He took me around and let me see the emperors of different times in China's
history, the cultivators with different skin colors and different dresses
cultivating in the mountains around the world, and the mountains of Zhangjiajie
in Hunan Province that appear as a stone Bodhisattva when seen from a high
perspective. Finally he showed me the Falun Paradise and I saw a gigantic Falun
rotating both clockwise and counterclockwise there. He took me to the palace and
demonstrated the five sets of exercises. I also saw many things that I was not
able to describe. He then took me back. At that time my physical body was laying in my room and
the door was closed. A purple light flashed over and I was carried to the ground
in front my house. Then my soul merged with my physical body. He said to me,
"You have been gone for several days. If people ask you, you can only tell
them two sentences, 'Everything uses righteousness as Gong. Everything bases its
root in benevolence.'" I asked him what that meant. He said, "Don't
worry about what it means. People will understand it. You will understand it too
sometime later." My physical body had been in the human world without my soul for seven days.
During that seven days, my physical body was deaf and dumb and everything else
was normal. Since then, I wondered whether that young man was my Master, whether
I should learn Falun Gong in the future and why he left so quickly. 2. After I Obtained the Fa, My Whole Family Benefited In February 1996, a friend, Mr. Zhang told me, "I heard that Mr. Wan has
learned a good qigong exercise." I asked him what it was. He said it was
Falun Gong. When I heard him mentioning Falun Gong, I ran to Mr. Wan's home
right away. Mr. Wan was not at home. I asked his wife if he was practicing Falun Gong.
She said yes. I asked her, "Do you have Teacher's picture and
materials?" She said, "Yes. Teacher's picture is on the wall in our
room." I went inside to look. That was exactly the Master who took me to heaven. The
Falun was the same as the gigantic Falun that I saw that day. The exercises in
the pictures were the same as the five sets that Master demonstrated for me in
Heaven. After waiting for over twenty years, I had finally seen Teacher and
Falun Gong. I was so excited that tears came to my eyes. I told her,
"Please tell Mr. Wan that I want to practice Falun Gong. Please ask him to
come to my home to teach me." Two days later Mr. Wan came to my home and told me in detail about Falun
Gong. I said to him, "No matter how much the materials cost, please make
sure to get a copy for me." Ten days later, in the evening, Mr. Wan and Mr.
Zhang brought the materials to my home and taught me the exercises. I learned
all five sets that night. Later I felt a great pain in my stomach when I laid in
bed to sleep. I struggled with the pain the whole night and finally the morning
came. I used a walking stick to get to the health clinic. When Doctor Hu opened
the door, I went inside and sat down on a large chair in the lotus position. All
of sudden my stomach pain was gone. I asked Doctor Hu, "Does your chair
have some magic power? Why don't I feel any pain after sitting in it?" He
said, "The chair has no magic power. But maybe you have learned some qigong
exercise that is powerful." Oh, that's why. Because I had just learned
Falun Gong. I said to myself, "This answer does not sound like Doctor Hu's
words. Teacher is giving me hints using his mouth." Because I had not yet
begun studying the Fa, Teacher used this method to teach me. I went home
immediately. When doing the exercises at night, I always heard beautiful music in my ears.
From then on, the same music woke me up at four o'clock every morning to
practice. Winter or summer, I never stopped doing the exercises. I did the
exercises right after I got up, without changing out of my pajamas. But I never
felt cold. Instead, I always felt my body was warm inside and extremely
comfortable. Two weeks after I obtained the Fa, my mother-in-law had a heart attack. Under
my energy field, her body was cleaned to some extent and her sickness started to
go away. Just as Teacher said, "...with one person practicing, the whole
family benefits" ("Teaching the Fa at the Fa Conference in
Australia"). Gradually she could lean on something to help her walk. I
wanted to make a walking stick for her. I wanted to make the handle in a bird
shape for easy grabbing. It was hard for me to hold the stick with my foot to
cut it with a saw, so I used my toe to hold it down. When I was almost done, I
used too much force and cut my toe off. It was being held on only by a tiny
piece of skin. At that time I did not realize that I was practicing our boundless Dafa that
can do anything. I put my toe back and asked my wife to find a piece of cloth to
wrap it. I was not bleeding at all. Then I went to the field to weed the crops
and totally forget my injury. When I finished working, I saw the cloth was gone,
and when I washed my feet I found that my toe was completed healed. Nobody had
seen my severed toe earlier, even my wife did not know how severe the injury
was. So it was incredible to them when I told them what had actually happened.
