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My Understanding of Illness Tribulations By a Falun Dafa practitioner
(Clearwisdom.net) Recently, several practitioners that I know have
developed symptoms of sickness karma. They have spent thousands of dollars in
hospital bills and yet they haven't recovered from their illnesses. A few of
them could not even look after themselves. In order to help them improve on the
Fa, several other practitioners moved into their homes. However,
even these practitioners had an incorrect understanding of illness karma--they
still believed it was an illness and continuously talked about it. Addressing this situation, I want to share my understanding about illness
tribulations. Perhaps it will be helpful for those practitioners suffering from
severe sickness karma. Before I practiced Falun Gong, I used to suffer from numerous illnesses,
including kidney stones and hydronephrosis of the kidney. I always had a fever
of 104 degrees F and couldn't fall asleep. Even after visiting many hospitals
and spending lots of money, I didn't recover. I later needed a kidney transplant
because my right kidney did not function anymore and my left one had stones. At
that time, I was reduced to skin and bones and was on the brink of death as
there was no more money. In August 1998, when my health had seriously deteriorated, someone said there
was a person practicing qigong, but she didn't know what kind. After hearing
about this, I went to her place. She told me that it was Falun Gong. I asked if
it could get rid of kidney stones. She said, "No." I then asked how
much I had to pay. She told me it was free. "I formally want you to be my
teacher then," I said. She replied, "Don't say that. If you say that,
then I will fail." She didn't give any more explanation. I still wanted to
practice even though it didn't heal illnesses. It was free and I didn't need to
take someone as my teacher. It was too good to be true. From then on, I forgot about my illnesses and never once thought about them
again. It was not long before all of my illnesses disappeared and I regained a
healthy body. I blamed the practitioners for not going out and telling others
about the practice, and hence I heard about Falun Gong very late. People in my town saw the changes in me. My husband asked me to go get a
check up at the hospital, but I refused because I am a practitioner and I didn't
have that attachment. After practicing Falun Gong, I was deeply impressed with
what the fellow practitioner had said, "It does not heal illness." I
began practicing, but it was not to have my illnesses cured. I no longer thought
about my kidney stones. It didn't matter for me any more. Once I did the fifth
Falun Gong exercise for two hours, although my legs were extremely painful. At
that time, Teacher gave me a hint. I saw something like an intestine. When I
squeezed it, snakes and other animals started to come out. I then understood
that human beings don't have illnesses. Instead, they are all karma that are
living beings in other dimensions. If illness tribulations affect our doing the three things, we
should search inward for our attachments, rectify our mentality, and send forth
righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil. One day in 2005 at around 8:00 p.m.,
just before I left my home to distribute truth-clarification materials, I became
stiff and chilly. After searching inwards, I couldn't find any reasons and so I
sent forth righteous thoughts to negate it. I had only one thought, "I am
going to save sentient beings. It is not allowed to persecute me." After
delivering the materials, I sat on the bed and felt pain in my stomach. I sent
forth righteous thoughts immediately. However, it got worse. I sent forth
righteous thoughts until 11:00 p.m., but then I started to vomit. I then became
aware of the seriousness of this problem because I used to vomit like this
before practicing Falun Gong. The evil wanted to confuse me by creating this
illusion in human society. I was full of righteous thoughts in my heart. I said,
"Stop it! I will not allow you to vomit. I am a Falun Dafa practitioner.
Only everyday people vomit." Immediately, I stopped vomiting.I then sent
forth righteous thoughts again. It was already 2:00 a.m. and I said, "You
just want to hurt me, right? I won't think about you. You are not me." Then
I went to bed and slept peacefully until the next morning. It seemed like
nothing had happened. If at the beginning I had considered it an illness and
gone to the hospital, then it would have brought a different outcome. One time a practitioner I worked with didn't show up, so I asked her husband
where she was. He told me that she was at home with a fever. I replied, "It
isn't a fever but persecution. You must ask her come." When she arrived, I
asked her, "What's the matter?" When she said that she had a fever, I
told her, "It is not a fever, but persecution. You must deny it." Her
righteous thoughts then emerged. She felt a warm energy flow through her body
and she recovered instantly. Another person witnessed this and said, "Just
one sentence and she recovered immediately. If I didn't see this my own eyes, I
wouldn't have believed it. It is a miracle." In 2005, I met with a practitioner who, after being released from a forced
labor camp, was locked up by her family members. She had started to experience
sickness karma in her eyes. Her family members took her to the hospital. After
having eye surgery, the doctors still couldn't find the cause of her disorder.
She told me, "At that time, I knew it was not an illness, but I couldn't
firm up my righteous thoughts." As a result, she couldn't open one of her
eyes that kept blinking frequently. She regretted having the eye operation.
Recently, she started to cough. I told her the tribulation was arranged by the
old forces. "From now on, you must pull yourself together, search inwards,
and rectify your thoughts. Another practitioner and I will send forth righteous
thoughts for you. You should cooperate and also send forth righteous
thoughts." Just as we were getting ready to send forth righteous thoughts,
this practitioner felt pain in her legs, cold fingers, and a cold breeze around
her body. However, she continued sending forth righteous thoughts. On the third
day, she felt better and her eye didn't blink as frequently as before. But her
cough became worse, and she even soiled her pants. I asked her whether she
searched within herself. She said, "Yes, I did." I told her,
"It's not enough. If you find the right attachment, the sickness karma will
be eliminated immediately." Th next day, she excitedly told me, "I recovered! Before going to bed
yesterday, I searched within myself, and I finally found the right attachment
and the cough stopped instantly." I said, "You must not slack off. We
should continue to send forth righteous thoughts for a few days as well as ask
Teacher to strengthen your thoughts. Your eye will recover on its own." Her
husband also saw noticeable changes in her. After awhile, she said, "I
didn't pay enough attention to sending forth righteous thoughts. As a result,
the evil took advantage of my shortcomings. If I had sent forth righteous
thoughts at the beginning, my eye would not have become a problem." I hope the practitioners who are experiencing sickness karma can completely
shed their human concepts of illness. We should deny it thoroughly. At the same
time, we need to search within ourselves because every practitioner must look
inward and this is in accordance with the Fa. The Fa can eliminate all of the
evils persecution. Please kindly help me understand any shortcomings I may have. Posting date: 2/27/2007 |