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My Limited Understanding of Righteous Thoughts and Righteous Faith
Greetings esteemed Teacher! Greetings fellow practitioners! I'm honored to share my limited understanding of righteous
thoughts and righteous faith with you, and my cultivation experiences when faced
with demonic tribulations. In July 2004, I coordinated the very first
"Uncompromising Spirit" art exhibit in Washington, D.C. Because it was
the beginning of the worldwide art exhibit, everything had to be developed from
scratch. We had to name each painting, arrange the display most aesthetically
and develop effective advertisement and introductory materials. One evening I felt that I finally had come up with a workable
plan. I thought I'd sleep over it and put it down on paper the next morning.
However, I woke up with stomach cramps at about 2:00 a.m. It was quite
uncomfortable, but I decided to ignore it and sleep some more. However, it
became worse. I felt as if a ton of stones were stuffed in my chest. I sat up to
send forth righteous thoughts. Yet I was very clear-minded. I knew that demons from other
dimensions were interfering. They tried to stop the art exhibit. I remembered a
story I heard two days earlier about a fellow practitioner's mother in China. To
flee from the building where she was imprisoned, she jumped out of the window
and injured her pelvis. She thought, "I refuse to acknowledge the injury on
my left pelvis because it is forced upon me by the evil. The injury on my right
pelvis may result from my own karma. I must endure it." As it turned out,
her left pelvis healed completely, while her right pelvis remained injured. At that time, I asked Teacher to reinforce my righteous
thoughts. I also refused to acknowledge the evil persecution against me. I woke
up my husband who is also a Falun Gong practitioner, and asked him to send forth
righteous thoughts for me. However, he told me it was my body adjusting and I
should endure it, instead of eliminating it. His words made me feel even worse.
I no longer had the strength and time to argue with him. I stood up and tried to
practice the exercises. Suddenly my entire body was hit by excruciating pain. I
couldn't even stand up straight. I had labored breathing and my body was bathed
in sweat. Stiffness of my body and intense pain grew stronger by the second. I
was certain that a powerful force from other dimensions was trying to kill me. While I continued to deny the evil's persecution, I struggled
to get downstairs to the room where we had placed a giant-size photo of Teacher.
Then, I called a veteran practitioner who had cultivated diligently. I asked him
and his wife to send forth righteous thoughts for me. At the moment when I had
asked for help, I felt as if half of the stones had lifted off my body. While
sitting before Teacher's photo, I felt that the entire weight had been lifted
off me. Sitting in front of Teacher's photo, I felt enveloped in a wonderful
energy field. It happened so quickly and ended so miraculously. I stayed in that
room until morning. I no longer experienced the symptoms and the art exhibit
ended with success. The situation was like what Master said in Hong Yin II:
"When disciples have ample righteous thoughts, Master has the power to turn
back the tide" ("The Master-Disciple Bond", provisional
translation subject to improvement) Even the most powerful demon is powerless in front of
Teacher. This experience taught me a valuable lesson. We must support
fellow practitioners suffering from demonic tribulations. We must give genuine
righteous support and help them eliminate demonic interferences. We must not
pass judgment, because it will only worsen their tribulations. I helped and coordinated one major Dafa project last year.
