Breaking through Old Force Arrangements; Walking the Path Master Arranged for Us - Part 1
By a Falun Dafa Practitioner from Hebei Province
(Clearwisdom.net) It's early October now. My experience-sharing article
is still not done. I have so many thoughts. But I didn't know where to start. I
let the old forces interfere with me and restrain me, making me so busy that I
didn't even have time to write. When I was meditating and sending forth
righteous thoughts I suddenly realized and became clear-minded that we are Dafa
practitioners, walking the path to divinity, walking the path to assist Master
in rectifying the Fa. We do this for the people of the future. Master has made
great efforts to save us, yet I couldn't even write an article. I asked myself,
"Am I still Master's disciple?" I remember Master having said before July 1999 that he loves to listen to
Dafa practitioners sharing experiences. The process of us writing experiences to
share is the process of identifying our shortcomings and purifying our minds. It
is the process of raising our realms and validating Dafa. Some practitioners
have passed the tests. Some didn't do a good job passing the tests. All of us
should write out our true thoughts to report to Master. The moment this thought
occurred I became open-minded. 1. Fortunate to Have Obtained Dafa I have practiced Falun Dafa for eleven years, since July 20, 1995, and have
experienced significant physical and mental changes. Although because of the
persecution I lost almost everything in this human world, I feel from the bottom
of my heart that we are Master's disciples and are the luckiest and happiest
people. The most wonderful moment is when we study the Fa, practice the
exercises, send forth righteous thoughts, clarify the truth and save sentient
beings. Sometimes, while meditating and studying the Fa, just as Master had said, I
felt I was sitting in an eggshell. It feels great. The more I study the Fa the
clearer my mind becomes, the more wisdom I have. After overcoming the demons of
sleep and emotions, when sending forth righteous thoughts my body was surrounded
with energy. Just that one thought: we are Master's disciples. We are here to
assist Master with rectifying the Fa and offering salvation to sentient beings. Every dimension in the universe, from micro to macro, everywhere there
exists, "The Fa rectifies the cosmos, the evil is completely
eliminated." It's so wonderful! If there weren't for Fa-validation work waiting for me to
do, I would have kept doing meditation. Revered Master: some practitioner said
if we could, we would build a road with gold to welcome Master. Revered Master:
although I don't have any gold, I'm willing to use my cultivated gold-like and
pure heart/mind to make a road to assist Master to rectify the Fa, rescue
sentient beings and follow Master home. 2. Persisting in Cultivation During the Persecution While I was in a forced labor camp my husband drove there to file for
divorce. I lost almost everything in the human world. These old force
arrangements didn't change my mind of continuing to cultivate. Even faced with
cruel torture, fellow practitioners and I took advantage of every opportunity we
had to help each other memorize those portions of the Fa we knew. Just like
that, I was able to think several times of letting go of life and death, as
Master refers to. Master said in "Eliminating Your Last Attachment(s)" "If a cultivator can let go of the thought of life and death under any
circumstance, evil is sure to be afraid of him. If every student is able to do
this, evil will of itself no longer exist." (Essentials for Further
Advancement II) Master said in "Dafa Disciples' Righteous Thoughts
are Powerful" "No matter what the situation, do not cooperate with the evil's
demands, orders, or what it instigates." (Essentials for Further
Advancement II) Master said in "Nothing Kept" "In life, nothing sought, In death, regretting naught; Washing away all
wrong thought, Buddhahood, with less adversity, is wrought." (Hong Yin, Translation
Version A) While I was on a hunger strike the guards seduced me: "Eat some food,
even if it's just one meal!" I knew that if I obeyed them there would be
endless persecution and torture. I made up my mind: "I'm not here to eat,
drink or work. There is nothing wrong with being a good person and studying the
Fa. The evil shouldn't incarcerate me here. I do want to study the Fa and
practice the exercises. I will not obey the evil!" I continued my hunger
strike. I only had Fa in my mind. On June 16, 2002, after being on hunger strike
for one hundred seventy-two days, I finally was able to walk out of the forced
labor camp and went back to clarify the truth and offering sentient beings
salvation. During a critical time of rescuing sentient beings, I did not study the Fa
with a calm mind because I was too busy doing Dafa work. Local National Security
Team agents and local police station personnel arrested me on December 14, 2003.
I was sent to the local brainwashing center. When I found my fundamental attachments the evil could no longer keep me
incarcerated. Right after the 2004 Chinese New Year I begged Master, being
locked behind three iron gates, three huge locks on the second floor, with metal
bars on the windows. I pleaded, "I can't be locked up here. I want to get
out so I can spend time rescuing sentient beings." With the power Master
gave me I was able to break a metal pipe. There were usually two dogs outside, a
yellow one and a black one. When I was getting out the dogs didn't even come
out. There was a car parked right outside whose driver helped me get away. So,
with Master's benevolent protection, I escaped from the brainwashing center
right under the eyes of the evildoers. 3. Overcoming Tribulations with Righteous Thoughts After I escaped from the brainwashing center in early 2004 the guards were
looking for me everywhere. I chose to stay away from my home. After more than
two years of tribulations and challenges, with Master's benevolent protection, I
was finally heading off all danger. I was able to find my fundamental
attachments and let go of self. I started to completely think of others and
devoting myself to rescuing sentient beings. I felt great and was able to go
wherever I wanted to go, and could do anything I wanted to do. In my dream I was
on a high plateau. There was nothing around it. Nothing could block me. While I was away from my home I felt the closest people were Dafa
practitioners. I am able to stay in other practitioners' homes to pass the
nights, giving us an environment to assist Master to rectify the Fa and to
advance together. When I just got out of the brainwashing center I first went to a relative's
home. They were afraid of having me there. I changed my clothes, called another
practitioner and took a cab to their house. His wife had just begun to practice
as well. After she learned that I was able to escape the den of monsters with
Master's protection, we put out Master's picture and an incense burner and
kowtowed to Master with great respect. We were all so excited that we couldn't
sleep that night. The third day local practitioners came to visit. We encouraged
one another to do well all the things Dafa practitioners are supposed to do. Although several of us were able to overcome tribulations, due to the anxiety
of doing Dafa work, we kept having conflicts. In one of our rented place my bike
was stolen. A woman said people downstairs were watching us and asked me to
leave for another practitioner's home. I also took another practitioner A to the new practitioner's home.
