(Clearwisdom.net) I will never forget November 9, 2002, the day I started practicing Falun Gong. Dafa opened my mind and answered questions that I had thought about for years. Since then, my life has been bright again.
When I was very young, I often wondered where I came from and where I would go. Reflecting on this messy world, I always believed the world was not a place where I should be. I always desired a pure and beautiful world. In my childhood, I often saw things from other dimensions that other children couldn't see. In the maze of everyday life, I gradually grew up. In the 1980s, I tried many qigong practices, but they all disappointed me. I also started practicing Buddhism, but Buddhism has been messed up by people and is no longer pure. So, I waited and waited for a miracle.
In July 2002, I was diagnosed with urinary tuberculosis and uterine cancer. I was dumbfounded. With my experience working in hospitals over the years, I clearly understood what having these diseases meant. This was not my only problem: My marriage had fallen apart, and I had been taking care of my daughter alone for years. My financial situation was really bad, too. There was no way I could afford the cost of treatment in a specialized hospital. I also couldn't leave my daughter alone. My parents were very old and in very poor health, so I didn't even dare tell them about my medical problems. I just went to a local hospital for treatments.
After receiving treatments for a few months, I only got sicker. The mental pressure and physical pain I was having to endure almost stole my courage to live. I lay in bed every day, in great pain, recalling the things of my life and fearing death. There was no one to care for my middle-school-age daughter. Crying seemed the only thing I could do. Even worse, I had spent all my savings. My heart cried with longing,"Who can save me?"
I suddenly recalled Falun Gong. I also remembered a vision I once had when I was studying Buddhism in a temple: While I was worshiping Buddha's statue, I saw Teacher (although back then, I didn't know him as Teacher). Teacher stood behind me, watching me with a smile. I heard a voice say, "Take the righteous path." Later, with these memories still in my mind, when I visited one of my customers, I saw Teacher's picture by chance. Then I realized who I had seen in the temple. It was Teacher. I saw golden light surrounding Teacher's picture and one golden beam shone onto my abdomen. I felt so comfortable and immediately did heshi to Teacher. I thought, "This Master of Falun Gong is indeed a Buddha." But because I was practicing in a temple then, I didn't start practicing Falun Gong.
After reflecting on all this, I decided to practice Falun Gong. I immediately called a practitioner I knew and borrowed the Falun Dafa books and videotapes. Since then, I have never doubted my decision to become a cultivator.
Because I was very weak and confined to bed, I could only listen to Teacher's lectures on tape. After listening to all the lectures, I understood that Falun Gong was what I had been looking for all my life. I felt regret that I had not started practicing earlier.
When Teacher began purifying my body, my reactions were very strong. Because my enlightenment quality was low, I was worried. Teacher saw my mental state and opened my celestial eye so that I could see black smoke coming out of my lower body.
"When you feel very uncomfortable, it indicates that things will turn around after reaching the extreme point. Your whole body will be purified and it must be completely purified. The cause of your illness has been removed, and what remains is only this bit of black qi that will come out on its own to let you suffer some and have some pain. It is forbidden for you not to suffer even a little bit."("The Issue of Pursuit," Lecture Two, Zhuan Falun, 2000 version)
I realized I had accumulated so much karma that I must suffer more and pay back my debts.
As I cultivated myself and made more progress and better understood the principles Teacher taught, I realized Teacher would purify my body to encourage me. Once, I was really unable to suffer anymore. My lower abdomen was so distended, and I couldn't relieve myself. I held Zhuan Falun with both hands, looked at Teacher's photo, and cried to Teacher: "Teacher, I cannot take it anymore. Please help me." In that second, I saw a pair of big hands take out a huge piece of black matter from my abdomen. I went to the bathroom and relieved myself of a great deal of black blood. This continued for about ten days. After that, I could get out of bed.
Later, Teacher arranged an older lady, a fellow practitioner, to care for me at home. In about two months, we were practicing and studying the Fa together. When I needed to improve my xinxing, she would point out my attachments. Whenever I gave up an attachment, Teacher would encourage me and purify my body more. During this period, I often dreamed of climbing a ladder to heaven.
While studying the Fa and practicing, I realized I was experiencing some of the supernormal phenomena that Teacher had written about. The supernormal phenomena occurred again and again. I began to understand the true meaning of my life; I saw all my past lives: royal family member, noble person, and ordinary person. I had everything a human could have and also lost everything, too, but the ultimate goal was for me to attain the Fa.
I saw that Teacher had taken me from hell and held me in his palm. Suddenly, all the cells of my body were unlocked, my whole body became transparent, and I could remember the scene that had taken place ages ago: I knelt in front of Teacher and took an oath: "I will assist Teacher in rectifying the Fa." My voice filled the whole universe. That was so sacred. I will never forget my oath.
Because I totally recovered after practicing Falun Gong for only two months, my family and friends were amazed by the miracle of Dafa. My parents, sister, and brother-in-law started practicing Falun Gong one after the other. Later, Teacher arranged many other practitioners to cultivate with me. We eliminated the evil with our righteous thoughts, rescued fellow practitioners, and began saving sentient beings. I learned that some of the practitioners surrounding me came down from the same universe to assist Teacher in the Fa-rectification. That is why we seemed to know each other from before. Now I clearly know why we Dafa practitioners came down to the Earth. We are on the most sacred mission. So let's cultivate together to fulfill our oath.