In fact, the deeper you believe in Teacher and Dafa, the more powerful Dafa will
manifest. That winter, another farmer from my village went with me to sell our crop
seeds to a buyer in Yueyang City in Hunan Province, 20 miles away. It was
snowing that day and the mountain path under the snow was very difficult for us
to walk on. We left in the morning but did not arrive there until four in the
afternoon. The buyer cooked dinner for us, and it was after five when we
finished eating. I said to the buyer, "I have something to do at home and I
need to leave now." They thought I was joking. But I told them, "No, I
must go now. Please give me the money." The buyer said, "I have the
money here, but it is a little less than what you asked for." I asked him
why, and he said, "I pay nine yuan a pound for new seeds and
sell them for ten yuan. So I only make one yuan. I sell old seeds also at ten
yuan a pound and that is where I make my money. Yours are old seeds. I can only
give you five yuan a pound, not the six yuan you wanted." I was totally
surprised and thought it was unreasonable. Then I said to myself, "Maybe
because I am a cultivator, this is a test of my mind nature. It is to help me
get rid of the attachment to money." Then I recalled what Teacher said in Zhuan Falun, "The only thing ordinary people think about is their own gain and how
to live well and comfortably. But we practitioners aren't like that, we're
just the opposite. We don't seek the things ordinary people want, but what we
gain is what ordinary people can't, even if they want to... unless they
cultivate." I suddenly felt that my mind became much wider. I said to him calmly,
"OK. Let's do what you said." My friend stayed with the buyer but I rushed off for my home. I did not think
about anything, and just kept walking. When I reached home, it was just seven
o'clock. I walked 20 miles in the snow over the mountain in eighty minutes. It
was so incredible! I knew this was because of Teacher's benevolent help. I
became firmer on my cultivation. 3. "Walking in the Dark during the Great Turbulence, Seeing the Light
after Seven Days" On July 20, 1999, Jiang Zemin, the head of the evil Chinese Communist Party (CCP)
started rampantly undermining Dafa, badmouthing Teacher and persecuting Dafa
practitioners. As a Dafa disciple, I could not stand by and watch the evil being
so crazy. I wanted to go to Beijing, the place of the central government, to
appeal for Falun Gong. But I did not have money for the trip. I met practitioner
Mr. Li from another county. He agreed to go with me to Beijing and cover all the
expenses. I walked 10 miles to his home the next day. On my way, I saw
"Running quickly on the way home" written on a stone at the top of a
hill. I said to myself, "Aren't we cultivators walking on our way home?
Isn't this Teacher giving me a hint?" Then on another stone, I saw
"Walk out with mighty virtue and greatness." Teacher was encouraging
me! It meant that I was doing the right thing appealing for Falun Gong.
Therefore, my original not-so-sure heart calmed down and I walked more steadily
and more firmly. At Mr. Li's home, we discussed the details of our trip and I
stayed for the night. We planned to leave the next day. But we were interfered
with and Mr. Li could not make the trip with me. Without the money, I was not
able to go either. Returning home, I was very upset and could not eat or sleep.
I said to myself, "Let me start working from the lowest level of government
and move up level by level." I first went to see the leaders in our village
and clarified the truth to them. They understood me and agreed with
what I told them. They felt that they were powerless in such a large political
movement manipulated by the CCP. They kept telling me not to bounce an egg
against a stone. I planned to go the County government the next day. After I finished my
dinner that evening, Director Chen from the local police station led two police
officers to my home. Director Chen said that he wanted to talk to me. I asked
him what it was about. He asked me to go to the police station to discuss it.
