(Clearwisdom.net) I am 19 years old now. I had the good fortune of obtaining the Fa in 1995. Although I was only 7 years old, I persisted in studying the Fa and practicing the exercises with my mother. With Teacher's gentle hints, I saw many splendid scenes in other dimensions. However, after the persecution of Falun Gong was launched on July 20, 1999, my cultivation environment was destroyed, and my mother was sent to a forced labor camp. As a result, I gradually began relaxing my cultivation. I will always feel regret for that.

Teacher said in Fa Teaching at the 2007 New York Fa Conference,

"Many young Dafa disciples have gone in the other direction and become quite bad as they grew up, and that is the reason."

I feel that I had fallen into that state after the persecution began. Actually, I had considered writing down my experiences two years ago, but failed to do so because I had too many attachments. Then recently, I read many articles by practitioners my own age in the "Mingui Weekly." Afterward, I made my decision to write down my experiences of assisting Teacher and validating Fa with my mother. My purpose is to validate the enormous grace of Teacher and indestructibility of the Fa.

Validating the Fa in Beijing

At the end of 2000, I went to Beijing to validate the Fa with my mother. At that time, I was preparing for my final exams. When I learned that my mother was going to go to Beijing, I asked if I could go with her. Mother responded seriously, "You are a young disciple. If your intent is to validate the Fa in Beijing, you may come with me. If, instead, you're concerned about being separated from me, you'd better stay at home." I insisted on going to Beijing to assist Teacher and validate the Fa. I also said confidently, "If we accidentally get separated in Beijing, other practitioners will definitely take me home" (I had read articles that recounted similar experiences). In this way, my mother and I stepped onto the path of validating the Fa.

After traveling through many towns, mother and I went to Tiananmen Square four times. But I did not have the courage to shout out, "Falun Dafa is good". Also, I was not able to unfurl my banner. On my last opportunity, before I had time to unfurl the banner, a police officer snatched it from me. Teacher said,

"Each opportunity will not occur again."("Digging Out the Roots" from Essentials for Further Advancement)

At that time, I felt that I forever missed this golden opportunity.

The second time, I was seized and taken to the Xuanwu District Police Department in Beijing. The officers interrogated me by myself for five hours. During this period, I was threatened by several officers. At times, I refused to answer any questions; other times, I cried and asked, "Where is my mother?" The officers pointed at the map and asked, "Where is your hometown?" I answered, "It is not on the map." Finally, they did not have any choice but to release me.

During that time, we were kept in the prison yard from 10 a.m. until midnight. When my mother was taken away for interrogation the last time, I was left alone on the grounds. Several officers monitored me. One of them wanted to bring me into the canteen. I told him, "You may as well go indoors, I prefer to stay by myself." I did not have an ounce of fear then. I knew, without a doubt, that Teacher was beside me. When my mother returned after being beaten up, we began to hold a hunger strike in the canteen.

At about 4 a.m. the next day, two officers drove us to the West Railway Station. Before leaving, they said, "You are welcome to come to Beijing as tourists." The implication was that we'd better not come to appeal in Beijing. Afterward, we met a little girl who had also come to Beijing to validate the Fa with her mother, but somehow they got separated. So my mother bought some red paper, cut it and wrote "Falun Dafa is good" on it. Then we all distributed it on Qianmen Street. Some people took it, saying "Thank you." Other kindhearted people helped us distribute it. Others threatened to report us to the police. We had no fear at all. All I thought about was what Teacher said in "Eliminate Your Last Attachment(s)",

"...just by having your heart unaffected you will be able to handle all situations." (Essentials for Further Advancement II )

We stayed in Beijing for nine days. Later, my father came to Beijing and took us home.

Inconceivably, although I was away for half a month, the scores on my final exams were quite good. Even my teachers were surprised.

Eliminating the Attachment of Fear by Distributing Truth-Clarifying Materials

After my mother returned home from the forced labor camp, we began another round of validating the Fa. While in the forced labor camp, my mother had been mistreated, which caused her to become lame. Due to the inconvenience of my mother's injured leg, and the surveillance from our family members, it took us a long time to distribute the hundred pieces of truth-clarification material that we received from fellow practitioners. Both my mother and I were anxious. Sometimes, we wandered about and were not sure where to post the material, then ended up taking them back home.

Once, we went out to post some fliers made of red paper. After posting several pieces, our hands were covered with paste and our clothes were covered with red ink. Later a fellow practitioner told me that we could distribute the materials in the apartment corridors during the day. With this inspiration, I distributed more than 70 pieces at one time. That was the first time that I had distributed informational materials outside by myself. Since my experience was not sufficient, I underwent many hardships. But after I went through them and looked back, all the hardships were false appearances created by my attachment to fear.

A Particle of the Whole

My mother and I became involved in a materials production site, after learning Teacher's Fa,

"This is especially so for the Dafa disciples in Mainland China: each must come out and clarify the truth, bringing it to every field and valley, mountain and hill, not omitting a single area where there are people."( Let Go of Human Attachments and Save the World's People)

We left home at about 5 p.m., then rode bicycles for about 5 miles. We returned home before 6 a.m. Several times, our tires leaked, and we had to run home on foot. It took us at least 70 minutes to run 5 miles. In the winter, when my mother and I arrived home, our hair was stiff from the frost. Although we endured many hardships, we always thought about the sentient beings we were saving, so we never had a complaint. Then, after we had been involved in the materials site for a long time, it was destroyed by the police, so we had to move the equipment to our home. In the beginning, we were afraid of the difficulties this could cause for us. But in the process of studying Fa, cultivation, and making the materials, we were able to let go of many attachments.

On the path of cultivation, we experienced endless hardships, regrets, and tears. Depending on our steadfast belief in Teacher and the Fa, we made it through tribulations; fearful at times, but not endangered. I clearly know that I still have many shortcomings to overcome, so I will do the three things more diligently, and fulfill my vows as a Dafa disciple during the Fa-Rectification period.