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Older Practitioner Shares Experiences Making Truth Clarifying Materials
By Ru Yuan (Clearwisdom.net) At over sixty years old, I alone protected the only
Internet connection place in my area for two years. Sometimes, I was too busy to
have a meal and I volunteered to act as a coordinator. In the meantime, I have
to take care of my families. It is not easy to do no matter what time and energy
I have. How can I do this? I can study the Fa with a calm mind, no matter how
busy I am. After July 20, 1999, there was no location in our area for making truth
clarifying materials. The materials we had were sent from other districts. Three
practitioners were illegally arrested in 2001 and two were sent to a forced
labor camp. I was illegally arrested and held in the local detention center for
four months. I continued to clarify the truth after I was released. Sometimes,
we couldn't receive Teacher's new articles in my district. I would handwrite
copies of any I received. Later, I met a practitioner whose truth clarifying
materials production center was only 100 kilometers away. Over 200 practitioners
in our district could then receive Teacher's new articles and truth clarifying
materials in a timely manner. I was forced to live a homeless life in July 2002, because the police said
they had to find me, no matter how difficult. I wrote a letter to clarify the
truth to the local justice about stopping the persecution of Falun Gong
practitioners, while I was in another district. Then they started to harass my
family. I found out that local practitioners went to a lot of trouble to
transfer Teacher's new articles and truth clarifying materials. I shared my
opinion about establishing our own truth clarifying materials center. Nobody
wanted to do it after a practitioner I knew was tortured to death for making
truth clarifying materials. I realized how hard it is to establish a truth
clarifying materials production site. We selfishly waited for materials made by
other practitioners. We put so much pressure on other practitioners. We are all Dafa practitioners. Why don't we establish our own local truth
clarifying materials location to solve the problem? I decided to go back to my
district and volunteer to provide the truth clarifying materials locally. I
mainly started doing screen prints and gradually took on responsibilities. Some
practitioners did not know or understand me for a time. They were afraid to
contact me. The local police said they couldn't relax until they arrested me. I
really felt bitter about the situation. I understood through my Fa study that I
should not give up the Fa, no matter how difficult the situation or where I am.
I have studied the Fa every day. I can persist today only because I strongly
believe in Teacher and the Fa. My son sold his house and moved to my rented home for a temporary stay. He
usually opposes my study of the Fa. I said to my daughter-in-law, "Now I
make truth clarifying materials. If you agree, you can move here. If you are
afraid, please don't move here. Anyway, don't speak against it or I will go
outside to do it." Finally, she said, "I have nothing to fear." My righteous thoughts were centered on doing the three things
well, so everything went well. When the truth clarifying materials location was
resolved, how to get Teacher's new articles and "Minghui Weekly"
became a problem. I took a taxi to another district that night when I heard a
new article from Teacher was out. It was already midnight when I returned. My
son, a non-practitioner, said we should buy a computer to print it, and then you
wouldn't need to go to another place. It is so much trouble. My son went to the
market to price a computer, but it was more than we could afford. I thought,
Teacher, it would be better if I had a computer. Finally, I got a computer from another practitioner, but how to use it? I
thought, I 'm over sixty years old, and I haven't used a mouse or operated a
computer at all. I said to Teacher in my heart that I can learn it. Please help
me. Later, two practitioners around thirty years old patiently taught me how to
use the computer. They were very responsible and started sending email to me
that I could download. My typing speed was so slow that they installed notepad,
so I could send three renouncement and solemn declarations directly to the
website. I don't need to trouble other practitioners. Now I can make copies of
the "Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party" and Dafa
books. Other practitioners supported me as well. I have already used several
printers and I can repair some printer problems. I consider how everything is based on the Fa. I clarified the truth to my
families, so they don't oppose me making truth-clarifying materials. Moreover,
many of them renounced the Communist Party. I greeted everyone with a toast this
New Year. I said, "Let us say Falun Dafa is good!" Together, eight
family members said, "Falun Dafa is great! Truthfulness, Compassion,
Forbearance is great! There was interference when I made materials. For example, I had been using
the Internet less than one month and I had doubts. A loophole of a practitioner
illegally arrested could cause great loss. I then took the machine away. I went
back to the district where I had lived a homeless life. The practitioners there
were studying Teacher's words in the article "Path," "Cultivation is hard. It's hard in that even when a terrible calamity
strikes, even when evil madly persecutes, and even when your life is at stake,
you still have to be able to steadfastly continue on your path of cultivation
without letting anything in human society interfere with the steps you take on
your path of cultivation." ("Path" from Essentials for
Further Advancement II) I decided to go back and do what I should be doing. Another time, my son
phoned to tell me that the police were warning me to be careful. When I learned
the sixth lecture of Zhuan Falun, Teacher's words alerted me, "In qigong practice, those of you whose qi cannot go through a pass or
come down should look for reasons within your xinxing to determine if you are
stuck at that level for too long and whether you should upgrade your xinxing!
Once you truly upgrade your xinxing, you will find that qi coming down. You
cannot only pursue transformation of gong in the physical body without
emphasizing improvement of your xinxing. It is waiting for you to upgrade your
xinxing--only then will you make a holistic change. If qi is indeed blocked,
it still will not cause any trouble. It is usually our own psychological
factors at play. Besides, one will be scared upon learning from a phony qigong
master that when qi moves to the top of the head, one will go awry. With this
fear, it may indeed bring this person some trouble. Once you are scared, it is
an attachment of fear. Isn't that an attachment? Once your attachment
surfaces, shouldn't it be removed? The more you fear it, the sicker you will
look. This attachment of yours must be removed. You will be made to learn from
this lesson so that your fear can be removed, and you can advance." In Zhuan Falun our Teacher also said that "matter and mind are
one thing." I felt relaxed. All the uncomfortable factors vanished. All the
evil factors were thoroughly eradicated and the materials place has been
safeguarded. It has been a stable long-term operation. Several days ago, the article about sharing on the Minghui website prompted
me to recite the Fa. In my old age, my memory seems not as good as the younger
practitioners, however, I think this is a concept which a practitioner should
break. Even if I cannot recite too much in one day, I can memorize more
gradually. In this way, I try my best to learn more, no matter if I take the bus
or walk the road. I put myself in the Fa. No matter how difficult the reality
is, nothing can block me as long as I learn and recite Fa. The more I learn the
Fa, the greater I realize the Fa and Teacher to be. Teacher helps us and we just
follow Teacher's requirements during the time of Fa rectification. That's all. Our practitioners, especially the older ones, let's clarify the truth
together. Don't consider age or educational background. If we want to do it, we
can do it very well. My understanding is limited. If there is some inappropriate point, please
question it. April 2, 2006 |