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I hereby solemnly declare that what I was coerced to write in the "repentance statement" in the forced labor camp, which is against Dafa, is completely void. I'll make every effort to make up for the losses that I caused Dafa.

When I went to Beijing to unfurl a banner, I was arrested and sentenced for one and a half years. The policeman told me that it was a decision made by his superiors, as my age has exceeded that of people who were eligible to be sent to a forced labor camp. There, the police told us: if you refuse to go to the brainwashing session for one day, you will have to stay here for three more days, if you refuse to go to the brainwashing session for one month, you will have to stay here for three more months, if you refuse to go to the brainwashing session for one year, you will have to stay here for three more years, if you refuse to go to the brainwashing session altogether, you will be locked up in the forced labor camp until you die, you will never have freedom again. They arranged drug addicts to take turns guarding us around the clock, to beat us up and swear at us. We had to stand facing a wall all day, forced to put our hands up above our heads and lean on the wall, from 6 o'clock in the morning to past midnight, we weren't allowed to wash our faces or brush our teeth. We ate, drank, urinated and had bowel movements in one room. Fellow practitioners weren't allowed to talk. Collaborators [former Dafa practitioners who had gone astray due to severe torture and brainwashing] took turns in brainwashing me. I had been suffering like this for half a month, I couldn't stand it, I was so worried, the less Fa I could remember, the more worried I became. I was trying to deceive them, so I did the false "repentance statement."

After I was released, I calmed down, measuring myself against the Fa, even though it wasn't out of my true heart to accept being brainwashed, I brought losses and humiliation to the Fa. Through Fa study, I came to realize how important our responsibilities are as Fa-rectification period Dafa disciples, I should cherish this opportunity, do what I am supposed to do, shouldn't be concerned about my personal losses and gains, or my personal security, and demonstrate the manner of a Dafa practitioner in any circumstance.

Written on October 2002,

From http://www.minghui.ca/mh/articles/2002/11/25/39988.html

Since July 1999, soon after the evil persecution started, my home had been constantly monitored; I was always followed no matter where or when I went. This led to the fact that since 2001 my son has been forced to be homeless to avoid the persecution. During the period when my husband was hospitalized, until he passed away half a year later, I wasn't very strict with myself on the Fa-study when looking after him. On July 24, 2002, the evil lured me into a brainwashing session. In the first two days, I kept righteous thoughts and sent forth righteous thoughts non-stop, so they took me as a "key" member in the brainwashing session. They even took advantage of my son being homeless to threaten me, so I began to worry about my son a little bit. Meanwhile, they forced me to watch all kinds of videotapes (defaming Dafa); moreover, they were trying to get me to write "exposing materials." During the past 6 years, Teacher has given me a healthy body and taught me how to be a good person, and didn't ask me for a penny, I had nothing to expose. Due to my mind being unclear, and I was a little bit worried about my son, I also had some fear, so that the evil stepped in and took advantage of it. After that, I was very regretful, and I couldn't forgive myself. From then on, I lost contact with my fellow practitioners. I even thought about ending my life and had this idea for quite a while. I was in such pain! Thinking about Teacher's lectures in the past 6 years, I felt so shameful about myself. Even under these circumstances, our compassionate Teacher hasn't abandon me, instead, he helped me out by creating a new Fa studying environment for me, now I can carry out Fa studies and do the exercises.

Since I woke up from this nightmare, first of all, I would like to solemnly declare that what I wrote is void. I will study the Fa seriously, and cultivate steadfastly. I am back in the Fa-rectification process. I hereby thank Teacher for giving me a new life for the second time. I will make use of this limited time period, steadfastly finish my remaining path in the Fa-rectification, and I will make up for the losses to the Fa.

Written on November 8, 2002

From http://www.minghui.ca/mh/articles/2002/11/26/40037.html

Because I didn't have a deep understanding of the Fa, plus my enlightenment quality is poor, I didn't do very well after July 20, 1999. Especially when I was asked to submit Dafa books, I didn't think it over, but thought I still had other books anyways, it didn't matter to me to hand in one or two copies, just to cope with the situation. Now I realized how wrong I was, they are such precious books, I am so regretful! There was another time a "forum" was held, when the discussion was going on, I said something which wasn't in keeping with a Dafa practitioner, I then realized I did it because I had fear. A Dafa practitioner shouldn't do such things. I did not deserve to be a Dafa practitioner. After that, whenever I either studied the Fa or did the exercises, those things would pop up, I was in such pain! Now I solemnly declare that: what I did or said that are against Dafa are void. I will come back to my cultivation path again, be a qualified Dafa practitioner. I will make every effort to make up for the losses.

Written on November 23, 2002

Translated on December 8, 2002 from http://www.minghui.ca/mh/articles/2002/11/28/40118.html

I obtained the Fa in the fall of 1996, but I only understood the Fa emotionally. On July 20, 1999, when the evil started persecuting Dafa, and forced us to hand in the books, and swear at our Teacher. Because I didn't study the Fa diligently, my enlightenment quality was poor, and I was very scared, the evils were crazy, and I ended up cooperating with them. I did something that I wasn't supposed to do, and said something against the Fa. However, I couldn't let go of Dafa in my heart, I studied the Fa and did the exercises at home continuously.

In July 2000, five of us in my family went to Beijing to validate the Fa, my home ended up being ransacked by the village government, my front yard gate was even taken away, and so was my wok. I was fined a total of 10,000 Yuan [Chinese currency, the monthly salary for an average Chinese urban worker is about 500 Yuan]. In 2002, we came back to the Fa-rectification, in order to validate the Fa, assist Teacher in this human world, and help people who have a predestined relationship obtain the Fa, I went out of town for two days. When I came back, some evil people of the village government ransacked my home again, took away all my furniture, even asked me, "Do you still practice?" I said, "Yes, I do." So then, they held me at the detention center for half a month. Coming back on April 18, 2002, the village government police station sent me again to the county brainwashing base, under the high pressure of the evil, I was forced to write "brainwashing statement, determination statement and repentance statement." None of which was done out of my true heart. I solemnly declare that all I wrote is null and void.

Since then, I have had a mental burden, I always feel desperate, I am sorry for my great Teacher, and I feel I do not deserved to be Teacher's student. I received Teacher's "Touring North America to Teach the Fa" lecture, in which Teacher said, "Of course, this undertaking hasn't been completed yet, Fa-rectification hasn't been concluded, so there's still a chance for you to do well again. Indeed, as long as there's still one day when the persecution hasn't ended, that day is an opportunity. Use it well, do better, come back sooner, and don't miss any more opportunities. Don't dwell on your past mistakes--if you've made mistakes, then do well from now on." This encouraged me again. I deeply feel the benevolence and care for us from our Teacher. I will never disappoint Teacher for saving us, no matter how much difficulty I will come across. I will be firm in my righteous thoughts, and deny evil old forces arrangements. I will make every effort to make up for the losses, keep up closely with Teacher's Fa rectification process, and be a qualified Dafa practitioner.

Written on September 1, 2002

From http://www.minghui.ca/mh/articles/2002/11/29/40166.html

Posting date: 12/14/2002
Original article date: 12/14/2002
Category: Solemn Declarations
Translated on 12/8/2002
Chinese version available at http://www.minghui.ca/mh/articles/2002/11/29/40166.html

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