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Even If You Think You Do Not Have Jealousy, Read This Article
(Clearwisdom.net) For a long time, I didn't think I envied others who
practice well. So, when my fellow practitioners suggested that I read the
article "A Compilation of Articles Related to
Eliminating the Attachment of Jealousy" (http://www.clearwisdom.net/emh/articles/2008/1/28/93737.html)
I did not pay much attention. In the meantime, I did not completely understand
what the fellow practitioner said about those who "look down upon those who
do not practice well," or in other words, "laughing at others"
was also a manifestation of jealousy. I was irritated about having to deliver food to my mother-in-law in the
hospital one day recently. I felt that my sister-in-law should be partly
responsible, and thought it was unfair that I had to do it by myself. So, I was
not happy. It did not bother me at all during her first stay in the hospital,
but this time it bothered me a lot. What happened to me this time? I could not
control myself and behaved well part of the time, and poorly at other times. This day was also our group Fa study. My fellow practitioners suggested that
I read the article about jealousy carefully when they found out that I had only
read part of it. So I read it more closely after returning home. I then
understood that the reason I was not nice and felt unbalanced recently was
actually because of jealousy. The issue of unfairness is actually a situation of being influenced by the
evil CCP's "absolute egalitarianism" and its effort to convince
everyone that they should be the same. Each one has his/her own share.
Otherwise, one will not be happy. In fact, the same situation happened during my
mother-in-law's second hospitalization. I realized that jealousy caused me to
feel unfair, which is not the real "me." I resolved not to be
controlled by it. Therefore, I became calmer and my xinxing elevated. Originally, I did not think it was a big deal and I did not realize that
there was a problem. As a practitioner, what you hear or come across is
certainly not accidental. Two days later, my husband (who is also a
practitioner) made a comment and I immediately replied, "You can't be so
sure about it." He then responded, "Are you accustomed to
arguing?" I felt very uncomfortable hearing this. However when I gave it a
second thought later on, it seemed that he was right. Whenever others said
something, I did not think too much and preferred to criticize immediately. I
did not think too much about my response and thought I had a better viewpoint
than others and that I was the only person who held correct opinions. This is an
aspect of jealousy. I should first look for whether there is anything wrong with
myself, before questioning what others say. I felt my husband's opinion was very naive when he talked about my
mother-in-law's situation, I felt his opinion was very naive because I have a
medical background. Therefore my reply to him was neither kind nor patient. If
one cannot view things from a practitioner's view point, and looks down upon
others, such a mindset affects cultivation and even encourages jealousy to grow. For practitioners who are not so diligent in cultivation in some area, or for
some period of time, they may not be able to express their view from Dafa's
point of view, and it will be hard to eliminate the evil factors behind the
events, thus helping them to quickly set up righteous thoughts and deeds.
Instead, they clutch the "looking down upon" attitude, accuse and
complain, which will only do harm and cause damage to us, and even allow the old
forces to take advantage. Therefore, we cannot ignore getting rid of jealousy. From my personal experience, multiple problems occurred when I thought I did
not have the attachment of jealousy. Therefore, I suggest those fellow
practitioners who think they do not have jealousy also read the brochure "A
Compilation of Articles Related to Eliminating the Attachment of Jealousy." The above is my current personal understanding. Please point out if there is
any mistakes.
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