Five Years of Assisting Master in Fa-rectification
By a practitioner from China
(Clearwisdom.net) I started practicing Falun Gong after 2002. I would
like to share my experience of obtaining the Fa and the past five
years of cultivation, assisting Master in Fa-rectification. Finally, I obtained the Fa Early in 1997, a local friend told my husband and I about a new practice
called Falun Gong. Several days later, my husband brought home a copy of the
book China Falun Gong. At the end of 1998, while I was pregnant and close
to my due date, another friend introduced my husband to Falun Gong. He easily
accepted it and read the book. I had trouble during the baby's delivery in early
1999. But surprisingly, my child and I did very well. Now that I recall, I
believe it was because my husband had read the book and Master had begun taking
care of us. My baby was tiny, but healthy. During the first month after the birth, my husband read Zhuan Falun
next to our child. He enjoyed it so much it made me want to read it, too. My
husband said, "Go ahead, read it. It will be good for you." I read it
and found many of the principles easy to understand and very righteous. Not long after that, my husband went to work in the south and took the book
with him. I was busy taking care of our child. That summer--1999--the brutal
persecution started. The TV, radio and newspapers continually broadcast
slanderous news and articles. I was scared and worried for my husband's safety.
I called him and told him. He was too busy to watch TV. I asked him to be
careful and keep his book safe. I felt this persecution was different and hoped
it would end soon. When I shopped to prepare for the upcoming 1999 Chinese New Year holiday, I
witnessed the fearlessness of the practitioners who were arrested. I was
touched. These days, people are driven by money and material gains. Who else
would be so persistent in upholding the truth they believe in? I shed tears for the practitioners' determination and really thought about
this. It made me want to understand what Falun Gong really was, and what kind of
force made these practitioners want to practice Falun Gong, no matter what. Did
Falun Gong really have this irresistible power? I wished I could ask my Falun
Gong friends about all of this. But due to the Cultural Revolution-like
persecution, all the practitioners I knew had been arrested, sent to forced
labor camp, or left home to avoid further persecution after having gone to
Beijing to appeal for Dafa. Close to the 2002 New Year, many of my practitioner friends gradually
returned to their hometown. I finally got an opportunity to learn more about
Falun Gong. From their conversations with me and being around them, I came to understand
that Falun Gong is great. Later, a friend (Practitioner A) gave me a hand-copied
version of Hong Yin. I read it, and my determination to start
cultivation was awakened, as if I had begun to understand what our benevolent
Master wanted us to do. In May 2002, I began to formally read Zhuan Falun. Having had the book
for three years already, I finally read it once, thoroughly. Master says: "I know the state of qigong all across the country, and I can say that
right now, whether we're talking about inside China or abroad, I'm the only
one who's really transmitting a practice that takes you to higher
levels." (The First Talk, Zhuan
Falun, 2003 translation version) My lack of comprehension had clouded the meaning of this sentence for me for
five years. Master says: "Our Law Wheel protects you if you're a true cultivator. My roots are
all deeply planted in the universe, and if someone could affect you, he could
affect me, and to put it directly, he'd be able to affect the universe."
(The First Talk, Zhuan Falun) This sentence touched me deeply. I knew what Master said was true. I had
never before heard any principles like this. Master used very simple words, but
explained everything very thoroughly and clearly. I understood what I really
wanted. This was the truth I had looked for and pursued in my mind! I have changed much since then. Many things in the human world cannot affect
me anymore. I follow the Fa's standards and no longer fight and compete with
others at work. I know that Master arranges everything along the cultivation
path. Many grievances and conflicts no longer bother me because I understand
those are for a reason and are to help me eliminate karma and improve. I am so
fortunate to have obtained Dafa. Master's unlimited compassion makes me feel
truly blessed. How fortunate I am to have been saved by Master! Operating an informational materials production site is cultivation When I met Practitioner A, who had just returned to town, he gave me an
out-dated copy of "Minghui Weekly" and several individual
pages. I learned what was happening in the outside world and got information
about the progress of Fa-rectification. I wanted to read newer updates, but he
told me that there was a lack of materials in our area and how difficult it was
to get the materials. He could only bring back a few items when he returned from
out of town, so the information was not timely or regular. I heard that the
money to maintain the informational materials production site came from
practitioners' savings. We lacked resources, technology, and financial backing in our area to build a
materials site. But if practitioners in other areas were able to establish the
materials sites, we also should be able to. So many sentient beings were still
ignorant of the truth and still deceived by lies--we should produce more
materials to help them understand the truth. Although we did not have enough
money, every practitioner wanted to do something to clarify the
truth. We should form one body in the Fa. Everyone in my family is a
practitioner although we obtained the Fa later, and the evildoers
were not obviously targeting us. My home was therefore the most suitable
location for a materials site. After my husband and I shared our thoughts, we
realized that this was our mission. We shared our thoughts with Practitioner A, and soon our site was operating.