After the project finished, I felt as if drained of all physical and mental
energy. At work, I stared blankly at my computer. Then, one day I received an
email accusing me. My heart was moved and felt being wronged and unfair. At that
moment, I felt many bad things were pushed down from other dimensions. Then I
immediately began to sneeze. The next day, I experienced bad flu symptoms. My
entire body was in pain. I was unable to leave my bed. It was as if I was
discharging a lot of karma. It was as if the old forces were testing my will and
faith. I sent forth righteous thoughts and listened to Teacher's Fa lectures,
but I did not get better. I thought, "I shall never acknowledge the evil's
persecution" At my worst moment, I was ready to take medicine. But, I
immediately remembered that medicine has no power over karma. Besides, my body
has been cleansed. I must not use medicine to pollute my body. The third
evening, a practitioner called and heard my husky voice. She told me that lately
many practitioners had been suffering the same symptoms. She suggested that it
was the evil specter of the CCP attacking me. She suggested that I target it
when I sent forth righteous thoughts. I immediately followed her advice. The
next morning, I felt better. I got out off bed. That evening my voice returned
and I attended the TV interview. In several months after this project, I felt physically and
mentally exhausted. In the past I could drive to and from New York City the same
day. Now, I couldn't even drive one-way by myself. I felt partitions between
practitioners increasing. I felt the evil specter in other dimensions were very
powerful and created a lot of tribulations. My physical strength was affected. I
got speeding tickets. It was very hard to proceed with the Dafa work. I felt as
though I was under the evils' spell. The demons in other dimension used our
attachments to drive a wedge between practitioners. They stopped us from forming
the powerful one-body. At that time, besides intensifying studying the Fa, doing
the exercises and sending righteous thoughts for adjusting myself, I felt I had
nothing to deal with them. A fellow practitioner told me that I didn't have enough faith
in Teacher and overestimated the evil. She told me that the evils are completely
powerless in front of Teacher. I searched within and realized that I felt
unfairly treated and I grieved because I wanted to protect myself from harm. I
was worried about my reputation. Now, I understood why the evils could exploit
me. Teacher said, "Amidst the complex environment of everyday people and
its interpersonal xinxing frictions, you are able to rise above and beyond¡V¡Vthis
is the most difficult thing. It is hard in that you knowingly lose your vested
interests among everyday people. Amidst your critical self-interests, are you
moved? Amidst interpersonal mindgames, are you moved? When your friends or
family suffer, are you moved? How do you weigh them? This is how difficult it
is to be a practitioner!" ("Whoever Practices Cultivation Will
Attain Gong" in Lecture Eight of Zhuan Falun) As a matter of fact, I checked inwards while I felt the
negative thoughts from some practitioners, I found myself also holding negative
thoughts towards them. I did not go beyond the level of Inter-generation and
Inter- Inhibition. Later, I heard the other practitioners also suffered a lot. I
felt sad about this. Back then, if I could think more from the others' point of
view, if I had more tolerance, if I could endure more while being wronged, if we
could share more understandings on the Fa, if I dealt with the problems with a
cultivator's mentality, instead of a working mentality, there would not a
loophole for the evil to take advantage of. What happened is because my
cultivation state did not catch up with the Fa-rectification's requirement. In retrospect, I felt that I behaved when faced with demonic
tribulation exactly as Teacher said in "A Dialogue with Time": "[...] they always compare themselves with humans and
with their own past, but fail to examine themselves with the requirements of
the Fa at different levels." Often, I avoided conflicts because I didn't want to be
responsible for a rift between practitioners. I would feel bad about it.
Therefore, I deferred to practitioners, forgot about their actions and tried to
avoid conflicts at all cost. I also did Dafa work like an ordinary person,
limiting my understanding on the superficial levels of things and arguing if
they were correct or not. I did not take every opportunity to cultivate solidly
like a genuine cultivator. I failed to look within and find where I was not
within the Fa. I failed to follow the Fa and upgrade my cultivation level. I
have missed many opportunities to cultivate myself. That project presented many opportunities and a great
cultivation environment. Different people may have the different feeling towards
the same thing. This created a cultivation environment to target our attachments
for us to upgrade our cultivation levels. If only we could see past the
superficial right and wrong, we would be able to see our own inadequacies and
the Fa's requirements. Teacher has pointed out some of our collective problems in
cultivation practice in recent Fa lectures. The Fa-rectification has very high
expectations for all of us. We must fulfill all responsibilities, do every Dafa
project well and complete our mission. We must respond to conflicts and
difficulties like cultivators and cultivate ourselves well. Many of the problems
we encounter are caused by practitioners who have not caught up with the
progress of the Fa-rectification. It is Teacher's compassion why we have the
honor of participating in Dafa projects to save sentient beings in his Fa-rectification.
The Fa gave us our abilities to fulfill such an important mission. Teacher gave
us these abilities for us to upgrade our cultivation levels while applying these
abilities. This April Hu Jintao visited Washington, D.C. In the week
after his visit, I experienced symptoms similar to hay fever. I sneezed
repeatedly and had itchy eyes every morning. I immediately spent more time on
studying the Fa, practicing the exercises and sending forth righteous thoughts.
