(Clearwisdom.net) My parents attained the Fa in 1997, and I read Zhuan Falun at that time and learned all five sets of the exercises. However, due to my low level of enlightenment, I quickly gave up. It wasn't until recently that I resumed cultivation.
After the persecution started in 1999, my mother went to Beijing to appeal several times even though she encountered obstruction from my family, including my dad. At that time, I was not against her doing this. I helped her to make some banners, which were used to promote the goodness of Falun Dafa. Later, I helped her to persuade my dad to come back to Dafa again. During this time, my mother would have me read each of Master's lectures. I had almost the same understanding about the Fa principles as she did. Even under these circumstances, I did not make up my mind to get into Dafa.
It wasn't until 2006, after I had read Master's lecture in Los Angeles, that I suddenly realized that life is so short, and I should not lose this precious chance. I was determined to be a true Dafa practitioner.
Not long after that, though, I got addicted to chatting on the Internet. I knew that I was wrong and often told myself, "Master just pulled you up from hell, and now you've jumped down there again." I was regretful at that time and very depressed. I felt that I did not deserve to be a practitioner.
It was not until I realized something in my dream that I cheered up again. In the dream, I was watching a beautiful house that was burning and saying to myself, "Let it burn." When the house was charred, I was so sorry and called out, "Master, I was wrong." The house immediately became brand new again. After I woke up from the dream, I was moved to tears. I knew that Master still wanted me, a practitioner who was not striving forward, and he was bearing all my sins for me. I can only be grateful for our merciful Master!
Although I still have many shortcomings, I won't lose a single chance to clarify the truth and save sentient beings. I started with my relatives and friends, then my coworkers, and the vendors that I meet when I go out shopping. As long as I have a chance to talk, I will pass along the facts about Dafa to them. Sometimes I really do not have a chance, but I catch up to the young people that are walking on the street together and directly tell them the facts about Dafa. On the elevator inside the mall, even if I only have a few seconds, I would say to the person next to me, "Do you know that Falun Dafa is the Buddha Law, and it is spreading to the whole world?" I think that even one sentence is better than nothing.
I was once a little afraid to spend paper bills that had truth-clarifying words on them. Now I am not afraid anymore, and hope that the person I give the bills to would ask me about them. Meanwhile, I understand that while I clarify the truth, I should read the books more, have righteous thoughts, and cultivate myself well in order to fulfill my mission better.