Practitioner A was also staying where I had, and had also decided to leave. We
did our own work for Dafa at our new location. Around the fortieth day,
practitioner A told me that she had met people from my office who said they knew
me. She asked me which one of us should leave. I noticed her uncertainty and her
hesitation. To alleviate her pressure I left. I thought no matter how hard or
difficult things might get for me, I wouldn't go back there again so
practitioner A could do her work without any pressure. What made me the saddest then was the obstacles some practitioners had in
their minds. They knew I had escaped from the brainwashing center. They didn't
want to have contact with me too often. Even when they did connect with me every
once in a while they didn't want to stay with me for too long. During the days the evildoers were searching for me I didn't have anywhere to
go. While suffering from the emotional feel of fellow practitioners' avoidance
and blame I met a practitioner Zengzeng (Alias) who people said is a
"spy." He accepted me into their place, knowing the risks.
Practitioner A said, "If you go to his place, don't try to contact us any
more." I was thinking: "No matter what, as long as I have a place I
can validate Dafa and clarify the truth, I will go. When I was locked up in the
brainwashing center I once thought that as long as I can have the opportunity to
rescue sentient beings, no matter how hard or how tiring, I'm willing to do
anything." I now realized that all intolerable environments were arranged for Fa-rectification
and cultivation. The woman friend I cooperated with to do Dafa work then had a husband, but I
had lost everything in the human world. Sometimes I lived in practitioners'
homes who have families. It wasn't very convenient. Although people said that
practitioner was "spy," I trusted him. That is why I went to their
place. About forty days after I left the woman friend, police arrested and
sentenced her to seven years in prison. While I was at Zengzeng's place, over twenty police and evildoing people
surrounded a local practitioner's house. Their machines for producing
truth-clarifying materials were taken away. To gather further facts of the
persecution, Zengzeng took me on his motorcycle to the fellow practitioner's
home. We were able to expose the evil persecution - six police cars surrounding
practitioners. I hesitated then to appear publicly. So, for every local
persecution incident that needed verification, it was all Zengzeng's doing who
helped confirm and publish these on the Internet. When I was by myself at home, after practicing the exercises in the morning I
take full advantage of the time to study the Fa. Sometimes I could read three
chapters in a day. It was easy to live by myself. I cooked some food that could
easily last for two days. Around 1:00 p.m. I would turn on the computer to edit
persecution articles and withdrawals from the CCP. Sometimes I would work until
midnight without feeling tired or sleepy. I also exposed practitioner Zengzeng's
arrest at the hands of the evildoers and that he was forced to be a fake
"spy." After he returned he continued to do Dafa work and exposed
persecution incidents in the forced labor camp. 4. Nothing Could Interfere with My Mindset of Cultivating Dafa Food ran out. I went home and found my mother was very sick. I sent forth
righteous thought to eliminate the factors that were persecuting her. I also
asked my mother to send forth righteous thoughts and read Master's lectures to
her. My mother was able to walk and practice the exercises with us. My brother
and sister didn't want me to leave and said when mother is well they will start
practicing Dafa as well. But fellow practitioners were waiting for me to print
Dafa materials and the Minghui Weekly. I left home. On that Saturday when Zengzeng came back he told me, "Your mother passed
away." It was so shocked that I couldn't study the Fa anymore. It affected
me when sending forth righteous thoughts. I couldn't calm down for several days.
Even when I went out of town, I still wasn't able to get back to normal. I
realized that the old forces were trying to destroy my firm belief in Dafa,
using my emotional attachment to my mother. They are trying to interfere with my
mind so I won't be able to completely devote myself to do Dafa work. The evil
wasn't able to change my belief in Dafa when they locked me in the forced labor
camp or the brainwashing center. Now they want to destroy me, using my
preoccupation with emotion. Through continuous Fa study I became clear-minded: I'm Master's disciple. I
came here to assist Master with Fa-rectification and rescuing sentient beings. I
firmly believe in Master, and believe that Master will arrange everything well
for me. Nothing in this human world could interfere with my firm belief in Dafa.
When I let go of my attachment to emotion I don't feel bothered any more. I am
completely devoting everything to doing Dafa work and rescuing sentient beings. (To Be Continued)
The persecution began July 20, 1999. I understand the value of Dafa and persist
in cultivation. I was arrested and detained several times for practicing Falun
Dafa. On August 8, 2000, local police sent me to a forced labor camp to torture
me. They had hung me up on trees, window frames and bed frames. They slapped me,
beat me, kicked me, and shocked me with electric batons. They made me stand
under the summer sun, and outside in winter. They tried to brainwash me and
force me to give up cultivation. I suffered all kinds of torture.
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