The practitioners in our area were able to read Minghui Weekly and
Master's new lectures in a timely manner and new information enabled them to
clarify the truth better. We were also able to read Master's lectures from
before July 20, 1999. When we read Master's "Touring North America to Teach
the Fa" in 2002, we understood the three things a Dafa
practitioner in the Fa-rectification period should do. Because my husband and I obtained the Fa late, we did not have a solid
personal cultivation foundation. We often had arguments when operating the site,
often blamed each other, and did not look inward during a conflict. Practitioner
A thought our site was unsafe. He sometimes had complaints about us, too. To be
responsible for Dafa and the one body, a year later, a more suitable veteran
practitioner was found and the materials site was moved out of our home. Moving the materials site upset my husband and me. Because the site had
operated secretly, we could not share our thoughts with other practitioners and
they did not know what we had been doing. They only felt we were not very
diligent. My husband and I again sensed hardship but did not get depressed.
Instead, we studied the Fa more. Because we no longer made materials, we used
our time to study the Fa with fellow practitioners and shared thoughts and
experiences from the perspective of the Fa. We distributed the materials in the
surrounding villages, wrote posters, and clarified the truth. Because we studied
the Fa more, we improved quickly in understanding the Fa principles. Each time
Master gave a new lecture, we compared what we were doing with the Fa, to see if
we had been in compliance with Master's requirements. We immediately corrected
those areas in which we did not do well enough and shared our experiences with
fellow practitioners. Our minds broadened. No longer were we stuck in conflicts
with others and we were able to understand Practitioner A from his perspective.
We also tried to harmonize things Practitioner A wanted to accomplish for the Fa. A year later, at the end of 2004, I read the fifth chapter of the Nine
Commentaries on the Communist Party and realized that the Fa-rectification
had entered a new phase. Not long after, I read the entire Nine Commentaries and
realized that we should distribute it to more people. We shared our thoughts with Practitioner A and asked for more copies of the Nine
Commentaries so that people could read it. Practitioner A said he was too
busy. We were disappointed. After my husband and I shared our thoughts, we felt
that it was normal for practitioners to be busy. But the Nine Commentaries allows
sentient beings to better understand the evilness of the Chinese Communist Party
(CCP). When sentient beings know the truth, they can understand and support Dafa
practitioners, and the persecution will be over. As more and more practitioners
stepped forward to clarify the truth, the amount of materials available did not
meet the demand. We knew we should not always wait for and rely on others. By then there were articles available from Minghui Weekly and from
other material sites. We had thoughts of re-establishing our materials site.
