(Clearwisdom.net) Several days ago, as soon as I walked outside, I was stopped by the police who had been waiting there. I unhurriedly sent forth righteous thoughts and clarified the truth to the police officer. When we arrived at the police station, I started to talk about withdrawing from the Communist Party and its related organizations. I believe that this incident wasn't a coincidence since we have never clarified the truth to the local police station before. Since I was already at the police station, I should clarify the truth because Master said, "Wherever there's a problem, that is where you need to clarify the truth and save people." (Teaching the Fa at the Washington, D.C. Fa Conference, July 22, 2002) Shortly after, they sent me temporarily to a brainwashing class. I felt that evil forces from other dimensions wanted to persecute me severely (on the surface, it looked like a pretty big deal). I know that any arrangement by anyone else shouldn't be followed and that Master's arrangements are the only ones that count. I would only listen to Master and whether or not I have gaps in my cultivation, it should be corrected within the Fa, and the old forces do not have the right to test me.

Firstly, I looked inward to see if I had any problems in cultivation and realized that I had not been studying the Fa well recently and was attached to time. I always felt that, since the number of people who withdrew from the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) had passed 10 million, the evil party wouldn't last long, and therefore, saving money was not necessary anymore, so instead of using it in the future, I'd better spend it on things right now, because when the former Soviet Union disintegrated, inflation was a big problem. As a result, I spent all the money I had and I did not have a job. I was running out of options, and in order to make some money, I went to a city hundreds of miles away to make money. I made quite a bit, but I had deviated further and further from the Fa. The work was tiring, so when I went home, I could only study the Fa for short period of time and briefly send righteous thoughts. Occasionally, I clarified the truth a little. I asked myself: what was my purpose coming to this world? For money? If it was for money, there was no need for me to be like this. Before, I had very good living conditions. Since I came to this world for the Fa, I need to place the Fa at top priority and at the most important place because Fa is the root of all life. I should not distance myself from the Fa at any time. My fundamental problem was that I did not have a firm belief in the Fa, and I did not put the Fa at the first place; rather, I put my human life at the first place. The fundamental characteristic of the old universe was self-centered: If there are good conditions, I could clarify the truth very well, but if the conditions are not desirable, then I would slow down and wait. At this golden time of salvation, I put myself first.

The evil is becoming less and less, and as a veteran practitioner, I was caught off guard by the evil, which is really a shame. My state, to a certain degree, had a negative impact on Dafa, fellow practitioners, and relatives. I felt I let our merciful and great Master down. So since I understood, I should do better and overcome any old forces' arrangements. All of a sudden, I found there was no more of myself; I repe atedly recited the Fa (Master's scripture) and sent forth righteous thoughts. At the same time, I also repeatedly clarified the truth to anyone I encountered and persuaded people to withdraw from the CCP. As a result, three people quit the Communist Youth League or Communist Young Pioneers.

When our righteous field became stronger ( many fellow practitioners helped with righteous thoughts, and I was also able to contact them at any time), my understanding of the Fa was more and more clear as well. Before this, I had a wrong understanding about hunger strike. I thought a hunger strike would weaken my body, and therefore, the police would release me thereafter. So every time I was on a hunger strike, it was extremely excruciating. Through this, I thought I was able to go home but I always wound up injured and the evils' persecution was still a factor that was not cleared entirely. I was always in an anti-persecution mode with my cultivation. However, now I've cleared out the root of this evil. I do not acknowledge any of this persecution. I am Master's disciple, and whoever touches me is committing a sin for which they will never be able to repay. My body is under my control. My hunger strike is for countering the illegal detention, not for damaging my body. I lock all the cells of my body, and disallow any damage.

A hunger strike is usually countered with force feeding. I was kind of used to the forced feeding and never thought anything of it, but Master gave me a hint using another person's words: forced feeding is torture. Every incident is a chance to clarify the truth, and I do not let any of these chances pass by. As a result, they (police) wanted to force feed for days, but never did so.

My thoughts were more and more clear, and the surrounding environment was also getting better and better. One day, in the morning, my mind constantly repeated Master's words: "As You Get Rid of Human Mentality, Evil Naturally Disappears." (Hong Yin II, provisional translation) And in a short moment, they told me that I could leave in the afternoon.

When I got home, my family realized that although I did not eat or drink for days, not only was nothing wrong with me, but also I was looking prettier then before, which was a great testimony of the wonderfulness of Dafa. Fellow practitioners were also a bit surprised that I was home so quickly. I also corrected my behavior within the Fa. From this incident, I have understood that cultivation is a very serious thing. My little attachment made me fall, and the lesson is profound. I hope my experience will serve as a warning to fellow practitioners.

06-15-2006