(Clearwisdom.net) A while ago, I suddenly felt some throat pain one day. After searching within myself for attachments that had surfaced during the previous few days, I sent forth righteous thought. That evening, I went to the practice site to share my situation with other practitioners. They all helped me to search inward and sent righteous thoughts as well.
However, when I got up the next morning the throat pain had escalated. It was unbearable for me to even swallow my own saliva. I opened my mouth and saw it was whitish all over, including the gum, tongue, and the insides of my cheeks. I was shocked. What is this? A non-practitioner friend who had the same symptoms before told me: "As the disease progresses, it will eventually block your throat and become life-threatening."
On hearing this, a negative thought flashed across my mind, but I immediately returned to clarity and eliminated it. "Illness." What is illness? That is something an ordinary person gets. Who am I? I'm a Fa-rectification period disciple, a righteous divine being here to assist Master with Fa rectification! Would a divine being acquire an ordinary illness? No, that's impossible. At that instant, the thought of "Illness" was gone. I calmed down and started to search inside myself. What kind of attachments had developed? Was I following the Fa's principle when I did things? I started to send forth righteous thoughts. I only ate several mouthfuls of rice gruel for the whole day and went to the practice site in the evening. Fellow practitioners were a bit worried. They again helped me search for my attachments and send righteous thoughts.
At home I followed a practitioner's suggestion to specifically target and eliminate all evil factors that were persecuting my body. I studied the Fa the entire evening and sent righteous thoughts on the hour. I did not sleep at all because when I lay down I'd have to swallow my saliva and doing that would cause excruciating pain in my ears and head. I was home alone then and knew clearly in my heart that, without an ordinary person's interference, it was all up to me to pass this tribulation. My mind was determined, solid as diamond. I told myself, "There is Master and the Fa. I do not fear anything!" I brushed aside the painful feelings and kept on studying the Fa, doing the exercises and sending forth righteous thoughts.
On the third day, the situation appeared worse. I could not eat or talk at all, but I continued to do things as usual, do house chores, study the Fa, practice the exercises, send righteous thoughts and I even went to the practice site at night. I took a pen with me to communicate with other practitioners in writing. My heart was calm and my mind clear. I strengthened my determination to follow Master's arrangements. Practitioners helped send forth righteous thoughts for me for a long time.
I burned incense for Master when I got home and knelt before his picture. "Master, please take charge of me!" I called out to Master three times, "Master, what should I do?" At that moment, I immediately recognized this thought of mine was not "pure." Wasn't I looking outward by doing this? I thought to myself, "How could you live up to the honor of being a true Dafa disciple?" My heart stopped wavering. I calmed down and crossed my legs to do the fifth exercise. The incense burned out. I finished the exercise and felt the situation had improved a little.
I wanted to take a rest, but as soon as I lay down, my body became immobilized, but my mind remained clear. Then Master's fashen appeared. He took a gentle look at me and said, "You are a Dafa disciple, my disciple. You are not an ordinary person. Why do you fear this bit of pain?" He asked me to swallow. When Master's fashen said "swallow," I did as he said. "Swallow. Swallow. Swallow." He kept saying it and I swallowed one time after another. Master smiled at me and then disappeared. "Master! Master!," I called out. Master was indeed there, staying by my side. I saw him! I sat up immediately. I was sweaty all over, my ears were ringing hard and my head was painful. I ignored all of that, got up, brushed my hair, washed my face and again knelt before Master's photo. Tears ran down my face without stopping. "Oh, Master, there is no language in the human world that could express my gratitude toward you."
On the fourth day, when I got up in the morning I was still unable to make a sound with my throat, but my mind was more determined, because I saw Master right beside me. I strengthened my thoughts and tried to do everything as usual, the house chores, Fa study, exercise and righteous thoughts. The throat is only a small part of my body. I could not allow it to interfere with my entire body and mind. I recited the Fa in my heart whenever I could. I would let only the Fa occupy my heart and soul. "Pain" and "discomfort" have no position in the face of Master and the Fa. I did not eat for two days, but felt no hunger either. My will became stronger. When I recited the Fa, I was happy and tireless. I was immersed in the light of Buddha, my xinxing elevated amidst the Fa. I went to the practice site that evening. Practitioners again sent forth righteous thoughts for me. One practitioner said, "Your situation still remains the same. It must've been that when sending forth righteous thought, you did not target the evil that was persecuting you directly." Another practitioner said, "I read an article on Minghui website and the practitioner said that if the interference could not be eliminated by righteous thoughts, we could resolve it in a compassionate way."
After finishing the exercises, I went home, burned incense for Master and said to myself, "For the beings that block my throat, if I indeed owe you debts from my previous lives, please stay away if you have the ability. Do not interfere with my helping Master rectify the Fa and save sentient beings. You may wait in another dimension for now. When I reach consummation, I will resolve the debts with you in a better way."
After that, I started meditating. After the incense burned out and my exercise finished, I laid down. All of a sudden, my body could not move again, but my mind was clear. Master reappeared. He smiled and asked me, "When you had a toothache and your gum was swollen before you were able to realize there was a low level being attached to that spot in another dimension. How come this time you did not think the same way about your throat?" He then used his right index finger to move across my throat. An opening appeared under the movement but it did not bleed. He grabbed something in his hand and said, "This is that low level being." Then he touched the wound with the index finger again. It healed immediately.
I observed all this and thought, "How come I do not feel any pain?" I knew in my heart that Master had taken away the low level being from another dimension. Master disappeared, but I kept on watching.
An elderly man appeared. There was a broom and trash bin in his hands. He was sweeping something into the bin. They were live shrimp, scallop and eels. What had this to do with me? I thought. Then a sea scene came into my view. Three Japanese soldiers were eating something on the seashore. Another soldier came out of the water. He caught a pile of shrimp, scallops and eels and placed them on the shore. This soldier then skinned a shrimp alive and ate it while it was still moving. Same thing with the scallops. Even more disgusting were the eels. They were just like snakes. I did not see clearly but the soldier somehow peeled the skin off the eel and bit into it right away. My heart was pounding as I watched.
A voice told me, "This soldier is you, several lifetimes ago." He was a soldier, a Japanese soldier! How could it be me in my past life? But he indeed was. Because the sea creatures were eaten by me alive, they had to stay in my body and could not reincarnate. They had been following me around. life after life. and eventually blocked my throat today. They were asking me to pay back my debts. How could I simply label them as bad? How could I not be held accountable for what I did in another lifetime? If I owed them I had to pay them back. If not right now, I would have to resolve it in a compassionate way later. I sat up immediately and played back the scenes I had just seen one by one. This strengthened my faith in Dafa. The Fa can reveal all mysteries.
On the fifth day, when I got up from bed, my throat itched. I spat something out. It was blood. Several mouthfuls of blood followed. I got to my feet and went to feed the cows. After the food was ready I called out for the cows and there was my voice! I was thrilled and called out "Falun Dafa Hao!" several times. I spat out more blood but everything returned to normal. The throat was not painful anymore, nor was my neck. What a miracle! How could one not be astonished by it? It was Master who gave me everything. It was he who resolved my debts from several lifetimes.
Master's benevolence is immense. I have nothing in return. As your disciple, I will firmly follow your teaching to study the Fa well and cultivate diligently. I will continue to assist Master with Fa rectification, save sentient beings like a true Fa-rectification period Dafa disciple, and return to my origin together with Master.
