(Clearwisdom.net) Teacher told us in "Fa Teaching Given to the Australian Practitioners" to look inward whenever we run into a problem. But I was hindered by the notions formed in the human world, I didn't look inward well, and I was not able to negate the old forces' evil factors around me.
When sending forth righteous thoughts, I tended to fall asleep and my hand position would change. I was like this for five years, sometimes a little better and sometimes a little worse. Fellow practitioners kept reminding me not to fall asleep. I tried hard, but it was very difficult for me to overcome it. If I didn't concentrate for a few seconds, I would fall asleep. And sometimes I didn't want to send forth righteous thoughts at all. Recently, I read the article "Looking Inwards to Get Rid of Attachments, To be a True Cultivator" (Published on minghui.ca, the Chinese version of Clearwisdom). Then I suddenly understood my problem: Because I didn't look inward, the evil took advantage of my gap to interfere with me.
I then concentrated and took an attentive look inward. I found many attachments: jealousy, competitiveness, resentment, attachment to self, and others. The evil took advantage of these attachments and kept interfering with me for many years.
Now I send forth these strong righteous thoughts: "Completely disintegrate these bad attachments, the evil lives that have interfered with me for years, and the communist evil spirit and factors; completely eliminate them."
Because I was introverted, it was hard for me to expose the evil factors, and they took advantage of my weakness, creating many illusions and barriers among Dafa disciples, and causing damage to the Fa-rectification process.
I am very grateful to the Clearwisdom website for offering a platform for practitioners to exchange experiences and insights. It helped me to truly elevate and eliminate the old forces' interference. It cleared away the evil's illusion for me. I also appreciate very much all the practitioners who helped me. Most of all, I am extremely thankful to our great Teacher who keeps giving me opportunities to elevate and catch up with the progress of Fa-rectification.
I need to be more diligent and do well the three things, so that I can reach consummation and return home with Teacher.
Fellow practitioners, please point out my gaps if you find any.
September 14, 2008