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Maturing While Immersed in Dafa
(Clearwisdom.net) Greetings, Respected Master! Greetings, fellow practitioners! In 1997, my mother and I learned Falun Dafa together. Before this, my health
was very bad, and I needed to see doctors frequently. My parents were told soon
after I was born that I had a serious illness, and skin ulcers spread all over
my head, which was completely bald. The parents of other children would not let
their children play with me. I grew up in an isolated world, feeling inferior to
others, and was always depressed. Classmates in my school bullied me, and they
often stole my books and other belongings. Gradually I grew to harbor an
indescribable resentment, and often vented it toward my parents. To console me,
they let me get my way and spoiled me. I got used to blowing up at home whenever
something was not going my way. When I first learned Dafa, I did not quite understand the meaning of
cultivation. I just felt good when I did the exercises and studied the Fa
with the group at the practice site. No one looked down on me there. Rather,
everyone cared about me and taught me patiently how to do the exercises. My
injured heart slowly healed in this environment. At the time, I was not quite
seven years old. I did not know the reason, but I just knew that I liked the
environment and wanted to go there every day. From then on I dared to look people in the eye. I noticed there were many
young practitioners at the practice site, and they attended the same school as I
did. One of them was even in the same class. In this environment, we young
practitioners worked very diligently. We helped each other and examined
ourselves, and made sure that we did not fall behind. We elevated ourselves very
fast. Without noticing when it happened, the ulcers on my head all disappeared,
and hair began to grow on my bald head. I also did not go to see a doctor any
more after learning Dafa. My happiness was indescribable. The pleasure came from
the bottom of my heart. I deeply appreciated Teacher's caring for me and saving
me. Jiang Zemin began to persecute Falun Gong on July 20, 1999. The village
officials and police went to ransack practitioners' homes frequently and took
away their Dafa books. Both Mom and I were undaunted when they came to our home.
We asked Teacher to not let them find our books, so they did not go to the place
where we hid the books. Since then, we have had to study the Fa and do the
exercises in secrecy. As I grew older and went to junior high, the time I spent doing the exercises
and studying the Fa got less and less. Eventually I stopped doing the exercises
altogether, and studying the Fa became just a formality. Mom often cautioned me,
but I always used my schoolwork as an excuse, whereas in reality I was just
lazy. The laziness made me forget my real home and forget my true reason for being
here. The old forces took advantage of my loophole. One day I ran into a car as
I was riding my bike to school with a classmate. Not caring about my condition,
the driver jumped out and yelled at me for not looking. The right side of my
face swelled up right away, and blood came out of my mouth. Then the driver just
drove away and we went to school. The second period was physical education. The
teacher let us run for the whole period and that made me feel worse. I told Mom
what had happened after I got home, and she was shocked. She talked to me about
Dafa and wanted me to draw my lessons from Dafa, asking me to think about
whether it was because I had neglected cultivation, and as a result, I was taken
advantage of by the old forces. If it was not for Teacher who had saved me, I
probably would have died. Although I had a better understanding at the time, I
still wanted to have fun and did not resume Fa study and the exercises as I had
done when I had just learned Dafa. Teacher did not give up on me and arranged for me to get acquainted with some
fellow practitioners. Gradually I became more diligent. I now recognize that
only if I honestly cultivate myself can I face Teacher without feeling guilty,
and I will be able to meet the expectations of the countless sentient beings. Above is my personal experience. Please point out any deficiencies. |