(Clearwisdom.net) Last night at 7:00 p.m., as I was listening to a Minghui Radio program on my headphones, I suddenly heard a voice at the door, accompanied by the sound of a key being used to open the door. I immediately took off my headphones. At first, I didn't think it came from the door, as I had my headphones on. Then I thought that it might be my husband who got drunk and couldn't open the door.
I asked, "Who's it?" As I was opening the door, I saw a stranger standing at the doorway. Being alert, I closed the door immediately. He tried to push it open, but I pushed hard enough to close it. He was shouting outside. I got very scared, thinking that it might be someone coming to arrest me, or someone trying to rob my house. The first thought I had was to call my husband. So I called him and said, "Come home immediately! Some drunk or robber is trying to break into our house. Bring a few people with you!" After I hung up the phone with my husband, I called my sister, a fellow practitioner who lived nearby my house.
When I phoned her, she reminded me about the story she had previously told me of a fellow practitioner who went to the streets to pass out truth-clarification materials. This practitioner was followed by a drunk. Being scared, she dialed "110" for help. The drunk person got scared and ran away before the police arrived. After I heard the story, I asked her, "Why didn't she think of Master and Dafa at that time? Why didn't she think of herself as a Fa-rectification period Dafa disciple? Wouldn't the evil disintegrate if she had righteous thoughts? She is a Dafa disciple. She should have thought of Master and Dafa when she encountered danger. She should always use her righteous thoughts instead of human thoughts." My sister said, "That's what I told her, too." This incident took place several years ago.
After I heard it, my righteous thought emerged, I remembered that I am a Dafa disciple, "What do I have to be afraid of?" As I strengthened my righteous thoughts, my fear disappeared. The voice outside the house became weaker and soon went away. Then someone was knocking at the door again. This time it was my sister and her family. They told me that someone living in the next building with the same room number as mine got drunk and thought this was his home. As we were talking, we heard someone arguing by the stairs. My husband was quarreling with that stranger. My husband was drunk, too. He rushed home only because he received my phone call.
I sat down on the sofa, thinking that all of the troubles were caused by my human thoughts. My husband was still getting angry at me and spoke irrationally. I started looking inward, thinking of the rocky and bumpy path I have traveled in my 10-plus years of cultivation. Under Master's care and mercy and with the help of my fellow practitioners, I have been very lucky to make it through today without giving up cultivation. I had once asked a fellow practitioner with tears in my eyes, "Why has my cultivation path been so difficult? Why do I encounter so many tribulations? Compared with you, your path is much easier than mine." Now I understand why. tribulations are always a part of cultivation. What matters is how you take them when they come. If you use human thoughts instead of righteous thoughts, then you have not handled yourself well in following Dafa and Master in conducting yourself. Looking back to 2001, I was held in prison because I always used my human thoughts instead of my godly thoughts when faced with persecution.
I was detained in a brainwashing center in 2009. Again, my human thoughts superseded my godly thoughts. Recently, I have finally awakened. I realized that I have been in a wrong state of mind. I couldn't cultivate like this. I have cultivated in Falun Dafa for over 10 years. Knowing that something is wrong and not changing it, is not genuine cultivation. Whether at my workplace, doing household chores or clarifying the truth to save beings, I always did so with an ordinary person's mindset. Sometimes I think I am a pretty good cultivator: "Because I practice Falun Dafa, I have managed to handle the problems and conflicts well in my family and work environment." I don't think this thought was well-grounded in the Fa.
Master said:
"Put frankly, when it comes to the questions of whether someone can obtain the Fa and whether someone can cultivate all the way, there will be different forms of interference for different people. Those troubles all stem from the person's own past actions, so no one should complain. Who can obtain the Fa? Who can break out of the shell? And who can truly, rationally see this Fa for what it is? Viewed in this light, things are indeed fair for sentient beings." ("Teaching the Fa in Canada, 2006")
Looking back at my 10-plus years of cultivation, I finally realize that I have not cultivated well in the Fa. Today, it is time to break away from my human thoughts and completely rectify myself according to the standards of the Fa.
Thank you Master! Thank you fellow practitioners!
