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Learning from "Fa-Teaching Given to the Australian Practitioners" How to Look Within
By a practitioner in Jilin Province
(Clearwisdom.net) I studied the "Fa-Teaching Given to the Australian
Practitioners" six times. I realized that Teacher's Fa was not only meant
for Australian practitioners but for every practitioner. I looked at myself in
view of what Teacher said and found my attachments. I have lived all my life in a village and have cultivated in Falun Dafa for
ten years. My entire family of four are practitioners. We are really lucky. We
should cultivate diligently. Today, I felt I didn't do well. I hadn't really
looked inside. For example, my relationship with my son, eleven years old, was not
harmonious over the past two years. I didn't really cultivate based on the Fa
and didn't look within. I always blamed him. My son is a very nice boy. He
recited Hong Yin with me when he was a child. When he was
six, he studied the Fa and sent righteous thoughts with me. Everyone likes him.
But he changed over the past couple of years. He was very polite with others,
but rather rude when he was with me. I tried to find my problem and memorized Teacher's Fa. But, I
always blamed him for not looking within, since he was also a practitioner. He
told me that I was in the wrong as usual, even when he was very sad. Maybe I
didn't follow the principle of "Tolerance." Maybe there was a
predestined relationship between us. It felt right to me when I held such
thoughts. I still was uncertain, as he was also a practitioner and he knew the
principles taught by Falun Dafa. Then, why did he treat me like that. Sometimes
his attitude was worse that that of a non-practitioner. Since I didn't recognize
my attachment, the arguments with my son continued. One day, after coming home from school, he asked me to make instant noodles
rather than a regular dinner. I told him that dinner was ready and he should
have dinner instead. He didn't want it and cried. I accused him of not being
compassionate. I told him that I was his mother and I was really tired after a
day of work. "Teacher told you that you should treat everyone well and I am
your mother. You don't need to study the Fa starting tomorrow. You don't have
compassion and you are always angry with someone. You are not qualified to be a
practitioner. Teacher doesn't want this kind of practitioner." He told me
that he studied the Fa all the time and that I was not the one to determine if
he should practice Falun Gong or not. I broke out in tears. I was filled with
emotion that comes from sentimentality and was filled with fear. Fellow practitioners suggested that I look within, but I insisted that he was
also a practitioner. Why doesn't he look within! I felt that cultivation was
very difficult. I remembered that Teacher said that if we were facing something
good or bad, it was in reality good for a practitioner. We all need to look
within. Then I also remembered that we also can't get rid of attachments even
when we know the Fa. After I listened to the "Fa-Teaching Given to the Australian
Practitioners," I suddenly understood the true meaning of the Fa. I
understand the compassion Teacher holds for sentient beings, including fellow
practitioners, who also have conflicts with each other. Teacher told us again
that we had to look within, even if we believe we understand what he is telling
us. After watching Teacher's Fa video, my conflict with my son resolved itself.
He also had watched Teacher's Australian lecture and understood what Teacher
told us. He changed his attitude and we no longer argue. He is no longer angry
with me. I also looked within and no longer blame other practitioners for my
problems. Teacher should not worry about us too much. I shall cultivate
diligently and take care of Teacher's little student, so we can go home with
Teacher. |