A Falun Gong Booklet Brings Me Back to Cultivation
(Clearwisdom.net) I went out shopping for the first time after the 2005 Chinese New Year, on February 19, 2005. On the sidewalk near my residence, I saw a booklet. Not knowing what it was about, I walked on. However, as I walked, the words “The Predestined” appeared in my mind, and I thought, “Does this mean that the booklet is somehow related to me?” I then quickly went back, picked it up, and put it in my pocket.
After I got home that day, I immediately opened the booklet. Wow! The word “Predestined” truly was printed on the cover page, and thereafter, the content of the booklet drew my immediate attention. I learned that the “Tiananmen Square Self-immolation” was staged, and directed by Jiang Zemin’s regime to defame Falun Gong. Liu Chunling, who died in the Tiananmen Immolation tragedy, actually died from a blow to the head. The government also twisted the facts of the Falun Gong practitioners’ peaceful mass appeal of April 25, 1999, and wrongfully accused them of “attacking the government.” A large number of practitioners have since been tortured to death or paralyzed from torture because they were steadfast in their belief in Dafa.
As I read, I suddenly felt that I was a stray child who had just been brought home by her father. I cried, "Master, you are now being wrongfully accused. I have made mistakes, but please forgive me!"
My husband was on the Internet then and wondered why I was crying. I handed him the booklet, and wept, “I will continue practicing Falun Gong.” After reading the booklet, my husband was also shocked. A while later, he finally knew what he wanted to say, “You can practice at home then.”
I had stopped practicing Falun Gong after the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) began to persecute Falun Gong on July 20, 1999. It had been five years since I stopped practicing. That booklet helped me break through the interference that the CCP had created, so that I was able to return to cultivation.
1. Master Cleansed My Body When I First Began Practicing Falun Gong
I was born in the countryside in 1955. After going through lots of tribulations, I finally was able to get a government job in 1997. A dozen years later, I became a manager in a key section of the agency until I retired due to illnesses.
I was previously an iron-willed woman. In the countryside, I fought with people for money; at school, I competed with people for academic rankings; at work, I competed for titles; and at home, I competed for heritage. I had a strong personality and cared a lot about fame and my appearance. I fought with everyone around me, and was always very “sharp.” Even though I was finally successful at work and had gained a high position, my physical health had gone downhill. I had gastroenteritis, cholecystitis, pelvic inflammation, rheumatoid arthritis, and a dozen other illnesses. I was in pain both physically and mentally.
I entered the gate of cultivation in May 1995. Soon after I learned the five exercises, I had a dream that Master was smiling and standing beside my bed with something that looked like a belt in his hand, and telling me that he would clean my colon. My stomach was very warm after I woke up the next morning, and I had never before experienced that kind of comfort in my life. From then on, I stopped taking my long-prescribed pills. In less than three months I went back to the hospital for a checkup, and the tests showed that my three pelvic cysts had disappeared. In six months, my other illnesses had also vanished.
2. The Sad and Miserable Life I Lived after I was Forced to Stop Practicing Falun Gong
The CCP began to persecute Falun Gong in July 1999. In addition, the regime staged the “self-immolation” to incite confusion and hatred among the Chinese people. Under pressure from my work and my husband, I chose to safeguard the unity of my marriage and accept a job promotion. I had unwillingly handed in my Falun Gong materials, and had also done quite a few things against Dafa.
During those few years without Dafa, I suffered from up to twenty different kinds of illnesses. The worst was an eye syndrome – my eyes were swollen and itched very badly, and were very dry and sensitive to light. In addition, my vision was blurred and I felt very miserable. A doctor, who was also a friend of mine, once told me that she had seen two patients who suffered from symptoms similar to mine, and they felt so miserable that they both eventually killed themselves. Had I not learned from the Dafa teachings that committing suicide was a sin, I probably would have also ended my life.
In the spring of 2002, I had no choice but to take long-term disability and stay home. I relied on my eighty-year-old mother-in-law to help me to the bathroom whenever I had medicine in my eyes. I had to use artificial tears imported from America daily. My husband grew very impatient with me when my condition didn't improve for a long time. He often told me scornfully, “Your salary can't even cover the costs of your medicine.” He intentionally found fault with me, and had even implied to me several times that I should go end my life.
3. Remembering Master When I was On the Verge of Dying
I was taken to the hospital emergency room early on the morning of June 13, 2004, when my pelvic inflammation recurred, and the pustule perforated. Lying on the bed in the surgery room, I could feel that death was imminent. Under that duress, I suddenly remembered what Master told us,
“If you do not follow the requirements of the Fa, you are not a practitioner of Falun Dafa. Because you want to be an everyday person, your body will be reset to the level of everyday people and the bad things will be returned to you.” (Zhuan Falun)
I then lay my sole hope for survival on Master, and I began begging Master to save me. I confessed my wrong deeds and also recited, Lunyu from Zhuan Falun. Then miracles happened. After the doctors injected a large volume of anesthetic drugs into my body, they were unable to make me sleep, neither did I feel pain. Thus, I was awake during the two-hour surgery. The doctors were amazed at how I didn't feel the pain at all. I knew then that Master had forgiven me and had given me a second life. In my heart, I constantly called out to Master, "Master, thank you very much for saving my life. I will return to Dafa and go home with Master."
Since the CCP’s Tiananmen Self-immolation drama deeply polluted the Chinese people’s view of Falun Gong, I was at a loss on how to face the people around me. I wanted to cultivate but did not know how to tell them. While I hesitated, Master came to the rescue again. He led me to find the booklet, “The Predestined” which helped open the minds of myself and my family. The booklet brought me back to Falun Dafa cultivation practice.
4. A Brand New Me Standing bBefore the World After I Returned to Cultivation in Dafa
I dearly treasure the valuable opportunity that I have regained. So I practice the exercises and study the Fa every single day, and I do my best to follow Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. I have also begun to care less about fame, financial benefits, and sentiments.
I stopped going to the dance bars even though I had been very addicted to dancing before. I was so addicted to dancing that I even danced while I was eating, walking, and dreaming.
I now do my best to treat people with honesty. For many years in the past, I held a grudge against a lady who lived in my neighborhood. After I told her the truth about Dafa, our grudges were resolved. She was surprised to see the changes in me.
Because my xinxing has improved, my physical health has also gone through a dramatic makeover. I can sleep well now. In the past, I could seldom fall asleep, but now I need an alarm clock to wake me up.
My digestive system has also improved. In the past, I had to sanitize the silverware, and boil apples before eating them. Now I can eat anything and can even drink tap water again.
My eyes are not only healed, but have also brightened up. I was not able to read or watch TV before, but now I can read books and go online without wearing glasses.
My hearing has also improved. When I was six years old, I put a green bean into my right ear. From then on, the ear often had inflammation, and it severely hurt. Gradually, my hearing deteriorated. After watching the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party DVDs for the first time, my body started to shiver with a high fever. After the fever subsided, my right ear began to hurt severely, and afterwards, pus came out. When I watched the DVDs the second time, my right ear itched badly. I scratched it with my finger, and then noticed a thick dark sticky object coming out. When I took a closer look at it, I found out that it was a deformed green bean peel. From then on, my hearing improved dramatically.
I have also become younger. I had been well-known as a “medicine jar” in the past to everyone I knew. People remember clearly that I had to wear a pair of sunglasses to cover my eye condition, but now my skin is very fair, and I have changed into a brand new person. People often tell me that I look like I’m in my forties even though I am over sixty years old.
I truly feel that my moral standards have improved, and I am very happy now that there are no longer any illnesses affecting me. I believe that I am one of the luckiest people on earth.