Standing up Again After Falling Down -- - Solemn Statements From Practitioners

Solemn Statement

I got to know Falun Dafa in 1997. On December 23, 2001 I was arrested and thrown into a detention center. I was detained there for one month and then I was sent to a class to receive forced brainwashing. Because I did not have strong righteous thoughts, I wrote, under duress, the so-called "Three Guarantee Letters." After I came out of the jail, my xinxing level dropped to the level of ordinary people and my body started to show symptoms of illness. I felt extremely agonized in my heart and very regretful. With the encouragement and help of my fellow practitioners, I started my cultivation again. Through this tragic lesson, I felt deeply in my heart that to treasure Dafa is to treasure one's own life. At the same time, I have dug out the root that caused me to make this serious mistake. I had been under the control of thought karma for a long time and my thoughts often wandered about wildly while studying the Fa. I had not gotten out of its control during the time period of my previous cultivation. It is my understanding from something that Teacher once said, that studying the Fa with a mind of wild and uncontrolled thoughts is a very, very serious problem. Therefore, without laying a solid foundation of cultivation, I made a big mistake and did something that a Dafa practitioner should absolutely never do. Hereby, I solemnly declare that the things I wrote in the brainwashing class that are harmful to Dafa are invalid. I will resume my cultivation steadfastly, redouble my efforts to make up for the damage, and catch up with the progress of Fa-rectification.

August 2002

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I started to practice Falun Dafa in 1996. In July and October of 1999, after I went to Beijing to appeal for Dafa, I was sentenced to three years in a forced labor camp. During the one year in the detention center, I had been very determined. However, after I was sent to the forced labor camp in December 2000, I became the very kind of person that Teacher mentioned below. "...they have, in the interest of their attachments and to justify their behavior, gone along with the lies and willingly accepted evil "enlightenment," while pretending they didn't want to."("A Suggestion") After I bought into the twisted interpretations of Dafa, as well as being influenced by a strong attachment to showing-off and ordinary people's mentality, I was controlled and taken advantage of by the evil more and more. I deviated from my true nature further and further, becoming a tool for the evil. I was helping a tyrant doing evil. I was hiding my real attachments under the pretense of giving up the attachment for Consummation and the human mentality. I not only deceived myself but also other practitioners. During the year in the labor camp, I wrote many materials about the evil interpretations Dafa. I feel shameful when I recall this. After I was released from the labor camp in 2001, I still did not wake up and was stuck on the evil cultivation path for half a year. But Teacher's compassion is tremendous and the power of Buddha Fa is boundless. Under the boundless grace of Buddha, I gradually became clear-minded. My immediate first feeling after I became clear-minded is that of a child who has been lost for a long time and has found the way back home again. At that moment, I felt Teacher was right beside me. No matter how unworthy of Teacher and Dafa I am, and no matter how many wrong things I had done that hurt Dafa, Teacher still did not give up on me. My tears of regret and happiness kept falling. Now I solemnly declare all that I wrote in 2001 and evil interpretations of Dafa are all invalid. I take back all that I said to the media and to the practitioners for purpose of brainwashing! From now on I will take each of my steps with rationality and a clear mind, and catch up with the progress of Fa-rectification. I will firmly cultivate to the end! I will redouble my efforts to undo the damage and reverse the loss I brought to Dafa.

August 12, 2002

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