(Clearwisdom.net) One day, a fellow practitioner helped me load "Pudu" onto my MP3 player. The sound quality was exceptionally good. As I was listening to the music, I felt like I was immersed in heaven, as if I had returned home. I cried for joy, but not only that. I also felt like I missed my home. I felt that my tears were tears of happiness. There are no words to describe the music; it was beautiful, solemn, and sacred. And I was deeply moved.
Just then I thought: when the Fa rectifies the human world, the music that fills the heavens and earth could be this! I would be levitating in broad daylight! All of my family members would be watching me become a Buddha! There is no doubt in my mind that I will become a Buddha and I will return home with Teacher. This thought was very strong. I suddenly realized that this thought was not the wish of a cultivator; it was a foolish delusion of a practitioner who is not diligent; and it was a wrong thought.
Wishing to become a Buddha is not wrong for a cultivator. But my thoughts were not pure; they were rather dirty. I thought no matter how I was, I am now cultivating Dafa; I am a Fa-rectification period practitioner; I have done quite a bit of Dafa work; I should be able to reach consummation. I was thinking about things that pertain to a Buddha with a human heart. I was treating Teacher and Dafa with human thoughts; it could be said that I was not respectful to Dafa and Teacher. I was treating Teacher as a human teacher; I was treating Dafa as a way of becoming a Buddha. I thought Teacher would be like a human teacher and that he would be considerate of my feelings and let me consummate just because I have done a lot Dafa work.
Teacher said,
"I do not want to see a single student fall, but I definitely don't want unqualified disciples, either." ("Drive Out Interference" from Essentials for Further Advancement II).
Cultivating Buddha Fa is such a serious matter. The dignity of the Fa exists at the same time as its compassion. Do not think that Teacher's compassion is the same as human pity. Teacher once said, "Washing away all wrong thought, Buddhahood, with less adversity, is wrought" ("Nothing Kept" from Hong Yin) I finally found this foolish thought that had been deeply hidden. This thought was not mine; it was the result of human notions. Whether one can become a Buddha is judged by the Fa. Wherever your xinxing is, that is your level. The title, "Fa-rectification period disciple," is not just words without substance. Have you done what a Fa-rectification period practitioner should do? I have strong notions of self-righteousness. I always think that I am cultivating well. This notion must be eliminated.
A person must be vigilant about every thought during cultivation. When a thought does not align with "Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance," we must calmly and rationally realize that this thought is not ours, it is a notion formed later in life. We must eliminate it. Do not think this notion is your attachment. As soon as you accept it as yours, it will hold on to you and you won't be able to eliminate it -- because if you think it is yours, you want it.
Teacher said in Zhuan Falun,
"With regard to what you want, both Falun and my fashen will not intervene -- this is for sure."
Therefore, we must fundamentally change our human thinking. Do not agree with human notions in the slightest. As soon as you follow this thinking, it will dominate your brain. As soon as you think that a notion is yours, it will control you and make it hard for you to detect it. As the Fa-rectification progresses swiftly, I believe stepping out of humanness and completely changing our human notions must be done immediately. Only when we can completely step out of the thinking of an ordinary human can we truly walk the path of Fa-rectification well.
These are my personal understandings. Please kindly point out anything inappropriate.
