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If One Obtains the Fa Late, One Needs to Be More Diligent By a Falun Gong practitioner in China
(Clearwisdom.net) I was lucky enough to become a Falun Gong
practitioner in 2002. After I started cultivation, I read Zhuan Falun
and I was suddenly awakened. I realized the sole criterion to measure all things
is "Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance." I realized how Falun Dafa is
sacred, dignified, and boundless. I realized how tiny and ignorant I was.
Because of my very bad habits, often whenever one of my attachments was not
completely eliminated, another one would surface. All these attachments were the
bad demeanor of everyday people--very dirty and corrupt. Some of them controlled
me for several years, yet I was not able to recognize their nature nor eliminate
them at the root. Through studying the Fa every day, recently I was
able to have a relatively clear understanding of my fundamental attachment. But
I know I still fall far short. Before I obtained Dafa, I had suffered many hardships and difficulties.
During these hardships, I learned techniques to protect myself. I learned to be
tough, I learned to not tolerate other's mistakes, and I learned "tit for
tat is fair play"--all behavior that is the opposite of
"Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance." I used today's declining moral
standard to measure myself and I felt I was a good person. When I was young, I was relatively smart. I was a top-notch student at school
and developed the habit of looking down on people who did not like to study.
When I took a leadership position in class, I was very responsible. I did not
like my classmates who were selfish, and I did not like those who argued with
and embarrassed others. In fact, my habits did not conform to
"Truthfulness" or to "Forbearance." I also pursued fame,
personal gain, and qing. After I graduated from college, I had a strong sense of responsibility at
work. I did not like co-workers who were careless. When I saw my bosses were not
diligent, my heart would boil. I could not tolerate that and I would show it on
my face and in my speech. As a practitioner, one should tell good from bad, but
one should not be upset. In addition, at the appropriate time and when not
hurting someone else's feelings, we should help others sincerely. This is the
noble demeanor of a cultivator, and this will show the cultivator's great
compassion and great forbearance. So when we use the Fa as a mirror for our
thoughts and conduct, only then will we know our shortcomings. Recently, I have
adjusted my attitude, been tolerant of others, and willingly and patiently
helped others. I no longer had the urge to complain about my coworkers. It
turned out my coworkers were also very happy. My boss also praised me and said
that I was selfless. One of my relatives obtained Dafa eight years earlier than I, yet he didn't
do the three things well. For example, other practitioners asked for
his help to distribute truth-clarification letters. When he came
home, he just threw the letters aside and did not distribute them for a few
months. The practitioner continued to give him the letters and he still
continued to accept the letters. Yet he brought the letters home and did not
distribute them, and he didn't let the other practitioners know this. For things
like that, I would always be upset. Of course what he did was wrong, but I was
upset and I did not achieve forbearance. No matter how we clarify the truth or
remind practitioners to be diligent, we should only persuade them to be good.
Under all circumstances, we should always use
"Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance" to examine ourselves. An
unexpected conflict is the best test for a cultivator's forbearance. When
looking inside deeply at my heart, I found that my feelings of distress are
actually demons, and that is not state of a divine being. Teacher said in Zhuan
Falun: "being upset is sentimentality, so are happiness, love, hatred, enjoying
doing one thing, resenting doing another thing, preferring one person to
another, hobbies, and dislikes. Everything belongs to sentimentality, and
everyday people just live for it. Then, as a practitioner and one who rises
above and beyond, one should not use this approach to judge things, and one
should break away from them." Whenever we are angry, at least when viewed from the perspective of
"Forbearance," we are a non-practitioner. When I saw my shortcomings
and yet could not break away from them, I still studied the Fa every day.
Finally I was able to find their root. Recently, I am not arguing with my
husband anymore. I am able to do the three things well and save sentient beings. While doing truth-clarification one day, I was facing a group of over a
hundred people. I talked to them about how wonderful Falun Dafa is, and I urged
them to remember this and not to believe the lies against Falun Gong. Over a
hundred people had joy in their eyes, and they all smiled from their hearts.
Teacher said a Dafa disciple in the Fa-rectification period should do well both
in validating the Fa and personal cultivation. I always remember to take the Fa
as the Teacher and to have strong confidence in Dafa when facing tribulations.
Along with saving sentient beings, I know to improve my Fa study, to have the Fa
in our hearts all the time, to not let attachments control us, to not lose
rationality, to not use any excuses to cover up our attachments, to not
exaggerate others' mistakes, to study the Fa every day, and to do well the three
things every day. The truth proved that when we study the Fa every day, the
effect of saving sentient beings is very good. I firmly believe Teacher's Fa: "The Fa can break all attachments, the Fa can destroy all evil, the Fa
can shatter all lies, and the Fa can strengthen righteous thoughts."
("Drive Out Interference" in Essentials for Further Advancement
II) I still have a lot of attachments, and I still have not done enough. Please
point out anything improper. Greetings to esteemed Teacher. I am grateful for
Teacher's benevolent salvation. Heshi. Posting date: 5/30/2008 |