My Attachments Were Reflected in a Fellow Practitioner's Behavior

By a Falun Dafa practitioner in China

(Clearwisdom.net) One of my colleagues, a new practitioner, has a strong everyday person's mindset and various notions. She always tries to avoid being given a task. For a while, I was very stressed out. I didn't know what the underlying causes were that made for problems between us. Especially when my cultivation state was not good and I had a strong everyday person's mindset, her behavior would be even worse. For example, when I considered slacking off in my work, she would start to do less. When I began to neglect my work, she wouldn't do anything.

I eventually realized that she was acting like an amplifier for my everyday person's mindset. When I had that kind of mindset, she always manifested it. So, when I saw her selfishness, I started to look inside myself. I always found a "self" mindset in my heart. When I noticed that she thought that she had been wronged, I myself had a "heart of being wronged."

I had another colleague who started getting to know Dafa in 2003. She actually started cultivation and doing the three things in the summer of 2005. Because we work in the same company, we have more chances to see each other. For a while, she also acted out my attachments. To give an example, in February 2006, Teacher's article, "Eliminating the Evil" was published. She got a copy from a fellow practitioner. After reading the article, I was very excited and said to her, "Let me take it to the back and read it to everyone. I'd like to let everyone know that the good fortune in the lives of the lowlife secret agents has been taken away."

I ran to the back, calmed down my overly happy state of mind, and read the article very calmly. No one reacted badly afterward. Moments later, she also ran from the front to the back, took the article from me, and read it aloud again. Because she had only been a cultivator for a short time, her everyday person's mindset was strong, which showed up in her voice. The previous positive atmosphere was immediately destroyed. Reflecting on her attachment to rejoicing and the destruction of the positive atmosphere, I thought: "This did nothing to spread Dafa; it damaged Dafa." I instinctively felt that her overzealous rejoicing was an amplification of my shadow, which seemed to imitate me and to vilify me. I also looked inside myself. In the "calm demeanor" I made myself project, I immediately found my own attachment to rejoicing. I did not pay attention to it at first. My attachment to joy drew out hers, and she amplified it.

This is just an example. There are many more cases. When I went after some bad things, she would have an even worse attachment. When I did not pay attention to security, she was just short of broadcasting important information to others. After experiencing this many times, I paid close attention to it. I checked my own shortcomings and eliminated them.

If we can look inside ourselves with a clear conscience, we can always find our attachment. If we improve ourselves in the Fa, we can more effectively save people, and save even more people.

I am hoping the above can provide some help to fellow practitioners with similar situations. Please indicate anything inappropriate with compassion.

Chinese version available at http://minghui.ca/mh/articles/2007/8/31/161821.html

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