Young Practitioner: I Will Persevere to the End and Never Give Up
By Xinran, a young Falun Gong practitioner in China
(Clearwisdom.net) I am a young Falun Gong practitioner and have practiced
with my mother for several years. As a matter of fact, I have wanted to write
about my cultivation experience for a long time. After a few days' effort, I
have finally fulfilled my dream. When I was in fifth grade, my mother contracted myocarditis. The illness made
her extremely weak. She relied on medication every day. When Western medicine
did not work, she tried Chinese medicine. Our whole apartment smelled of herbs
during those days. My mother could not go to work; even walking upstairs would
make her out of breath. We were all worried about her, until one day one of her
colleagues arrived, holding a book to her chest. She asked my mother to wash her
hands before reading this book. I felt this to be an extraordinary book at first
sight. After my mother washed her hands she started to read the book. I read it
with her. When I saw Master's photo on the first page I felt an indescribable
familiarity and affinity; Master looked very kind and loving in the photo. I was
suddenly moved to tears without knowing why. Only later did I understand that we
all had a predestined affinity with Master. To establish this connection with
Master, we reincarnated for many life cycles. As we continued to read the Dafa books, my mother and I became practitioners.
From then on, we went to a practice site for group practice every day after
dinner. Sometimes we went to fellow practitioners' homes to have experience
sharing. One day my mother and I went to the practice site as usual, but there was
nobody there. We were quite surprised. We went to another practitioner's home
and found out that Jiang Zemin had labeled our practice an evil cult because he
was jealous of our Master. In order to stop the persecution, many practitioners
went to Beijing to appeal and tell the government the truth about Falun Gong. The so-called "self-immolation" incident on Tiananmen Square staged
by Jiang Zemin and Luo Gan was broadcast on TV during the 2001 Chinese New Year.
Countless people were deceived by this fabricated incident. The whole nation was
filled with fear and terror; schools were no exception. Teachers even organized
"anti-Falun Gong" activities and ordered students to sign their names
to "anti-Falun Gong" petitions. One day, my classmates and I went back to school after lunch. When we arrived
at the entrance of our classroom, we found a group of students discussing
something at the podium. I went up to the podium and found an "anti-Falun
Gong" petition on a piece of large-sized paper. Many students had already
signed their names. The remaining students who didn't know the truth were
prepared to sign as well. At that moment the teacher spotted me and told me to
sign. I told the teacher that I would not sign it. She asked me why. I told her
that I believed Falun Gong is good because my mother recovered from all kinds of
illnesses that had bothered her for years. I said, "Falun Gong teaches you
to become a good person and conduct yourself according to
Truthfulness-Compassion-Tolerance. Should such a practice be labeled an evil
cult?" The teacher was shocked. Because I didn't have any attachment to
fear, she did not force me to sign. She said, "If you don't want to sign,
it's all right. We are not going to force you." I couldn't help crying
then, probably because I still felt pressure, or perhaps my knowing side felt
saddened for all those beings who were deceived by Jiang's regime. Firmly believing in Dafa and experiencing miracles My mother and I continued to practice the exercises at home. One evening, as
we were sitting in meditation, I felt I had floated into the air. As I looked
down, the houses looked like small matchboxes. When I wanted to take a detailed
look, everything disappeared. I told my mother after the meditation what I had
experienced. She told me that Master was encouraging me. Once when I was on my way home after school, my body felt so light that I was
about to leave the ground. I immediately grabbed the hands of my classmate who
was beside me, lest I fly away. When I returned home I told my mother that I
would persevere in studying the Fa and practicing the exercises
every day. Looking inside when doing the Three Things Shortly after the "Nine Commentaries on the Chinese Communist Party"
was published, the Epoch Times website published Master's statement about
quitting the Youth League. After I read it I thought it was the beginning of a
new phase of Fa-rectification. My mother and I published statements to quit all
the organizations affiliated with the evil Chinese Communist Party (CCP). Later,
we read on the Epoch Times website that one can make a statement to quit
the CCP and its related organizations using an alias or a nickname, thereby
removing "the mark of the beast." My mother and I then began to
clarify the truth to people and persuade them to quit the CCP, as
did many other practitioners. We went out daily to distribute materials after
dinner. Initially, I had fear. I was afraid that someone would try to stop me. I
then told myself, "Do not fear. I am here to do the most upright thing in
the universe--to rescue sentient beings who are deceived by the CCP. I have
Master's Fashen to protect me. What's there to be afraid of?" I no longer
have fear. Sometimes I also sent text message to rescue sentient beings. Nevertheless, I recently slacked off in my cultivation. I felt sleepy in the
evenings, way before bedtime. I could not ensure Fa-study and exercise practice
every day. One of the reasons for this was being busy at the beginning of the
new school semester. The other reason was my laziness interfering. I did not
place Dafa in the primary place, telling myself that I had too much homework. My
mother often reminded me to be diligent, but I was unable to make breakthroughs. I am determined to get rid of laziness and the comfort-seeking mentality, and
do the three things well. Master has said, "Right now every minute and every second is crucial. If you miss out
during this period of time, you miss out on everything. History won't recur.
The history of the cosmos and the Three Realms have gone through so many,
long, long years--what have all the beings been waiting for? What are they all
here for? For exactly these few years! Yet there are [Dafa] students who are
squandering their lives during these few years, not seizing the time. And yet
you are shouldering such huge responsibilities for all beings and for
history!" ("Teaching the Fa at the 2003 Atlanta Fa Conference") Master also talked about telling the truth later in the same lecture in
Atlanta: "It's like a master key, unlocking that old-force factor that seals
the world's people off and prevents them from learning the Fa. Only your
clarifying the truth can do this." If I fail to do well, Master will endure a lot of karma for me. I once read an article written by a young practitioner. He said that he once
saw, in another dimension, four bowls filled with black, murky liquid, and the
bowls in the other dimension were several times bigger than those in our
dimension. He saw that Master was about to drink the liquid. He asked,
"Master, what is this? Why do you drink it?" Master said, "This
is the karma of those disciples who fail to do well. These disciples themselves
are unable to endure it. I have to take it in their place." The little
disciple then asked, "If they do not regret their wrongdoings, are you
still going to drink it for them?" Master said, "Yes, because they are
my disciples anyway!" Every time I read this article I blamed myself, "Why can't I do well?
Why does Master endure what I should have endured? How great and compassionate
our Master is! Master does not want to give up on any disciple, even if he or
she has made mistakes. Master still gives them chances, time and again." Great Master, thank you for giving me opportunities to correct my mistakes
time and time again. I will change my very person and become a diligent
disciple. I will do the "three things" well and catch up with the
progress of Fa-rectification. I will persevere to the end and never give up! Heshi to our great and compassionate Master! Heshi to fellow practitioners!
Chinese version available at
http://www.minghui.org/mh/articles/2007/8/16/160935.html
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