(Clearwisdom.net) I am 44, and work as a nanny. I began practicing Falun Gong in August 2007. When I read Zhuan Falun for the first time, I found it hard to put down and I finished it in three days. I knew I had found what I had been seeking my whole life, and I made up my mind to practice Falun Gong for the rest of my life.
Because of all the misfortunes of my marriage and my family, I had led a very unhappy life. In addition, I suffered from many illnesses, which distressed me so much that I considered committing suicide. My condition completely changed after I began to practice Falun Gong. I became happy all the time, and all of my sadness and worries disappeared. My health also improved, as all of my illness vanished. Falun Gong taught me the true meaning of life: returning to my true self and my true home through cultivating myself. I came to understand the reason I am here and how I should live in this world. Many problems that had puzzled me were solved.
Two months ago, my sister-in-law was found to have terminal gastric cancer. She had an operation to remove a large part of her stomach. The cancerous cells had already spread into her blood and lymph nodes, and her illness was deemed terminal. My brother and my mother could do nothing to help her. They just sobbed in great sorrow. I told her that only Falun Dafa could save her life. In the beginning, my family members did not believe me and insisted that we should trust science. Seeing no other way out, my sister-in-law finally agreed to try my suggestion and read the Dafa books. One week later, during a routine physical exam in the hospital, the doctors found that the cancerous cells in her body were gone. It was really miraculous! My brother and my mother were ecstatic and grateful to Dafa and Teacher for having saved her life.
When I had just started practicing, I distributed informational materials about Falun Gong with other fellow practitioners in different residential areas in our city. While I passed out fliers, I was not afraid of being reported to police. The only thing that I wanted was to help as many people as possible understand the truth about Falun Gong. Normally, I went to the top floor of a building and distributed the materials as I worked my way down. In the process, I maintained the thought that only good people could see me, while people with bad intentions would not see me. Each time before I left to distribute materials, I would send forth the righteous thoughts that I am a divine being and no one could see me distributing the materials.
Through studying the Fa I learned that I, as a Dafa practitioner, should do the three things well. So I began clarifying the facts about Falun Gong to people that I met. One day, I talked with a woman in her 60s. She told me, “What you told me really makes sense. I have a headache every day, but today I feel much better after you talked with me.”
One day, I drove my wagon to transport some goods. When I came back, I saw an elderly lady looking at me from the side of the road. I did not realize that I should stop to talk with her about the truth about Falun Gong until after I had passed her. So, I drove back and talked with her. After talking with her, I thought: ”It is really cold today but she went out on the road. She is 90 years old. Didn't Teacher arrange this? I almost missed the precious opportunity of telling her the facts about Falun Gong.” Another day, when I was on the way home after distributing informational materials, I saw an elderly man looking at me in the street. He was still watching me, even after I was a long way away from him, but I simply went home without stopping to talk with him. The next day when I got up, my mouth was terribly swollen, which reminded me that I had been wrong. I should have clarified the truth to him but I did not. I felt very regretful for that.
Once, I bought an Epson printer, but it did not work properly. I tried to fix it, but the problem persisted. I wasted a lot of paper, and the materials it printed looked bad. I sent forth righteous thoughts, but it still did not work. After trying many options, all to no avail, I considered changing to a Canon printer because I used a Canon printer before and it worked well. That day, I tried to find out if there was anything improper in my cultivation according to Dafa principles. I realized that I had been quite selfish when I dealt with my sister. I always focused on my Fa study and Dafa exercises, and never helped her around the house. I knew I should be more considerate of her. After I corrected my deficiency, the problem with the printer was gone and the quality of the printed materials became very good. The printer was repaired instantly. Witnessing the miracle of looking inside, I paid even more attention the cultivation of my xinxing.
About 6 months after I began practicing Falun Gong, my son was hit by a car while he was riding his bicycle to school. He was not injured in the accident, but his bicycle was badly damaged. He told me he felt like he was floating in the air and landed gently after he was hit. I could not imagine what would have happened, had it not been for Teacher's protection.
Once, my son and I were overcome by gas poisoning for five days, but we were brought back from the brink of death and saved by Teacher. Teacher is taking care of us all the time and everywhere. Through discussing the truth about Falun Dafa, I have saved many people, but I did not do it well, as I did not have enough compassion. I did it just like I was doing an ordinary job. I also failed to let go of my attachment to seeking a comfortable life and showing off. Usually, when I sent forth righteous thoughts, I could not concentrate, and sometimes I fell asleep. I was sleepy even in the daytime. I had been in such a bad state for quite a long time, but I did not let go of it nor send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the substances behind it. It has not been easy for me to write this article, as I had much interference before I made up my mind to write it. Now, I expose and eliminate the interference so that I can rectify myself and be a worthy practitioner.
Although my cultivation status is not so stable, at times I am diligent, while other times I am lazy, I am always happy for my cultivation. I am grateful to Teacher for having saved me and replaced my selfishness with altruism. The only thing that I can do to thank Teacher is to be steadfast in my cultivation.
Finally, I hope that everyone will understand the truth about Falun Gong, so that they can have a better future.