When I sat in the car with him, he said to me, "You are the local organizer
of Falun Gong. You have to confess to us all the details of your
organization." I said, "We do not have any organization. All we want
is to have healthy bodies and be good people living by the principles of
'Truthfulness, Benevolence, Forbearance.' The government should not strip us of
our freedom of belief." At the police station, Director Chen left me with the two other policemen.
One said to me viciously, "Tell us all about your organization. Otherwise
we won't be nice to you any longer." I replied, "But we don't have any
organization. What do you want me to tell you?" He then started to curse
me, saying "Are you going to speak or not?" I said, "I really
have nothing to say." He said to the other policeman, "Take off his
clothes." The other policeman stripped me to my underwear. I thought,
"Trying to freeze me to death? That won't work." I sat down in the
middle of the room and said to myself, "Teacher said, 'The Fa gained, you
now stand divine...' ('Salvation Far and Wide,'
from Hong Yin) I am already a divine person. Am I going to be
afraid of the cold?" I sat there for over an hour. Police officer Peng came
and kicked me in the chest, and I fell to the ground. When I stood up, he hit my
temples with both fists. I was dazzled and a light flashed in my eyes. I closed
my eyes for a while and I opened them again, I was still OK. Officer Peng beat me, then left. Director Chen came back. He pretended to be
innocent, "Why don't you wear any clothes in the winter?" I said to
him, "Stop pretending. This is the 'deed' of the 'people's police.'"
He said, "Oh, sorry. Please put on your clothes. Those young people don't
know how to treat people nicely." Then they locked me in an empty room
upstairs. All the glass was missing from the windows and the cold wind kept
pouring into the room. I stayed there for a whole night. The next morning,
officer Fang brought milk, tea, cigarettes and candies to me, trying to lure me
to speak. I did not drink anything, nor did I speak. At around five o'clock in
the afternoon, I was taken out to the courtyard, where I was handcuffed to a
tree. In the evening, a policeman came and shouted, "This stubborn person
should not stand here. He needs to kneel down." He stepped on the back of
my knees, but I did not kneel down. Then he tried to push my shoulders, but that
failed as well. He became more vicious and started to lose his temper. He
climbed up the tree, and I knew something real bad was about to happen, so I
asked Teacher to strengthen me. I also kept reciting silently Teacher's words,
"It's hard to endure, but you can endure it. It's hard to do, but you can
do it." He held the tree with his hands and jumped on to my wrists. My
bones were fractured, and I was in great pain. I said to myself, "I am a
divine person and the pain is not for me." He jumped on my wrists a few
more times causing the handcuffs to bite deeply into my flesh, but I no longer
felt the pain. After that, he left. Shortly after, the director of the County's Armed Services came. He stood in
front of me, "What happened?" He asked someone to open the handcuffs,
but they were not able to insert the key into the handcuff because it was
embedded so deeply in my flesh. It took quite a while for them to unlock me.
Then a bunch of other evildoers came. They kept kicking me. One said, "Be
smart! Tell us, are you going to practice Falun Gong any more?" I replied,
"Why should I stop practicing such a good exercise?" They surrounded
me and beat me again. "Are you going to practicing anymore?"
"Practice! Practice! Practice!" I answered. A policeman shouted,
"I don't believe that I can't beat you into giving in." He found a big
wooden stick and used it to hit my back several times. Then he threw it away,
shook his hands and left while cursing me, "You are driving me nuts!