A week later, the symptoms disappeared. I heard that other practitioners
experienced the same symptoms. We believed that they were caused by evil
elements from other dimensions. When top CCP leaders travel overseas, they bring
with them many evil elements in other dimensions. When we sent forth righteous
thoughts, we could eliminate these evil spirits. A practitioner in Washington, D.C. told me his experience of
sending forth righteous thoughts near the head evil of the CCP in Malta in July
2001. At that time Malta police asked everyone to move back repeatedly. Instead
of fighting for a few meters of distance closer to the head evil, they
cooperated with the police. There were only six Falun Gong practitioners. They
put the banners on the ground, sat down and sent forth righteous thoughts.
Together they emitted a powerful energy field that affected the public around
them. When the head evil was passing by, these people raised the banners for
them. Dafa practitioners' powerful righteous thoughts led everyday people to
eliminate the evil and clarify the truth together. It was a touching moment. Based on our past lessons and experiences, coordinators in
Washington, D.C. decided not to shout slogans this time. We would quietly sent
forth righteous thoughts so that the Chinese people hired to welcome Hu Jintao
would witness our compassion and peace and might change their opinion of Falun
Gong. If we shouted like them, we would become like them and we might all be
competitive. We would bring out their fighting nature and cause them to become
tools of the evil CCP. We wouldn't be able to save them by shouting. When I arrived at the White House, nothing took place as we
had planned. I saw our protest banners and the CCP's welcoming banners mixed
together. Both parties were shouting through the speakers on top of their lungs.
Not many Falun Gong practitioners were sending righteous thoughts. At the time I
felt I should sit down and send forth righteous thoughts, but I finally decided
to join others and shout slogans. Afterwards, we discussed the situation. We
agreed that we should have played the Nine Commentaries on the
Communist Party on the speakers and focused on sending forth righteous
thoughts. Personal cultivation practice is different from Fa-rectification
cultivation practice. In personal cultivation, we respond to everything from the
individual's point of view with a goal to upgrade our cultivation level. In Fa-rectification
cultivation practice, we must regard assisting Teacher in the Fa-rectification
and saving sentient beings as our goal. We upgrade our levels in the process of
harmonizing better with what Teacher plans. The causes of interferences and
tribulations are very complicated. Some are caused by our personal attachments.
Some are interferences from other dimensions. Some are caused by our strong
attachments of relying on the ordinary people and attachment of time, expecting
some VIPs and media to make the big change. The evil forces target individual
practitioners due to our collective loopholes. Fa-rectification is controlled by
Teacher. The present time is for practitioners to improve ourselves and to save
sentient beings. We rectify ourselves and walk straight our path while assisting
Teacher for the Fa-rectification and saving sentient being. This process is very
important since it will be the reference left for the future. Teacher points out in the article "Walk Straight Your
Path" that "Don't let the pursuit of some particular goal cause
you to ignore the meaning of a Dafa disciple's existence. In fact, making
progress in one's own cultivation is a part of the process of saving beings.
Saving beings, improving yourself, and resisting the persecution are all acts
that validate the Fa; only walking straight your path amounts to validating
the Fa." Dafa practitioners are one-body. Given the progress of the Fa-rectification,
the Dafa work has become very large in scope and has a very wide impact. We
should look beyond individual cultivation and evaluate everything from the
perspective of one-body. We should place ourselves within the one-body and
search within. We should not simply judge practitioners or incidents from
outside the one-body. We should look at our actions from within this one-body.
We need to find as to how far we are falling behind the Fa's requirements. Many
problems we are facing are testing the one-body. To solve problems, we must
build powerful righteous thoughts, transcend our self, eliminate gaps and
partitions between us, and harmonize with one another. We must attain a state
that Teacher described in Lecture Eight of Zhuan Falun: "In the end, thousands of energy channels will join
together and turn one's body into one without any energy channels or
acupuncture points; they will join together to make one whole body. This is
the ultimate purpose of opening energy channels." ("Heavenly
Circuit" in Lecture Eight of Zhuan Falun) This concludes my understanding of righteous thoughts and
righteous actions. Please, if you find anything not within the Fa, share it with
me compassionately. Thank you, Teacher. Thank you, fellow practitioners. |