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Only By Following the Fa Can Tribulations Be Resolved By a Falun Dafa practitioner from Beijing
(Clearwisdom.net) I'm an older practitioner who has practiced Falun Dafa
for many years. During these years, my deepest understanding about the remaining
old forces and communist evil spirits is that they are unwilling to be
eliminated, and they still constantly look for loopholes in our cultivation so
as to create tribulations for us. But no matter what kind of tribulation I come
across, as long as my perspective is firmly on Dafa and I maintain righteous
thoughts and continue to do the things that a Fa-rectification period Falun Dafa
practitioner should do, I can resolve the tribulation. Otherwise, if I am a
little careless, the end result could be a complete failure. In January 2007, I suddenly felt uncomfortable and my legs felt heavy as I
returned home after going out to clarify the truth in the morning. I
had talked with three people, and one had withdrawn from the Chinese Communist
Party and its affiliated organizations after learning the truth. The other two
were not Party members, but they understood the truth of Falun Dafa. Feeling
discomfort, I sent forth righteous thoughts from the bottom of my heart while
negating the old forces' arrangements and vowing to walk only on Teacher's path. In the afternoon, I stayed home to study the Fa, and I sent forth
righteous thoughts every hour and looked within myself for loopholes. During
this time, I started coughing, felt feverish, and ached all over. I said in my
mind, "Evil spirits, dark minions, and rotten demons, how could these dirty
tactics work on a Dafa disciple in the period of Fa-rectification?" For the
next two days, I continued to go out and do truth-clarification work. I only had
the thought, "Time is life, hurry-up to save lives." At the time there
was nothing in my mind but Falun Dafa and thoughts of saving sentient beings. As
a result, I could walk very fast--as though I was floating--and the results of
truth-clarification were good. On the fifth day after I got up, I saw that my face had swelled and turned
red. Although my eyes could barely be seen, I could still see the road. I did
not let even this condition stop me from going out to clarify the truth to
people. One day when I was sending forth righteous thoughts, my husband suddenly said
something negative, "It's been almost eight years since July 1999. What's
the use of your doing this? Look at yourself. The more you practice, the more
backward you retreat, getting a cold and fever, and your face is so swollen that
you barely look like a human being. [If you] let your fellow practitioners see
you, you will disgrace your Teacher and disgrace Falun Gong." What he said was quite awakening. I peacefully replied, "Human nature
was originally good in the beginning. You're a very good and upright person.
Because I practice Falun Gong, you've have suffered a lot and shouldered many
risks. I thank you. [However] what you said a moment ago was not really you
saying it. All I want is to believe in Teacher and the Fa and walk on the path
to return to my true self." Meanwhile, I was thinking to myself, "My
mission is to assist Teacher in Fa-rectification--it's unstoppable, as solid as
a rock." Then my husband said, "I don't mind any more. Just don't let
the police arrest you." (Nowadays, he always reminds me when it's time to
send forth righteous thoughts!) As my mind became serene, I dug deep inside to look for the root cause of my
problems, which I finally found! At that time, it was already past midnight. For a long time, many remaining human attachments that hadn't been cultivated
away were still causing interference. They included complacency, the show-off
mentality, and the mental state of satisfaction. Take my involvement with the
"three withdrawals" project for instance. I was in charge of recording
the number of withdrawals from August to December 2006. The total number of
withdrawals for five months was over 200 people, with a monthly average of about
40, not including those who weren't Party members, but who understood the truth
of Falun Dafa and made declarations on the Internet. Even though I knew that
everything was done by Teacher, I still had the show-off mentality and was quite
satisfied with myself, thus becoming complacent. This caused the old forces to
take advantage of my loopholes as well as use this as an excuse to continue the
vicious persecution. In view of what happened to me, I realized that our every word, thought and
action must be based on the requirements of Dafa. If we do not cultivate
ourselves diligently, the evils are always on the lookout, waiting to take
advantage of our laziness, trying to enlarge and strengthen our attachments, and
making us slide downwards. Therefore, we must make sure to completely eliminate
whatever attachments we still have so as to avoid problems in the future. September 9, 2007 Posting date: 9/25/2007 |