By practitioner in mainland China

(Clearwisdom.net) I am from mainland China. I am deaf and have a speech problem. In 1997, when I saw Teacher's photo at my relative's house, I felt somehow excited and had a familiar feeling. I then asked for the photo of respectful Teacher and the book Zhuan Falun.

Every time I finished reading Zhuan Falun, my thoughts were purified and my xinxing improved. The more I read, the more I felt its profoundness. From 1997 to 1999, I experienced many tribulations and tests (I was an introverted young man, and knew very few fellow practitioners)

Since the persecution began on July 20^th, 1999, Teacher and Dafa have been attacked and slandered. Practitioners have been arrested and tortured. I felt lonely and helpless, but in my heart, I truly believed in Teacher and Dafa and knew that Dafa was wrongly accused. I never believed the propaganda, but I did not know how to walk my path during the persecution. The environment to study the Fa and practice the exercises was no longer there. I had not studied the Fa or practiced the exercises for half a month. One night I dreamed that compassionate Teacher watched me in cross-legged position and then left with a smile on his face. I cried out loud and knelt down to beg Teacher not to leave me. I did not give too much thought to it after I woke up. I have lived like an ordinary person since then and felt very empty.

During the past six years, Teacher has been waiting for me to awaken. He has been giving me hints, reminding me and caring for me. One day in August 2005, I made up my mind. I dared not to consider myself a Dafa disciple, as I knew that I lagged behind and could only be a practitioner. My xinxing had not improved much by studying the Fa and cultivating myself at home. I then sought out other practitioners. One day in November, my mother met a practitioner and she led him to my home to clarify the truth, to convince me to withdraw from the CCP and to send forth righteous thoughts. All the messy thoughts, the loneliness and helplessness disappeared. I only felt my thoughts becoming pure and awakening, and I suddenly had a certain communication with the boundless universe.

Several days later I asked for all Teacher's articles, lectures and the issues of the Minghui Weekly published since 2000. I repeatedly read Teacher's Fa and my tears came out. I have awakened and become clear. Teacher has sacrificed so much for us. I had lagged far behind and have a long distance between me and the more diligent practitioners. I will step forward and do the three things well, overcome my human notions and demon nature and walk my path righteously, for my own sake as well as for the sake of countless sentient beings.

After reading the Minghui Weekly, I decided to write these words. I want to encourage all deaf and blind practitioners, and I want to tell them that we should not give up just because we cannot hear or have a speech problem. Believe in Teacher and Dafa and keep pace with the progress of Fa rectification!

Due to my limited language skills and level of understanding, please point out anything that is inappropriate.

Posting date: 2/10/2006
Original article date: 2/10/2006
Category: Personal Cultivation
Chinese version available at http://minghui.ca/mh/articles/2006/1/1/117698.html

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