(Clearwisdom.net) Today another practitioner and I went out to
clarify the facts about Falun
Gong. We went to McDonald's fast-food restaurant and bought something to eat.
After I sat down, I began talking to a girl sitting at the same table about the
practice. After chatting for a while, the other practitioner said, "Why are
you so hasty when you talk?" I was thinking, "Yes. I've been doing
this for some time, so why was I not tranquil today?" I couldn't figure out
why.
When I returned home, I calmed down and began to examine my state of mind. The environment then was pretty good, certainly suitable for the explaining the facts about Falun Gong, and I also wasn't afraid. But what was the attachment that made me lose my tranquility? I thought and thought, and suddenly I realized that it was the attachment to doing things, the attachment to fulfilling my mission. I continued digging deeper and discovered it was selfishness. From studying the Fa I understood that clarifying the truth is what Dafa practitioners must do. It's a practitioner's duty, if you will. So when I was talking to the girl, it wasn't because I wanted to save her, and I had no mercy. I was just busy trying to fulfill my duty, and I was quite impatient because I wanted to see quick results. I hurriedly said what I thought I should say. There was no mercy, harmony, tolerance, or kindness in me at all, and those are traits that a practitioner should possess. What should I do? Cultivate! I should eliminate all these dirty attachments, achieve benevolence and put others first, as well as attain a level of selflessness. Teacher has infinite grace. It is never easy to say thank you to Master for His great mercy. Then the only thing I can do is be diligent in cultivation. My level is limited. I hope fellow practitioners will kindly point out whatever is improper.
August 18, 2008
