By a Falun Dafa practitioner in China

(Clearwisdom.net) After reading the Minghui article, "Help Fellow Practitioners in the Process of Improving Oneself," I would like to share and encourage the author, who is enduring lengthy sickness karma.

For a long time, I was unable to look inwards and did not realize that I had many attachments. As a result of this, I lied in a hospital bed for around six months. I experienced physical pain and resentment grew in my heart daily. I felt as if fellow practitioners were not helping me and did not understand what I was going through.

Afterwards, our merciful Teacher again pulled me out of hell and I was able to return home. However, I still did not look inside and still had resentment and knew that if I continued onward like this I would destroy myself in the process. I was worried and anxious because many attachments surfaced and much interference occurred. I was very afraid because I felt that I would even stop practicing Falun Dafa if I kept going on like that.

Such despair even makes me to burst into tears when I think about it now, but it also urges me to firmly put down my attachments regardless of the problems I encounter today. I know that even at the most seemingly hopeless time in my life, Teacher would not give up me, and He will still help me and endure for me. If a practitioner does not succeed in all their efforts, they will be forever ashamed for all the things that Teacher has done for them!

Actually, fellow practitioners are very fortunate and are one body with predestined relationships. If we are to be a king within a realm of the new cosmos, Teacher wants every one of us to walk our own path to validate the Fa. Regardless of what tribulation we bear temporarily, Teacher has expectations and arrangements for us as usual. In my cultivation, Teacher has repeatedly and seriously given me hints so I can position my heart correctly. Cultivation practice is our own matter. When my thinking was aligned with this principle, I actually felt Teacher protecting me and felt His compassion, and I no longer tried to get help from other practitioners.

No matter what ordeals I encounter today, I realize they are because Teacher wants me to walk my own path and deal with such issues on my own because it enables me to walk the path of becoming a future enlightened being with infinite glory. When I look back on the path I have taken, I realize that actually I have done nothing since it is Teacher who has been holding our hands the whole time. It is also Teacher who transforms our mighty virtue for us!

Fellow practitioners please do not lose confidence in yourselves. The most difficult day you encounter is also certainly the day closest to brightness. Simply firmly study the Fa regularly and look inwards and one can certainly walk through it!

This is only my limited understanding. Please point any mistakes.

Posting date: 7/26/2008
Original article date: 7/26/2008
Category: Practitioners' Insights
Chinese version available at http://www.minghui.org/mh/articles/2008/7/18/182262.html

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