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Look Inward When Encountering Conflicts, Let Righteous Thoughts Play a Leading Role
By a Falun Dafa practitioner from Hunan Province, China (Clearwisdom.net) When I logged off from the Internet and stood up to
prepare for sending forth righteous thoughts at midnight, I clearly saw a shiny
little flash of light that darted in front of my eyes. Subconsciously, I waved
my hand to drive it away and thought to myself, "Don't interfere with me. I
am a Fa-rectification period Dafa disciple. No one is able to interfere with me
and whoever does this will be guilty." The same thing happened another
evening. I then sent forth righteous thoughts in order to eliminate it right
away. "Did I have any xinxing problems?" I thought to
myself. Where was the problem and where was the loophole that had been taken
advantage of by the evil forces? The old forces wanted to stop me from validating the Fa. If my righteous
thoughts are strong, then I would leave no loophole for them to take advantage
of and they would be helpless. When checking my xinxing, I realized that I had
not looked inward for quite a long time. Where was my fundamental attachment of
"selfishness" hiding? What was the first notion that stopped me from
digging deep into the root of my thoughts? The conflicts I encountered were not
at all accidental. When conflicts came, I would still stick to my human notions,
so my xinxing could not be upgraded and I missed the opportunities of looking
inward in order to improve my xinxing. When I studied the Fa, distracting
thoughts interfered with me. However, instead of setting a higher standard for
myself, I used Teacher's Fa in order to make excuses. When encountering
conflicts, I failed to unconditionally look inward. I never paid attention to
the cultivation of my xinxing when coordinating activities as one body.
Sometimes, although I did not say it out loud, but I would say in my heart,
"How come this guy acts like this?" In particular, I could not
understand those fellow practitioners who would keep truth-clarification
materials at hand. Therefore, I always complained about it. I would accuse the
fellow practitioners of not working well together and when speaking to them I
would sound overly agitated and my tone was not compassionate. Actually, I
reacted to things with human notions. I often saw others' problems, but I failed
to enlighten to it. As a result, I repeatedly missed opportunities to improve
myself. I did not cherish the opportunities for cultivation. The high-level beings of the old forces closely watched every action and
thought of mine and used my loopholes. Our merciful Teacher gave me hints. One
day when I was doing the sitting meditation, the Chinese character "Yan"
(strict) appeared in my mind and it was very clear. I asked myself what was my
purpose for coming to this human world. Since I am here for cultivation, then
why do I always watch others? When encountering conflicts, I still failed to
maintain my xinxing and failed to honestly look within myself. Instead. I always
looked at other people's shortcomings and looked at right and wrong with a human
heart. After reading Teacher's lecture "Teaching the Fa in Philadelphia in
2002," I asked myself whether all of my thoughts and actions were on the Fa.
Did I truly set a higher standard for myself from the Fa. When I am not within
the Fa, even looking inward would still not reach the standards and requirements
of the Fa. Teacher said, "We are absolutely not some sort of ordinary people's political
organization, nor is it some kind of ordinary people's club formed for fun.
What we are doing here is cultivation, and this is a process whereby
lives are fundamentally transformed into high-level beings. What I am saying
is, those in the audience here are all lives who are on their way to
divinity." (Teaching the Fa in the City of Los Angeles, February 2006) Cultivation is very serious, and there is no back door. One must cultivate in
a solid manner in accordance with the Fa and set higher standards for oneself.
We should not compare ourselves to regular human beings and with our past, but
measure ourselves with the requirements of the Fa for different levels and truly
cultivate. During the two conferences of the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), the
610 Office phoned my home to interfere with my family members. They
threatened to come and search my home. They also threatened my family members
and created an intimidating atmosphere in an attempt to interfere with the Dafa
projects I was doing. When my family told me about it, I was really a bit
nervous, and even had bad thoughts and wanted to avoid it. However, I quickly
rectified myself. All these years I had walked the journey to this day and had
never avoided anything. Today, why should I be afraid when the evil beings are
getting fewer and fewer in number? Wasn't I scaring myself? Wasn't this a human
notion? Hadn't I let merciful Teacher down? When my righteous thoughts came
forth, I decided to go and talk to the 610 officials. I reminded myself to be
reasonable and clearheaded and not to be afraid. At that time, had I been even a
little bit scared, I would have provided the evil forces with a space to live. I
stood in front of Teacher's portrait, did the Heshi gesture (pressing both hands
together in front of the chest) and said, "Teacher, I came down here with
you in order to save sentient beings, therefore, the evil forces have no right
whatsoever to interfere with me." I asked Teacher to help me. At the same
time, I also recited Teacher's poem "What Is There to Fear" (Hong
yin II). After reciting the poem dozens of times, I finally calmed down. As a matter of fact, Teacher managed everything in an orderly manner. The
following day I ran into the head of the 610 Office at the food market. While
walking toward him, I sent forth righteous thoughts in order to eliminate the
evil Communist spirit and the evil forces that controlled him. When I confronted
him, I looked him straight in the eye and remained very calm. I said, "I
was about to come and see you. Weren't you looking for me?" He did not dare
to look at me and tried to change the subject. I said to him, "Since 1999,
haven't you done enough in persecuting Falun Gong practitioners? You arrested
people at their workplaces or ransacked their houses arbitrarily. As of now, you
still owe me an explanation. You confiscated practitioners' money but you never