Driving me nuts!" Director Li carried a basin of water to wash my face and hands. I could tell
that he was very surprised. "For sure the handcuffs bit into his flesh, but
how come there is no injury to his skin?" I felt that when the handcuffs
were taken off, my injuries were healed. It was our great benevolent Teacher who
endured the hardship for me. I wanted to cry but I would not do so in front of
these evildoers. Director Li asked me, "Is it painful?" I answered
him, "Does it matter to you guys if it is painful or not? Are they going to
stop the brutal torture if I feel pain? Goodness begets goodness and evil will
be punished. If they do not change their evil behavior they will not escape from
the fate of being eliminated." That evening, my son paid a fine and got me
out. I had a dream that night. I saw an antithetical couplet on my door frame,
"Walking in the Dark during the Great Turbulence, Seeing the Lights after
Seven Days." The next morning, my granddaughter came to ask me to get up. I
said it was still dark. But she said, "The sun has been up for quite a
while. Can't you see it?" I realized that I had lost my sight. After
breakfast, my son and I went to the County government to ask for justice for me.
But who would help us there? All the people were either hiding from us or
sending us to other people. We came home without any result. With Teacher's
help, I regained my vision seven days later. On January 13, 2000, my wife gave me one hundred yuan to buy piglets. I took
the money to a practitioner's home. We planned to go to Beijing to appeal for
Falun Gong with two other practitioners, one of whom was willing to cover the
trip expenses for all of us with several thousand yuan. When the train arrived
at the Zhengzhou Station in Henan Province, I heard someone on a loud speaker
saying, "Attention please, practitioners who are going to Beijing, please
be prepared for your test." I heard it again when the train was approaching
Beijing. I woke the other three practitioners up and told them what I heard.
They were very surprised. It was impossible for the train to broadcast such a
message, because the evil CCP was arresting practitioners going to Beijing. I
must have heard it in another dimension. Teacher was encouraging us. We felt
very excited, knowing that our great Teacher was protecting us all the time. In
a great mood, we arrived in Beijing. It was morning when we got off the train,
and after breakfast, we went to Tiananmen Square. A truck stopped in front of
us, and several policemen in plain clothes asked us, "Are you Falun Gong
practitioners?" We answered yes. They said, "Please get in the
truck." I asked, "Where are you taking us?" They said, "To a
place." Then they pushed us and other practitioners into the truck. They
took us to a place and asked us to form two lines for registration. When I was about thirty feet away from the registration desk, I was patted on
my shoulder. I turned around and saw two policemen, one was tall and one was
short. The tall policeman signaled to me to go with him. He led me to a room
next to the bathroom and locked the door from the inside. There was a wooden
board laying on the floor. The tall policeman asked me in a low voice, "You
are already very old, why come to Beijing?" I answered him loudly, "To
rectify the Fa!" He said, "I know. Lower your voice. I mean,
rectifying the Fa is not playing. It might mean life and death. Aren't you
afraid of death?" I said, "I wouldn't be here if I was afraid."
"OK. You are not afraid of death, but are you afraid of pain?" I
answered, "I am not afraid of death, why would I be afraid of pain?"
He said, "Good. Take off your shoes and stand on this board." I took
off my left shoe and put my left foot on the board. The short policeman took
several nails that were four inches long and hammered three of them into my
foot. I did not shake at all. Then they asked me to put my right foot on the
board and nailed it with another three nails. I was not able to move my feet any
more. The two policemen looked at each other. The short guy motioned the
thumbs-up and said, "You are really something!" The tall policeman
asked him to take the nails out. There was no blood on the nails. The tall man
brought over my shoes and helped me put them back on. Then they took me back to
the other Dafa practitioners. I was sent back to the detention center of my
hometown and released after being held there for twenty eight days. 4. Becoming Deaf and Mute for Five Years Due to a Wrong Thought - Recovering
via Righteous Thoughts and Righteous Actions Coming back from the detention center, I clarified the truth about Dafa and
how Dafa practitioners were tortured to every person I met. My son was afraid
and asked me not to talk about it any more. He also said some bad words. I then
said to myself, "If I was deaf and mute, I wouldn't have to face this
trouble any more." This thought became reality right away, and right away I
could not speak or hear. No one came to bother me any longer. Five years passed. During that time, many practitioners shared with me in
writing, telling me that this was not what Teacher gave to me. Dafa
practitioners should not be in the situation I was in. We needed to clarify
truth to save sentient beings, so how could we not speak? It must be
interference from the old forces. They were right, but I just thought my
situation was special and I was blocked by Teacher. So I agreed with the
isolation the old forces' inflicted on me and let the evil constrain me for a
long time. In the first half of 2005, a practitioner was released home after becoming
enlightened along an evil path at the Majialong Forced Labor Camp in Hunan
Province. I thought that I should help her, so I went to her home. But I could
only write on paper to share with her. She would write a few lines, then I wrote
a few lines. We used a whole notebook to write. Because of my limited education,
I often wrote wrong characters, but by and large we could understand each other.
