(Clearwisdom.net) The process of both personal cultivation practice and validating Dafa often exposes my mentality of showing off and validating myself. These attachments unknowingly come out during communications with fellow practitioners. Afterwards I realize they are not me but are postnatally acquired notions. I send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate them, but still feel their existence in my thoughts.

I studied the “Fa” with some fellow practitioners one day. We read what Teacher said,

“Right now, whether Dafa disciples are validating the Fa as a group or clarifying the truth as individuals, all of those are what Dafa requires. As long as Fa-rectification requires it, you should do it well, and there’s no room for negotiation. And don’t get conceited because of your roles, and don’t think you’re different from others. You’re each a particle. And in my eyes nobody is better than anyone else, since I scooped all of you up at the same time. (Applause) Some are more capable when it comes to one thing, others with another—you definitely shouldn’t let your thoughts run wild based on that. You say that you have such great abilities and so on and so forth, but that was all bestowed upon you by the Fa! Actually, it wouldn’t work if you failed to attain that level of abilities. Fa-rectification required your wisdom to reach that point, so you definitely shouldn’t think that you’re so capable. Some practitioners want me to check out their abilities and skills. But actually, what I think is, all of that was given by me, so there’s no need to look.” (“Fa-Lecture During the 2003 Lantern Festival at the U.S. West Fa Conference”)

After reading this paragraph, I suddenly realized that all I possess was given by Teacher. We wouldn't exist today if not for Teacher and the boundless Dafa that has saved us. I felt ashamed when I discovered the mentality of showing off and the attachment of validating myself. My words and actions showed that I put myself first, not Dafa. This was really disrespectful toward Teacher and Dafa.

I gained a new understanding from “Teaching the Fa in the City of Los Angeles,”

“Being in the midst of ignorance and delusion, people can't see how enormous this Fa is. If someone could truly see it, the playing out of his attachments as he cultivates would be equivalent to sinning against gods. Precisely because people cannot see, those don't count as sins. One person might be more diligent, while another might have a poorer understanding. (Teacher chuckles) Relatively speaking, the format of delusion loosens up [the requirements] for cultivation.”

I realized that Teacher benevolently used the Fa to remove these two bad human attachments for me.

I realized from this experience that no matter what I do, I should always make a point of standing on the right principles. We must thoroughly negate and eliminate through cultivating any human attachments as they are exposed.

“Cultivation depends on one’s own efforts, while the transformation of gong is done by one’s master.” (“Zhuan Falun”)

The Fa principles, which you should understand at your level, won’t be shown to you if you only practice automatically. Some fellow practitioners often ask why they don't have a deeper understanding of the Fa principles. I don't think it is something you can obtain if you pursue it. You must cultivate yourself steadily and firmly and study the Fa with a calm mind, and then you will come to understand higher Fa principles.

Recently, a fellow practitioner asked me to write an experience-sharing article. I had planned to write this kind of article for a long time, but my brain seemed to be empty when I picked up a pen to write. This state lasted until the other day when this fellow practitioner again asked me to write. So I decided to try. I thought, “I must not write with any attachment to showing off and validating myself. The writing of experience-sharing articles is validating Dafa and a precious opportunity.” In just one day, I had finished and sent out three articles. Two were published on the Clearwisdom website. My heart was very calm when I saw that my articles were published. I know Teacher was encouraging me and our local practitioners. Up to this point, human notions have prevented practitioners in our area from writing experience sharing articles.

My level is limited and what I have realized is limited. Please kindly point out anything that is inappropriate.