gave them a receipt. Who told you to do this? Tell me what is the matter with
you?" He did not dare to look at me, not even a glance. Before he left in a
hurry, he said things would be fine now that the National People's Congress had
come to an end. Cultivation is a very serious matter. The method the old forces used in order
to block the Fa-rectification was to create partitions. When I looked within, I
realized that I had not done something well in my cultivation. In particular, I
failed to pay attention when thinking and did not completely negate the old
forces. For example, when I was doing Dafa work, I had thought flashes showing
me a scene where policemen were knocking on a door. When I was on the Internet,
I would feel a little bit uneasy and when I saw a police car, I would always
take a few more glances. These were all reasons for the old forces to take
advantage. One day the police called me three times and harassed me. They said
that they wanted to check and close my Internet connection. I hastily sent an
appeal to the Minghui website, but they did not publish it. As a Dafa
practitioner, I should be able to eliminate this and never let them come into my
house. During the process, I needed to constantly eliminate the old forces and
adjust the state of my mind, remember Teacher's Fa and let go of fears at
different levels. What we are doing is the most righteous thing in the universe,
so we must do it nobly, righteously and in an aboveboard fashion. Therefore,
what was I afraid of? As long as my thoughts were righteous and under the
compassionate care of Teacher, when I encountered dangers I would be able to
emerge unscathed. Teacher is looking after me and protecting me all the time, and has given me
all he can. In March 2002, when I was copying articles from the Minghui
websites, Teacher showed me two Chinese characters "Chongqing." (note:
Chongqing is the name of a city). This encouraged me to walk righteously the
remaining part of my journey. This was because in 2001, I did something wrong,
which I felt very sad about. Looking inward I found that I had agreed to the
persecution by the old forces, thinking that it was unavoidable for
practitioners to be imprisoned. Because of this thought, the evil beings
constantly harassed me and arrested me in my office. At that time my righteous
thoughts were not strong and I did not stop their persecution. I remembered when the evildoers came to my office and took away my money. I
thought that money was an external thing after all, so I only thought about the
money as being my salary. I failed to stop them on the basis of Fa-rectification.
They split my money amongst themselves and looked at it as a bonus, and did not
give me a receipt. This not only brought harm to them but also gave me
unnecessary trouble in my daily life. On January 4, 2002, with the arrangement of Teacher I went back to my
workplace. After my return, I continued to study the Fa. I knew that I would not
acknowledge the persecution any longer. Since our Teacher has not acknowledged
it, nor would I as his disciple. I would also not acknowledge the forced labor
and other forms of persecution. Therefore, I went to the Political and Judiciary
Committee and our local procuratorate in order to file a lawsuit against the
policemen, as well as to clarify the truth to the government institutions and
various departments of my workplace. I requested to annul the decision to send
me to two years in a forced labor camp and to return the money that belonged to
me. During the process of clarifying the truth, I exposed the criminals and the
crimes they committed, and at the same time rectified myself through constant Fa
study. This way, my cultivation environment continued to improve. The issues of
salary and work were solved. When I wanted to have a computer, my son brought
one to me. Having this computer and being able to browse the Minghui website was
also a process of cultivation for me. It was a process of negating the old
forces and walking along the path arranged by Teacher. I have learned to use the
Chinese input, printing, publishing solemn declarations for fellow
practitioners, help everyday people to quit the Communist Party and its
associated organizations and write articles in order to expose the persecution.
Teacher gave me the wisdom, strength and courage, which made it possible for me
to be where I am today. Teacher says, "Dafa is the Fa of the cosmos, and Dafa has created all beings in the
cosmos. Dafa has established living environments and standards for the beings
at different levels of the cosmos, and it has created for the beings at
different levels different forms of wisdom, including the culture of
humankind. The purpose of spreading Dafa far and wide is to rectify the Fa in
the cosmos, and, at the same time, to have Dafa's disciples in the human world
reach Consummation. Dafa is also creating a new humankind, and will likewise
bring to humankind a new culture." ("Using at Will" from Essentials
for Further Advancement II) I am a being created by Dafa, so my life should be used to validate the Fa,
and not to seek a cozy lifestyle. I am grateful to Teacher and fellow practitioners at the Minghui website for
giving me such a good environment to validate the Fa in. Now I have an
independent family network which is also connected with the one body and I am
doing what I am responsible for. I still have room for improvement and I am far
away from the requirements of the Fa. The process of the Fa-rectification is
getting faster and faster. We must have a clear understanding and do away with
all the arrangements by the old forces. The new situation of the Fa-rectification
has set new requirements for the practitioners. As a practitioner, how can we
coordinate and cooperate well? I enlightened to the fact that we have more
responsibilities now. The practitioners in mainland China should cooperate with
the "Coalition to Investigate the Persecution of Falun Gong" so that
they can do a good job in collecting evidence. To ensure positive results, we
must have strong righteous thoughts and eliminate all the interference. Every
practitioner has a responsibility to negate the arrangements of the old forces
and walk the last part of the journey righteously. This requires the
coordination of all of us as one body in order to expose more facts of the
persecution and to save even more sentient beings. May 22, 2006
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