She cried and said that she had committed a big crime by cursing Teacher and
Dafa. I tried to calm her down and persuaded her to go back to Dafa. She
expressed that she would start practicing again and do well the three
things. When I left, she burned our conversation notes. A practitioner
saved a few pages. When he saw it, the conversation was off from the Fa. He
immediately called other practitioners to help me. One evening, a half dozen diligent practitioners gathered together. They
showed me the pages of our conversation. Because the front and back pages were
gone, the meaning had changed. However, I could not speak and it was hard to
explain in writing. I was so eager to express myself. Several practitioners
studied the Fa and realized that their top priority was to resolve the isolation
that the old forces imposed on me. Teacher said in "Drive Out
Interference," "The Fa can break all attachments, the Fa can destroy
all evil, the Fa can shatter all lies, and the Fa can strengthen righteous
thoughts." Then we studied "Mind Your Speech" in Zhuan Falun,
where Teacher said, "And besides, we have to talk about the Law and spread
the Law, so not speaking wouldn't work." Teacher's Fa untied the knot in my
heart. We sat down to send forth powerful righteous thoughts for twenty minutes.
Then we planned to send forth righteous thoughts again at eight and nine p.m.
the next day. We decided that I must speak. I also sent forth righteous thoughts
before sleeping that night. The next morning, I was able to talk! And I could hear, too! The old forces
took advantage of my attachment of avoiding trouble to block me for five years.
It was such a painful lesson. Teacher said in Zhuan Falun, "It's actually that your mind is being controlled by a foreign spirit.
But for some reason you think it's pretty good, you like having it, and you're
happy to have it. And the happier you are, the tighter its grip on you." That's right. One bad thought, and I lost five years off my prehistoric wish
of clarifying the truth to save sentient beings. I matched the old forces' wish
and I was controlled by them for so long. How serious cultivation is! One bad thought could bring such a terrible
result to us. We should always keep our minds on the Fa. The old forces will
then have no chance of taking advantage of us. Teacher has already told us in Zhuan
Falun, "Besides, if you don't have any worries at home, and if you don't have
any trouble at all, what's left for you to cultivate? Practicing in total
comfort - who's ever heard of that? That's how you think about it, from an
ordinary person's standpoint." This lesson let me further understand the Fa. I must study the Fa carefully,
understand the Fa well and assimilate with the Fa. My being able to speak again was a shock to ordinary people. I appreciate
that Teacher used this method to untie the knot in my heart. I am grateful to
practitioners for their help as a whole. I joined other practitioners to clarify
the truth to save sentient beings. In my cultivation, via firm belief in Teacher and Dafa, under Teacher's
protection and help, I am able to overcome one tribulation after another.
Teacher said in Zhuan Falun, "Back when I was cultivating, a lot of men of great character told me
this: 'It's hard to endure, but you can endure it. It's hard to do, but you
can do it.' And that's really how it is. When you go back you might want to
give it a try. When you're going through an awful tribulation, or maybe a
critical juncture, give it a try. When it's hard to endure, try to endure it.
When it seems impossible to do, or just hard to do, give it a try and see just
what you can do. And when you can really do it, just like that worn and weary
traveler, you'll see, 'the shade of willows, the blooms of flowers, a place to
rest my head'!" Only when we put down our attachments and look to the Fa for guidance in our
cultivation all the time, can we do well the three things. November 30, 2006 |