Practitioner B, with whom we shared our thoughts, supported us. We thus resumed
operation of our site at the beginning of 2005. This truly came from a single
thought. When you want to do something and have that thought, Master will
arrange it for you. Our Master did it all. This time the operation was a
complete secret, out of consideration that the original one body operation
should not be interrupted. Right then, the network operation Practitioner A ran
was not safe enough. He also refused to listen to other practitioners' input. We
were just filling the gaps to supplement Practitioner A's operation. Once we
re-established our materials site, we produced and distributed the Nine
Commentaries on a massive scale. Looking inward to keep one indestructible and harmonious body Not long after, Master's new lecture "Teaching the Fa at the Western
U.S. International Fa Conference" was published. Measuring ourselves
against Master's lecture, we knew we were able to catch up with the progress of
Master's Fa-rectification. We began feeling smug because we understood the Fa
principles well. This showed our attachments to zealotry, to showing-off, and to
self-validation. We should have shared our thoughts and understandings of Fa
principles with Practitioner A to improve together and better harmonize the one
body and do the three things well. But I did not initiate the discussion. Soon it was the end of 2005. When sending materials to another practitioner
we happened to see Practitioner A. They learned at that time about our materials
site. Not longer after that, the supply of Minghui Weekly and some other
materials that Practitioner A had provided us with stopped. Perhaps it was
because Practitioner A thought we already had them. But he did not know that we
could not get onto the Internet. We were beginners in handling technology and
lacked finances. Other practitioners who were relying on us to get Minghui
Weekly were unhappy when we could no longer supply them. We felt great
pressure. But I thought my understanding was right and my actions were
righteous, and I did not want to have any interactions with Practitioner A on
producing materials. Our conflicts became more complicated. It affected other
practitioners in our area as well. The rift in our one body became bigger and deeper. Many practitioners said we
were at a state of disunity. Then I read Master's lecture: "Cultivation is about looking inside yourself. Whether you are right
or wrong, you should examine yourself. Cultivation is about getting rid of
human attachments. If you always reject reproaches and criticism, always point
your fingers at others, and always refute others' disapproval and criticism,
is that cultivating? How is that cultivating? You have grown used to focusing
on other people's shortcomings, and never take examining your own self
seriously. When others' cultivation one day meets with success, what about
you? Isn't Master hoping that you are cultivating well? Why won't you
accept criticism, and why do you keep focusing on other people? Why not
cultivate inward and examine your own self?" ("Teaching the Fa in
the City of Los Angeles") Master pointed this out problem so earnestly. I knew this was about me, but
my mentality of self-validation kept me from examining my faults. Even though I
cultivated in the Fa, I blamed others and waited for others to change. My
husband and I knew this was not right, but we failed to dig deeper in ourselves.
For a period of time I felt sad seeing the disunity in our area. Lacking a
harmonized environment, practitioners did not share experiences or study the Fa
together. My husband and I slacked off as well. Emotions and lust grew. When we
had technical issues, we chose to ask for help from other practitioners instead
of from Practitioner A. Jealousy affected us, too. I realized the old forces had taken advantage of our faults and created a gap
in our unity to reach their goal. I had a hard time figuring out what I had done
wrong, but I completely negated the old forces' arrangements. Even if I have
attachments, I am still cultivating along the path Master arranges for me and do
not allow the old forces to magnify my faults. I started eliminating my
laziness, jealousy, lust, and other faults when I sent righteous thoughts.
However, because I did not let go of my fundamental attachments, my xinxing
was not raised. I saw few results, and things were not getting better. I could
tell that the other practitioners were anxious but did not know what to do. One day I was told that one of our practitioners had been arrested. I was
shocked and regretful. I knew that the old forces had taken advantage of our
attachments and separated us. During this last phase of Fa-rectification, the
evil is still fierce. It is because we still have many faults that nourish the
evil. If we eliminated our faults sooner and looked inward and were tolerant of
others when facing conflicts, wouldn't the whole body be in better harmony?
Wouldn't we do the three things better and save more people? The arrest incident awakened practitioners. We exchanged our thoughts and
understandings and discussed a rescue effort to strengthen the arrested
practitioner with our righteous thoughts. We abandoned our attachments and could
feel each others' pure, compassionate energy field. We made up our minds to walk
well on the last leg of our journey, to play the role of a Dafa particle, and
make our one body harmonious and indestructible. After I returned home, my husband and I made up our minds to be more
diligent, harmonize the family, study the Fa well, and do the three things well
together. We will use a higher standard and overcome technical challenges. We
will keep up with the pace of Master's Fa-rectification, do a better job
clarifying the truth, and offer more sentient beings salvation. Cultivating in
the Fa is the safest. The journey Master arranges is the most righteous. Only by
accomplishing our mission will we be worthy of Master's benevolent and
painstaking salvation. I realized that practitioners who obtain the Fa at different times have
different missions, different cultivation journeys, and different tests and
tribulations. Each cultivation era reflects one's xinxing differently. We
all will grow and improve. I hope all fellow practitioners will abandon human notions and get rid of
faults and not leave any regrets in this last cultivation phase. Let us walk
well and walk righteously on the path and truly become selfless, considering
others before ourselves, and reach Consummation and follow Master home! Please point out anything inappropriate. Thank you, Master! Thank you, Fellow
Practitioners! Heshi!
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