(Clearwisdom.net) I began practicing Falun Dafa in 1997. Recalling my cultivation journey, I am ashamed to face Master and my fellow practitioners. I used to be a factory director and main manager of a company, and the Communist Party's working style had thoroughly contaminated me. In 2005, I arranged several Fa conferences and from several dozen to a hundred practitioners attended. Whenever I saw new practitioners, my attachments to doing things, zealotry and the mentality of showing off all came out. Unknowingly doing things for the sake of appearance was the main reason that I did not study the "Fa" well and did not elevate on the basis of the Fa. The evil forces took advantage of my loophole and I was taken to a detention center this time last year. This was a major divergence from my cultivation, from Dafa, and from my fellow practitioners.

I made up my mind to study the Fa well, but sometimes I just could not settle down. I attended two Fa study groups. After Master's recent teaching "To the Australian Fa Conference" came out, I began to learn it by heart. I got stuck henever I studied the words:

"Don't just go through the motions when you study the Fa. You should study with a concentrated mind, and you must really be studying."

I suddenly realized that I was just going through the motions when I studied the Fa, that I was not really paying attention, and my main consciousness would wander off when I sent forth righteous thoughts. When I found this attachment, Master helped me to remove it. Now I can settle down when I study the Fa or send forth righteous thoughts. I am able to speed up when I memorize the Fa.