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Some Understandings on How to Get Rid of the Attachment of Fear
By a Dafa Disciple from Mainland China
(Clearwisdom.net) Although I have practiced Dafa for quite a long time, I
was not able to find my fundamental attachment until recently. After reading
many fellow practitioners' articles in "Minghui Weekly," I finally
realized that my fundamental attachment was the attachment to myself, that is,
selfishness. Selfishness is the fundamental nature of the old cosmos and it is
the attachment that we need to get rid of during our cultivation. Selfishness
creates all kinds of attachments, addictions and notions. The attachment of fear is a manifestation of selfishness, such as fear of
being persecuted and fear of not being understood by ordinary people. Many
times, the attachment of fear was hidden. For example, when clarifying the
truth, I only talked to people. I was afraid to give them Falun Gong materials.
I thought that by doing so, I would not leave any evidence or proof. This kind
of notion hides a lot of bad things. Fear of leaving evidence actually
acknowledges the old forces' arrangements, and acknowledges that the old forces
can persecute us. It is also a manifestation of not studying the Fa well, and a
reflection of a lack of righteous thoughts. Certainly, the safety issue is also
very important. We should not have any safety omissions. With strong righteous
thoughts and without any omissions, safety should not be a problem. If we really
cultivated into divine beings, would they have any problems with safety in the
human world? After studying the Fa and exchanging cultivation experiences with fellow
practitioners, I finally realized the significance of our responsibilities in
saving sentient beings. I should do it and I must do it. I wanted to save as
many people as possible, as soon as possible. I saw some flyers and brochures
that made very good truth-clarifying material, so I began giving them to people
when I clarified the truth to them. In the beginning, I only gave the materials
to trustworthy relatives and friends. Gradually, I also gave them to other
people. This process was very natural and I did not have any fear and worry. At
last I broke through the attachment of fear. Looking back at my own experience, I realized that as long as I study the Fa
more and study the Fa well, I will remember my responsibility and mission. When
I see the people suffering and kind thoughts of saving them come into my mind, I
can naturally clarify the truth to them, give them the truth-clarifying
materials and persuade them to withdraw from the CCP. There was another aspect of my cultivation that I often wondered about. When
people higher up in the company came to our office to inspect our work, someone
reported to them that I practice Falun Gong. I also heard a few people saying
that I was very selfish. At that time, my human notions emerged. I could not
quiet my mind. Why I was selfish? I usually use my own money to cover some of
the work expenses. I often contribute my personal belongings to the office. I
use the standard of a Dafa disciple to be strict with myself. Why was I seen as
being selfish? However, when I calmed down and examined myself based on the Fa, I realized
that it was not simply that I was selfish. It was another, more serious problem. What was it? Due to my attachment of fear, I only clarified the truth to
people I trusted, such as relatives and friends. But for people who had not
heard the truth, their awakened sides were really eager to know. Of course they
thought I was selfish. Divine beings would also think I was selfish. The consequence of this was that I was reported to the authorities because I
was afraid of been reported. When I truly realized that I needed to clarify the
truth to more people and should not divide them into friends and strangers, I
started to put my thoughts into action. I needed to do so wisely without
pursuing quick results. Later, when the authorities returned to inspect our workplace a few more
times, no one reported me anymore. I know that Master always helps me and
protects me. As long as I have righteous thoughts and righteous actions, I will
not be in any real danger. I know that I still have many attachments. I still stumble in my cultivation.
However, my righteous belief in Master and Dafa will never change. We will all
do the three things better and better. January 25, 2006 |